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i shouldn’t do this but i guess this is my space that i feel safe to validate my feelings

10年了真的很不容易我就是放不过我自己

他已经不属于我了我明明就懂但我还是让他回来

我明明就懂他不爱我了

我明明就懂应该醒来了

我明明就懂要离开他

我明明就懂我为了他会伤痕累累

我还是决定继续努力和他好好沟通

我觉得有一天我们一定可以走到最后

可能我会理解他做的一切

他也会明白我是真的在乎我们的关系

每一次我们吵架，我一直都在问我自己到底我是不是说错了什么，我是不是不应该这样做呢

我真的很累

我突然觉得我很卑微，爱你爱得那么卑微

我还应该去爱你吗？

那一晚你在我梦里的时候，我的心真的很痛我发现我真的还是很想你

但我明白我们真的不适合

想回去我们一起上学的日子，你永远都是那个做早餐给我吃的男生

再见吧亲爱的

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so stupid

wake the fuck up

Voting ended onFeb 11, 2025

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cherokeeghostwriter

hold the wheel

never say “trust me” -to me. my life experience is littered with the wreckage of misplaced faith in other people. one of my weaknesses was that i trusted too easily. as a child my mother would counsel me, often saying that i should be more discerning, and a little less naive. i was a solitary boy, desperate for friends. i didn’t understand how to fit in, and was the object of much bullying in school. as an adult i built my walls up to the point that it made almost impossible to have any close relationships. the few close friendships that i had and have are hard earned and exhausting. it’s better to say to me “think about it’ i feel more comfortable with this statement. it feels like i have the room to accept or reject. i have more faith in another person who is willing to let me come to my own conclusions; patient enough to wait for a mutual outcome of understanding between us. this feels more honest/authentic. if i ever ask you to hold the steering wheel while i’m driving, you can damn well bet that i trust you.

amargedom

“You say you love rain, but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining. You say you love wind, but when it comes you close your windows. So that’s why I’m scared when you say you love me.”

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