Summer 2k14 (draft from 2014)
I had this huge motivation to redeem ourselves and recapture that elusive summer spirit that we had lost last year. And as I sit here, on my last night in SCV, I like to think #wedidit. Honestly, this room feels even more like home than it did before, and it hurts knowing that this chapter in my life is closing.
It's bittersweet, but I'm glad we all made those memories. Through the work life, the school life, the vacation life, we still made time for each other in our busy schedules.
Over the past couple years of being on my own, away from family and friend's that I consider my second family, I've met a wide arrange of people, but only a few special friends that I could really trust and add to my inner circle. I've waded through fakeness and insincerity to realize just how lucky and blessed to call these wonderful people my friends. There's no one like you guys and girls. I don't tell them enough how much they mean to me, I just hope they can see it, or better yet, feel it, with everything I do and everything I say.
There's just something so intimate and special about sharing something. Sharing it with someone who gives a damn to listen to you, and recognizing just how important it can be to you. Those kind people are rare in our stage of life.
From a summer full of 4:20 and 5:05 snaps and amazing concert experiences, the most significant change has to be finding that new resurgence of self-importance and self-worth. I always prided myself on doing everything I could for my friends, even at the cost of myself, and even now I still do. But that urge had turned into a necessity, and soon, I felt unable to do anything for myself. I wasn't comfortable being me. It was like I needed someone there to watch me, and if no one was there, then was the point? Living all the way in San Diego, was I in a city or an island?
And here I am, looking at the Fall semester, with the same unrealistic optimism that has found me every summer, standing a little taller than I have before with hopes of finally following through with those big words of mine.














