i know i'm back in my body

but all that i am hearing in the poem of my mind are silent twisted words finding their way in every line

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ivyvangxx​:

“Yeah, I guess. Not many people making me cookies, though.” Ivy managed a bit of a half-hearted laugh, shoulders lifting in a shrug. “The ones here aren’t bad, though. Those, like, ones that you buy in the bakery.” She managed to vaguely wave back toward that section of the store, a little smile tugging at her lips before it fell away, eyes widening slightly at the seemingly out of nowhere offer. It wasn’t really…. a normal for her. “I… uh… That’s nice of you. Don’t even ask for my name before you’re inviting me over. I’m not exactly… good with kids, though. How– uhm– how old is your daughter? No offence but you don’t exactly look old enough to have a kid.”

Alexandra thought that sounded sort of sad, but realistically, no one was making her cookies either. But she made her own cookies, so it was okay. “Yeah, I bought some of them when I first moved in. They’re pretty good. That bakery downtown has good ones, too. Mine are better though. Don’t tell,” she said with a grin. She laughed, putting her stuff down and reaching her hand out. “I’m Alexandra,” she said, introducing herself. “She’s seven. Yeah, I get that a lot. I was nineteen when she was born. It was really young for having a kid.”

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frankieclarke​:

“Oh yeah, she was telling me about how Grammys are the worst too”, he chuckled. “Mostly classical rock, jazz. A lot of Sinatra and Ray Charles for sure… it was my father’s influence while growing up” he explained. “And from modern music its mostly indie, I did absolutely love Arctic Monkeys’ latest album despite the reception it had, I think I’m a little bit of an old soul”, he let out a small laugh. “That’s true, maybe if Billie Eilish would have made the Avengers soundtrack I’d be familiar with her”, he joked, then took another sip of his mango smoothie. “I desperately started asking if mom and dad were okay and then she still took a while to calm down her sobbing just to say ‘Zayn quit One Direction’, imagine my reaction… that’s something we laugh about a lot now though”

“I like your sister. She sounds great,” she said with a smile. “My husband liked classical rock. I can get on board with some classic jazz,” she decided, nodding a bit. “I’ve only heard songs from that one popular album I think, but they’re not bad either. It does sound like you are! But you did warm up to Billie one you knew you liked her,” Alexandra reminded him with a smile. She laughed. “Yeah, maybe. Though I feel like a lot of the music in those movies sounds the same from movie to movie,” she countered. She laughed, nodding as she remembered that period of time. “It was really stressful! We were scared for the band! And look what happened! I’m not saying they broke up because of him, but it certainly didn’t help their odds.”

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Where: Asteria Elementary  When: Afternoon With: @andrecoyle​

Parent teacher conferences were one of the things Alexandra was used to handling on her own, so heading over to the school to meet with Lia’s teacher felt like a completely natural thing to do. She’d met her teacher once before, Mr. Coyle, and she thought he seemed like just the right kind of teacher for Lia. She hoped that her daughter was adjusting to everything in school as well as she seemed like she was, but you could just never tell with kids. She walked down the hall to his class and gave it a knock, not sure if she should just go on in or not.

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ft. amira travis

Ami had needed to learn to cook at a young age. Most of the time her grandparents were at work, and it wasn’t like her dad was coherent enough to make her something. When she learned to read, she started with easy things. Mac and cheese, boiled hot dogs, typical kid meals. But as she’d gotten older, she learned that there was more to life than quick and easy meals. “My favorite things are sheet pan meals. Everything right on one pan, toss it in the oven. I make this really delicious one…autumn bake chicken…that’s really good. It has chicken, sweet potatoes, brussel sprouts, shallots, carrots…it’s really good.”

Alexandra had a bit of experience with those meals. They were the easiest for clean up, though she never really minded doing dishes. Plus, before her husband helped with dishes, which made the whole clean up thing much easier. “Oh, that does sound really good. Do you use a sweeter sauce, or stick with the savory?” she asked curiously. She felt like a brown sugar glaze or a balsamic vinaigrette would be good with that, but a nice rosemary butter would work, too. 

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ft. donovan blackwood

Donovan nodded “Yeah I can see what you mean.” He was very happy to hear about getting Sammy some special home made cookies for her “She would love that and I would be very grateful. I could buy it for you, cause that something you don’t get anywhere. You know you might start selling them I’m sure a lot of people would love to have some pet organic cookies for their furry friends” He laughed “Yeah I know, we can get out of food at my place, we are not nice when we are hungry.” 

Don smiled at Alexandra “How are you?” 

Alexandra waved a hand. She didn’t mind buying the ingredients. And honestly, she didn’t really know what else to do with her money half the time anyway. “Oh, no, it’s no trouble at all!” she promised. “Hey, maybe if they’re a hit and Sammy likes them I can convince Mr. Moore to put them out for the dog owners when they come in!” she said. It was honestly a great idea, but she was trying not to get ahead of herself. “I believe you,” she said with a playful laugh. Alexandra finished checking out and stood to the side with her groceries as he moved to check out. “I’m pretty good. How about you?”

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ft. ivy vang

Ivy usually kept her headphones in at the grocery store. It was her surefire signal that she absolutely didn’t want to be bothered. That universal sign of being unapproachable. But, of course, she had run out of the house without her headphones, because she was in a hurry and paying little attention. So, of course, as she stood shifting from foot to foot in line, heavy basket in hand, she was spoken to and it caused her to stiffen a little, despite the woman clearly being nice and just trying to make small talk. “My secret ingredient is letting someone else make them and then eating them.” She offered back, trying her hardest (and likely failing) not to sound bored. “I don’t bake, and I barely cook. Frozen TV dinners and the Wendy’s drive through keep me going.”

It was obvious that this woman didn’t want to be bothered, but Alexandra had started speaking before she even turned around. She felt bad now, but she wasn’t going to ignore her either. “Hey, that’s a good way to go. No work, no clean up, all the cookies,” she returned with a smile. “Maybe I’m overstepping my bounds, but if you ever wanted to come over for dinner, I’d be happy to have you. It’s usually just me and my daughter. Sometimes our neighbor comes over, too.”

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amixtravis​:

Ami had been staring off into her own little world, without paying much attention to what was going on around her. She’d been thinking about what she was going to make for dinner now that she was finally filling her pantry with food. There were so many options that she could choose from. Hearing someone talk to her, her gaze focused on the face in front of her and she let out a small laugh. “You’d have to ask Nestle…I can’t bake for the life of me. Cook, yes. But baking? I’m awful.”

Alexandra had to admit she felt a bit bad for interrupting the woman behind her. She seemed so caught up in her own thoughts. But she figured what better way to figure out what everyone’s secret ingredients were than to ask? She laughed a bit at her response. “We all have our strengths and weaknesses,” she said playfully. She was pretty sure she’d already exhausted Nestle’s ideas for cookies. “What’s your favorite thing to cook then?” she asked instead. 

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ft. thea rickards

“Hey,” Thea greeted Alexandra as she stood in line to get her smoothie – kale smoothie. “ Of course. I’ll just need to drop my yoga mat in my car.” She was not ready to head home yet and it was such a perfect day out. The sun was shining and there was a light breeze which made it a perfect morning to go to the beach.

After paying for her smoothie, and leaving a tip, Thea readjusted her ponytail and asked, “What did you think of this morning’s class?” Her hazel eyes watched as the worker put a lid on her drink and slide it over to her.

Alexandra had never as many smoothies in her life as she had since she’d come to Asteria. They made great smoothies, and she enjoyed going to the smoothie shop. It was a nice place to stop by. “Sounds good!” she said with a smile. She waited off to the side, looking outside at the world bustling before them, letting herself get lost in her thought. She focused when she heard Thea’s voice, turning to her. “It was good! A bit harder than I was prepared for, but I needed that. What did you think?” she asked, stepping outside with her. She waited for her to put her yoga mat away, enjoying the sunshine and the cool the wind provided. 

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ft. niko valentine

It was Niko’s first week back as captain of the fire department after the injuries he sustained on the job a couple of months back. The firefights welcomed him back with a party and he was glad to be back into the routine of things after that. The Captain was usually a good but sarcastic man, however, the past few days he was more relaxed and happy around the station. People didn’t think he would go back to work after living through one of the worsts experiences they could face on the job, but Niko lived and breathed to help others. He was giving some tasks or the day to the newest recruit when he heard his first name and turned. “Hey, Lexie yeah?” He had seen her before but confirmed it still, pretty positive that Emmi had talked to him about her. His eyes looked at the tray in her hands and he smiled. “Thanks for these, let me take them out of your hands. How’s Lia?” That was right, she had a daughter. He was working on his memory.

It felt good to start to feel settled in, like she sort of belonged here. Everyone was so kind, it was easy enough to get comfortable. Alexandra smiled when he got her name and nodded. “That’s me,” she replied. She handed them over, hoping the department would enjoy them. She knew from her chat with Donovan that he certainly would. “Of course. She’s good! She’s settling in really well. She’d made a few friends, too. She’s having one of the girls over this weekend for a sleepover, which she’s really excited about,” she said, happy that her daughter was doing so well. “I hear you’re back after some time off. Is it nice to be back?”

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ft. ben angelo

Ben had been going about his life without knowing that one of his best friends, if not his only one, had been falling into deeper shit than he could have imagined. He didn’t know that he would get a call from Cass later that day, or that he would leave at one in the morning to find Brayden from Long Island with his dad, Joseph. That was why he was in a relatively decent mood when Niko sent him out on a service run. It was an inspection and he looked at the semi-familiar girl before nodding. “Yeah, Firefighter Angelo. How are you?” He said and walked inside after her. “You’ve been having problems with your smoke alarm and the carbon monoxide detector, right?” Most people just went out to the store and bought the duo pack for $30 but this was Asteria so he used used to being on call for things like these. 

Alexandra smiled brightly and started into her house. “Alexandra Robinson. I’m good, how are you?” she asked, looking over her shoulder at him. “Yeah, the smoke alarm has been beeping. I replaced the battery, but I’m not really sure what else there is that I can do. And someone told me I’m supposed to get the carbon monoxide detector checked every so often, and I don’t really know when this one was last checked,” she explained, feeling like she was kind of rambling on a bit. “Anyway, they’re just down the hall,” she said. “Thanks for stopping by. I haven’t moved since I was like nineteen, and I didn’t do any responsible stuff then,” she laughed.

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ft. frankie clarke

“Is it bad if I say I haven’t? My sister probably played songs from her around me but I never bothered enough to ask who it was and I mean, I don’t really pay much attention to Grammys or that… If I ever watched part of that ceremony ever it was my sister forcing me to”, he chuckled, shaking his head. “Ah, but ask me anything about the MCU and I could go on for hours”, he joked, playfully bragging with a pleased expression. “Okay, I think I was actually being over dramatic… you got me”, he laughed. “When I was in college and this Zayn guy left that group, my sister called me hysterically crying… almost gave me a heart attack”

“I mean, a little,” Alexandra teased. Billie was huge. Even people who didn’t like her knew her. “I can let the Grammys slide because they suck anyway, but what music do you listen to that you haven’t managed to even hear the name Billie Eilish?” she asked. She laughed at that and shrugged a shoulder. “The MCU is great, I won’t deny that, but they’re two different worlds!” she said, taking a sip of her smoothie. She nodded. “Yeah, that was a hard time. I had a one year old, and it was still rough for me. I’m sure that did freak you out. Thank god it was just a boy band, right?”

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text ↣ lexi ❀

Maisie: Okay I'll just get a ride mom

Alexandra: Look in Chicago there is no I'm just gonna walk to your house in the night while I'm drunk. Us girls gotta take care of each other okay I don't want anything happening to anyone. I'll come get you but you better be ready when I get there!

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ft. frankie clarke

open starter @asteriastarters​ || location: juiceup smoothie bar

“So, yesterday my sister was excitedly telling me about this pop singer who’s seemingly huge in 2020 and it was as if she was speaking in Latin to me as I understood nothing and she was dying from second hand embarrassment”, he shook his head before he took another sip of his mango smoothie, still in disbelief of himself as he shared the story. “Then she played her music for me and now I’ve been listening to her album non stop… this Billie Eilish kid, was I living under a rock? Either that or I’m a sixty year old trapped in the body of a twenty seven year old guy”, he laughed a little. “I honestly need to step up my game… last thing I remember is the Backstreet Boys being the biggest boyband of the world”, he joked, chuckling at the person right next to him. 

Alexandra sipped her smoothie slowly as she listened to Frankie’s story, nodding along a bit as he went on. “Well who is she?” she asked when he paused. She laughed when he finally said who it was. “Billie Eilish? You’re telling me you haven’t heard of her? C’mon, you’re not that old,” she teased, shaking her head. “You missed the whole One Direction thing then, huh?” How could he have missed that? She was a huge fangirl, even after she had a kid. Who wasn’t? 

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text ↣ lexi ❀

Maisie: It's Asteria. What's going to happen here?

Maisie: Trust me she's very protective but I'm a grown woman.

Alexandra: Doesn't crime happen everywhere?

Alexandra: I didn't mean literally, I'm just saying, that seems dangerous.

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ft. maisie seabrook

Shrugging lightly, Maisie let out the shortest of laughs. “Basically. I honestly don’t remember too much about London. Just how much I hated my school uniform,” she joked. She wouldn’t burden a stranger with her troubles. “She’s the sweetest lady. Sometimes when she’s up for it, we go for walks together. Maybe we’ll bump into you!” she suggested. It was a small town after all. “No, no it isn’t. And life isn’t a fairytale. No one ever leaves in those,” she shrugged. “You’ll find yourself again, I’m sure of it. It’s always hard to remember who you were when you spent so much time wrapped up in someone. It takes time, but you’ll get there,” she promised her. She grinned triumphantly. “I’d love it if you brought her in! Let me just tie them up for you at the register. No charge, since you’re a first time customer.”

Alexandra didn’t think she could remember anything that happened in her life when she was that young. It was hard to try. It made her sort of sad. Lia wouldn’t even remember her father, at least not much. He was a good dad. “Those memories always stick,” she teased. “You’ll have to make a point to introduce me, then,” she smiled. She nodded in agreement. Life had its ups and downs, and it was certainly no fairytale. “I hope you’re right. I think being somewhere new is helpful in that,” she said, mostly reassuring herself. “I’ll bring her by soon, then! Oh, no, you don’t have to do that.”

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text ↣ lexi ❀

Maisie: You're just so pretty

Maisie: Walk with my pretty legs?

Alexandra: Thank you. You are too.

Alexandra: At night?! In the dark?! While you're drunk?! Did your mom not teach you any safety rules?

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text ↣ lexi ❀

Maisie: You have nice legs too you know

Maisie: I could I'll be soooooo quiet

Alexandra: Thank you thank you. Very complimentary.

Alexandra: Yeah but how are you gonna get here?