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my writings and music

[redstonedust]

its probably a normal sign for the economy that all of my adulthood fantasies are like "imagine having your own kitchen living room and bathroom to decorate" "what if i could get on a train" "maybe one day i could purchase a sturdy pair of shoes" "i should save and invest in a single bicycle"

[alexiavirusso]

i enjoy watching people argue over my pronouns on behalf of me like awww

[alexiavirusso]

my mom sending me camera footage of a police officer at her front door while im in california with no context and then telling me they may be trying to serve me so i spiral all night before work…all to just remind me to pay a $75 ticket and today informing me the cop was for my uncle’s drug parole or whatever and it has nothing to do with me. double aries in a nutshell

[alexiavirusso]

nevada and california are beautiful

visiting my long term pal in denver

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traveling ….i didnt love today

[alexiavirusso]

if women hurt you enough you can end up in these settings too

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yup

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dying

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eating good food and exploring still

i dont often try new stuff these are the places i have always loved to eat at in new orleans

back meal prepping this week and so on. i am a very good cook, so many people have told me

saved a lot of $$

i have no crush

resuming my hobbies

[alexiavirusso]

eating vegetarian stuff by myself the best stuff in new orleans

new bike more chickens

windows i drew for the house i will never build for my wife bc i won’t find her

[alexiavirusso]

life is soooooo bleak

nothing can fix how i feel right now only

Me

that is ok

[alexiavirusso]

me being made fun of for bicycling on the sidewalk earlier down rampart and st claude by yuppies or some other white bywater transplant flavor. who are on $900 fixie speeds and not like me on a trashed mountain bike that i just made ridable earlier. it did not make me want to join them biking down the most high speed and psychotic streets in New Orleans. one guy looked at me in my eyes as he passed me then went no hands at top speeds down st claude bike lane just to show me how lame i am and another guy laughed out loud at me.

i remember the mountain of white painted bicycles stacked up in the neutral ground from a few years ago im good Boss

[alexiavirusso]

crossed the earth today fix up this bike on the spot in my uncle’s front yard

it’s not where i want it to be and i butchered the paint job lmfao so bad. i have to resand it and do it over bc the sand paper i ordered was like feather grade and i didnt disassemble anything bc that makes it take way longer so i just tried my best

but it’s good for now that was the point walking is killing me especially with this heat approaching and humidity

[alexiavirusso]

listening to travis porter as an adult provokes crazy ass levels of past feelings…neutral vague exciting enjoyable ones

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i have a crush on a girl in the national guard who’s posted outside of my job. i gave a squish mellow and ice cream to her for Valentine’s Day and also this gutter punk girl who’s friends dog almost killed me …who I randomly saw again and she apologized to me. she’s staying on my street. her name is Francesca. she has tattoos on her eyelids

[alexiavirusso]

two more shifts for mardi gras to go i hate being working class

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i am in so much pain and it’s not stopped for so long it just keeps growing but more than the pain i have pride the pride overrides the pain this makes me feel nuts also