A thrilling part of turning yourself into this big, fat, fatty that doesn't get brought up that much is time.
How long has it been since you lifted anything heavier than a food-laden fork? Since you ran any distance? Since you jumped? Touched your toes?
See, you still see yourself as a fit guy that made yourself fat. Something you can tell yourself is only temporary when you decide to finally lose the weight. Someone who definitely still remembers what a proper workout routine looks like.
But by now, you've been fat for
And that's not something you can just change. How much of your adult life were you effortlessly fit? How much of your adulthood has been spent squeezing into too tight gym clothes and drinking hundreds of extra calories every day? Only one of those numbers is still going up, big guy.
Do you even remember the proper form, technique? Do you remember how many calories you're actually supposed to be eating every day - do you remember how to each only that amount of calories every day?
And it's not just you. By this point, you've probably met so many people who only know you as a chub whose belly enters a room before they do. And I'll guess that by now, a lot of your friends and family who knew what you used to be have given up on trying to get you to lose the weight. Why waste their time, right? And that's only if they haven't let time mess with them - Maybe he wasn't as slim as I remember - after all, he's so big...
All that to say - enjoy your time as a big boy, because the longer you spend fat, the less likely that'll ever change.
Oh god this really hit so many nerves 😳 I feel so called out, especially the part about me feeling like the fit guy who made myself fat. I do still very much feel like the guy in my before photos, just wearing a massive fat body. I do often still feel “newly fat” - partly because I love the thrill of being freshly transformed and so I hold onto that feeling, and partly because I’m comparing the few years I’ve spent fat to all the time before. But you’re right, at this point I’ve been fat for a long time. Calling it a “few” years is pushing it. And I have no plans to bank any more fit years. But you’re wrong about a few things - I do remember my workout routines, I do remember how many calories I’m supposed to eat. Do I remember how I actually managed that? No, that part’s true… but I kinda like that. Remembering what it’s like to effortlessly run for miles and what I used to do in the gym really informs the embarrassment. I know exactly what I can no longer do, exactly what capabilities I’ve fattened myself out of.
