Allielishs

Motivate. Aspire to Inspire. Self-love 💖 Dedicated to building up your confidence.

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I had another tumblr for shit like this

This was supposed to be my more positive/light one

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But I feel like I once again needed an outlet I guess

Life has been drowning

Literally can’t trust anyone like most people who I thought was a friend, really aren’t. Even the people closest have done things that just feel like they disturb my peace, and on confrontation, make no changes to their behavior: they simply don’t care.

Not closing the conversation

Victimizing themselves

Gaslighting

Not paying on debt and blaming stupid shit that isn’t an excuse as confirmed by many others who have the same

Prioritizing other things and bullshitting to you at how important your “what is friendship?” is

People make time for what they want/care for.

And someone close to me is going through what can be a repeat of an unpleasant year…regarding health, under a lot of debt so doesn’t want to return to that scene.. I don’t know and feel helpless—I don’t know how to help and wish I can…but I’m clueless and I understand their POV but also….i’d rather not have them dying…

Feeling like I’m being held up by the throat right now

Suffocating

What can I do but also who is there to actually trust to confide

I don’t remember how to private this so whatever, here it is

Feels like you can see over the years life is tearing away at my once happy go lucky, bubbly, and wanting to motivate and inspire, self

Or wait, was that always just life anyway this whole time?

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Time always exposes what you mean to someone.

Unknown

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2016-2017 me to 2023 me:

You’re NEVER stupid for caring for someone.

Onto the next one. That’s all you can do.

“Thank u, next”

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When it’s over, leave. Don’t continue watering a dead flower.

Unknown

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Advice I should have taken asap in 2022:

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““There’s a difference between now & then: And that is that back then I didn’t know any better.””

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Not me relating to this again lol (2023)

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Thought of the Day:

Nothing done from the heart should be considered wrong. Do what makes you happy, regardless of what other people think. It is YOUR life and YOURS ONLY.

You deal with the result. You deal with the consequences, whatever it may be.

Don’t listen to someone else’s advice and feel the need that if things didn’t work out, you will blame them for the result, because people can tell you a million things, but ultimately everything in the end is YOUR decision based on accordance with YOUR LIFE and YOUR happiness.

Your life is not based on the choices you make, but rather by how you handle the consequences of those choices.

Live on. Everything is an experience. Even the mistakes you make.

Everything in your life is either a blessing, a lesson, or a curse. Each one is part of life regardless.

And even the “curses,“ if upon realization are able to be dealt with early on, help you to learn & grow.

Live on. Experience life. And embrace every moment of it.

Because one day, you will be at your last, and you don’t want to live your life with any regrets of holding back.

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Thought of the Day:

Your happiness comes first. Even while it may not make others proud or supportive of your decisions, you ultimately must do what makes and keeps YOU happy. It’s your life and you only have one to live. Don’t live [it] with regrets. Live in the moment. And live each moment in a way that you enjoy.

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Thought of the Night:

Being selfish feels kinda good to me right now. It feels quite liberating.

It’s definitely a slow progress, but still is progress nonetheless…

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2016 me to 2023 me:

You need to…you need to listen to this.

Progress is still progress. But damn girl, you’ve been hung up on THIS piece of shit for far much longer than you need to be, and than he deserves. He doesn’t deserve your time of day or a place in your mind, not even a piece of your mental and emotional well-being.

I know it’s easier said than done. But you’re doing great.

Keep going.

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“Everything’ll be ok. I promise you.”

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““Ever loved someone so much, you would do anything for them? Yeah well, make that someone yourself and do whatever the hell you want.””

— Harvey Specter

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#foodforthought 💭 https://www.instagram.com/p/CRjKKwSDE_PAV7ezTeKHA8sIuUjxu4XFL4Jwuw0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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💗 #nofilter #meandkirby #lovelynight #flawlessskin #glownation #dermacosmetics #happy #loveyouall #haveagoodnight https://www.instagram.com/p/CAW5pHupSu8/?igshid=c9k0t4q76lvy

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#Surprise! It's been YEARS since I've drawn something and the previous night before @kimbosaurus1 had said "#doodle or something idk 🤷‍♀️" when I said I didn't know what else to do when my productive day ended and well, tons of things just sort of #inspired this #sketch as well as her simply just saying that 😂💕💕 Did this last night in maybe an hour or less and then a couple minutes this morning. How many references/inspirations can you find in this drawing? - #hint I've mentioned one in a previous post. PS: The tags are current and previous tags I've held in the past 😂 obvs @allielishs is current but the below two were my tags/usernames from when I was younger in like high school and below! Haha #funfacts PSPS: & sadly no I don't know when I will color it. I'm afraid to ruin how cute I feel the sketch already is, I kinda wanna color it digitally but ya girl needs a tablet to do so 🤔 Don't have the patience anymore I don't think to digitally color by mouse/point-and-click/hold these days esp since I got some biz to run 🤣 #drawing #artist #traditionalart #animestyle #inspired #finally #lol https://www.instagram.com/p/B_AdTYcpdty/?igshid=1qroe4yamcwzz

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#Barefaced on this #ChillSunday in just eyeliner, mascara, and ✨💎✨ Since I've been laid off work, I couldn't let myself get depressed and let myself go--again. I had to stay true to who I am. I've used to always be at least a lil #dressedup--even if I was at home. Because ya neva know if ya just decided u needed to get something from the stores out these days (even tho yes, I am #stayinghome). It just always helped me too feel like I could be more productive and get shit done more than if I stayed at home looking like a hobo lol I've been there done that and for some reason that is what would lead me to a depression that tends to be hard for me to get out of. Honestly, starting out today was already difficult. For some reason I woke up feeling unmotivated today--I didn't get up until past noon. It's been getting a bit later these days without my intention, considering I have biz to do. Eventually as I saw my girls fighting to get up and get shit done, I was thinking to myself I can't be the dead weight. I need to get up and be the #strongwoman that I am too. Low key just hoping that one day when this #quarantine period ends, that we will all keep the bonds that we've made throughout this period. Because I've been talking to some amazing people who's made my days fun, productive, and just reminds me of all the days when I had all the time in the world always meeting and having fun connecting with people online. 😊 For those of you who know me, yes, the MapleStory, DOMO, gaiaonline days, etc. Wherever and however other way we've met or played together online 😆💕 #nofilter #bareface #rodanandfields #miumiuframes #paparazziaccessories #stayathome #selfie #selflove #reflective #contemplation #nostalgia #gold #sunday https://www.instagram.com/p/B-nxdleD082/?igshid=sukwbzvyi7w0

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Good morning ✨ • I love the weekends 🥰 So relaxing. Appreciating my skin today without any dermacosmetics on. Did tons of skincare (well, of course! 😂💕) stuff and have been playing a bit here and there this demo of a game I'm looking forward to coming out in April. I will reveal soon in a special way 🥰 • Talking with my closest circle. Just taking a chill day at home. 🥰 • Peep the pillows in the back. Some of my greatest friends gave em to me 🥺💕 • #skincare #bareface #relaxation #thankful #blessed #chillathome #goodweekend #justme #justwantedtomakeapost #goodmorning https://www.instagram.com/p/B-AKspTJ8kT/?igshid=6golgp7m3r4b

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Got a restock of samples today ☺️ • 🛡️ 10 Radiant Defense 10-shade sample cards - right after I've mailed out Thank You notes of course these come through today 🤣! For those of those who I've sent out the 6-shade to, let me know if you don't find your shade and I can send out to you one of these! 🙌 • 👁️ 10 Active Hydration Bright Eye complex sample cards. I have 10 but will already be sending out 1 for someone I know who is interested. Lemme know asap if you're tired of having dark circles and puffiness around your eyes! This sample card will be mailed out to you! I just bought one of my own and can't wait to start because I can't stand my dark circles 😩 • 💦 10 Active Hydration Serum sample cards! Unfortunately, MAY DAY MAY DAY! I've run out of mine today so I have to order me another one 🤣 But as I repeat, THIS is the sample that got me INTO the Rodan+Fields brand and business! I fell IN LOVE with the Hydration this product gives my skin and the application is just 😍 This one is a MUST in your regimen ESPECIALLY if you have dry skin! • DM me asap if you're interested in any of these samples! Seek to INVEST in your skincare! • #rodanandfields #samplecards #restock #radiantdefenseperfectingliquid #activehydrationbrighteyecomplex #activehydrationserum #skincare #dermacosmetics #dermatologicallytested #tryityoulllikeit #giveyourskinachance #lifechangingskincare #numberoneskincarebrandinnorthamerica https://www.instagram.com/p/B95rEZlFwhD/?igshid=c4pjtfjvkiid