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911: Lone Star | TNT in Season 5

Shut up.

Yesterday at about 6:00pm I was coming back from being downtown with friends. I was walking home from the red line and was in probably the best mood and the happiest I’d felt in a long time. The only thing on my mind was what pictures I was going to Instagram and what my caption would be.

About 30 minuets later in the same location that I was in, a 64yr old woman lost her life to a bullet that wasn’t intended for her while walking with her husband to meet some friends. She had a family, a career, and a purpose. She didn’t get to say goodbye to her loved ones and she definitely didn’t know what was going to happen to her when she woke up that day. She was a teacher at a school near me and she had so much going for her. But the most important thing is she didn’t deserve what happened to her, nobody does.

That very much could’ve been my fate. The formal nagging of my mother for me to always be home before sunset saved my life. My phone dying and me needing to get home so I could find a charger saved my life. This could’ve been me on the front headlines of some newscast..

This got me thinking about all the what if’s and questions I would be leaving unanswered if it had been me. I wouldn’t be able to tell my family that I loved them one last time, I wouldn’t get to say goodbye to the friends who mattered the most to me, and I wouldn’t get to make peace with those who hurt me. This life is given to you without a set expiration date, you don’t know what’s going to happen to you, and you don’t know when you’re going to see someone for the last time. I’m so lucky that it wasn’t me and I’m so lucky that I got to come home and tell my mom that I love her. Lately I’ve been taking my life for granted and honestly it shouldn’t take someone dying for me to realize how precious my life is. It’s time for me to start actually living my best life.

As for the question I always asked myself, “if I died who would care?” I got my answer yesterday. They know who they are and to the ones who wouldn’t, this is for you: Hurting me was the last thing I thought you’d do to me when I first met you. I gave my whole heart to you when you came into my life because I guess I genuinely cared about you, obviously you didn’t feel the same. I never wanted to have to live my life without you in it but if you won’t treat me with respect then I’m going to do what’s best and that means letting you go.

Life is precious so live it to the best you can, you’re so important and I promise you mean the world to someone out there!

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I was reallllly going through it freshman year…crazy how much life I had left to go. I used to think my life was over, but it was the farthest thing from it. May this be a reminder to myself to keep going forward because I really don’t know what’s waiting for me.

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A look back at Tom Hardy’s MySpace pictures from the mid-2000s.

The actors old MySpace ‘About Me’ section read: “I act for a living now adopting characters for money, it is a language I was born into. I’m Grateful, arrogant self centred, tenacious, versatile, honest, honourable, loyal, loving, gentle, consistent, reliable, focussed, prideful, passionate and nuts. I have a head like a disco ball, if I say I’ll do something, unless I absolutely can’t it gets done, I never give up on humanity, I love people. I want to see communities stand up, honest and open, flexing to the fullest of their capabilities and combined usefullness. happy. I laugh at bullies. I am reactionary but I have learned to hold my tongue and my trigger finger.”