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when you saved my life, did you know that you would take your own?

#did it cross your mind that i’m alive because of you?????#you gave it all away for a girl #i won’t forget #c #shut up bri

well

#fucj my life!!!#literally all i want is connor back and alive and in my arms #i don't want to speak to a single other person in the universe just him and me #was supposed to be us against the world lol #and it was for awhile until he had to go and hang himself like a jerk #fuck i miss him #i wish i had the guts to hang myself id do it in his tree right where he did #die together #but i'm a baby and i won't do it #but i do need help #i need friends lol #but my only friends make me wanna puke because they remind me of him #everything i do and say is a cry for help but nobody catches on #lol fuck even when they do catch on i pretend it wasn't a cry for help because i am a CHILD WHO CANNOT COMMUNICATE #i need to die lol #i'm jus gon push everybody out of my life and then die quietly so only my family will care and even then #they'll move on #i probably shouldn't post this here because people will think i'm crazy or whatever and cal 911 or something but #i assure you that's not necessary #i just need a hug and to be held while i sleep for a few days until i feel less crazy #but that won't happen #shut up bri

minuty

#c

hey i’ve never really talked to yo before but i’m so sorry about what happened to your boyfriend i can’t imagine the pain you’re going through but i hope time will heal you and things get better

thanks

life update? been ten days since the love of my life died and i am very much not ok

#spend my days dissociating and bothering people so i dont have to suffer alone with my thoughts #i miss him more than words can explain more than i ever thought possible #it feels surreal most of the time i expect him to reply to my texts or answer my calls #i expect to see him waiting for me after school sitting beside me in my car cuddling together on his couch #i miss the love we had #he was honestly the best thing to ever happen to me #he taught me everything man he taught me to be a better person #only thing he didnt teach me was how to live without him #taught me how to flick my cigarettes lol #i miss him #i miss him so much #connor baby i love you #always #c #shut up bri

i would like to kiss you one last time

#fuck #connor i miss you #i want to kiss your lips i want to hold your hand i want you in my arms #i want to lie on your chest and hear your fucking heart beating #i just want you back #alive #in my arms forever #i can't believe you fucking died i can't believe you did this to me #i miss you #all the time #i love you and i will always love you #c #shut up bri

larmoyante

Most days I wish I never met you because then I could sleep at night and I wouldn’t have to walk around with the knowledge there was someone like you out there.

Good Will Hunting (1997)

#fuck #connor #i miss you so fucking much #i wish you hadn't died #i wish you were here with me #i wish i could've saved you #please come back #c

sad

#i would just really like to die man i just want to be with him #c #shut up bri

well shit

#every second of every day it just gets harder to fucking breathe #come back to me #take me with you #i don't give a fucj i just want to be with you #c #shut up bri