Seeing a pattern...
Great monday. Fine tuesday. Okay wednesday. Bad friday. Awful saturday. Stiill awake 3:30 AM when I’m supposed to take care of the kids from 6AM sunday. ... My pyramid of current needs seems to be:
-Affection -Sex -Love -Friends -Sleep -Water -Food ...from most important, to least -- because this happens every freaking weekend Love is hard to find... but why is it so damn hard to find people who tolerates your presence, and includes you in their lives? I feel like the point of no return, last chance of starting the return to a social life, was something like ten years ago. *Sigh* Feeling -9/10 Alone, unwanted, helpless, bad influence on my children, bad friend -- because none of them ever tries to include me... But I love my kids, at the very least -- and they *need* me.











