My Heart is Devastating

It's all about Didi and Ceycey. You were the starlight between Mars and Moon and I was searching to you

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Good bye my memories. Good bye the one I really loved. Piccolo mio

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One day she showed a dress that she ordered from UK website. I saw and I said It would look better on you than the model in the picture. She didn't even say thank you.

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I was telling her

- Don't do this I'm getting so so sad. My heart is going bad.

She was saying: Nothing and continuing to do the same thing

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Last for days, I have been seeing you in my dreams. They are all totally about you. First and second of them , I couldn't reach you. But third one we talked. We didn't meet but we talked. The last one was to dramatic. I saw you. We talked but you didn't eant to meet me. You were meeting with my friend. Spontaneously, after your meeting, we had a plan to go somewhere else. They said you went somewhere else but your car was here. We were about to go next to your car. Then you came. You said see you others. I was waiting directly next to your car. You weren't able to lock your car. The back door wasn't closed well. I was planning to tell you and not go to my plan. And then when you came, This plan was unnecessary. You were smiling. You saw me and let me hug you well. I took you straight in my arms and lifted you into the air. I was smelling you toooo much from between your chest and neck. I my e eyes filled with tears but It was sunny day. You were smiling too much because you were happy and you really liked what I did. I woke up. I thought something more and I slept again. I saw you again Out read fantastically beautiful to have you.q

I really do miss you too much. Daniela I miss you. Daniela I miss you. Please give me a sing. I love you 🌸

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Yesterday I dreamt that. We were at same car I was looking at you. The song was playing "Boungiorno Prencipessa". This was my dream ND I was having this right now. I missed you

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I come to Turin again. I go to restaurant with my friend. There is guitar on the stage but Noone plays. I go stage for playing some songs. You enter to the restaurant. I say I have couple of songs for someone and I think she feels these songs belongs to her. And I play these song orderly:

Coldplay - Green Eyes

Radio head - Creep

Anathema - Untouchable part 2

Tom Odell - Black Friday

You already know first three songs dear. And the last one is also for you. I love you come back please. Because my heart is devastating.

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I missed you. I don't have the strength to endure it, please come.

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I used to send her a photo of pistachio field over and over again as I passed the pistachio field because my beautiful Daniela loves pistachios. One day, when I passed this road again, I was very emotional. Because we weren't talking. I wrote her a message full of emotion. She liked it and she returned to me. Actually I wasn't mistaken but one way or another I wanted her.

I just wanted to hold you in my arms...

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If she really loves me, she would miss me and write me😔

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Now I'm looking your photos(: Sweet girl, I said to myself. Daniela I really love you (: Believe or not my heart is devastating and you don't do anything for this. I was afraid of looking to your photos(: My eyes and tears... Piccola mia Daniela. I miss you much. You are so beautiful. You are mine. You are in my mind, in my heart, in each cell of mine. I have lots of song to sing to you. I love you❤️

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I've be searching for you for 3 hours. I'll find you and change the situation. I'll remind you how much you love me. How much I love you. How much we want each other's lips

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What will you lose if you say you sorry?

For all the lie you said.

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I'm dreaming. Dreaming big concert in Turin.

But first...

You said I haven't done anything for you. We both know you were just ignoring everything. I had done lots of things. You were making me counting them to you sometimes. A part of you liked to them a part of you didn't like me count them a was list.

One day You said that again. "You did nothing for me so don't tell -I love you-" I said "I love you" and I added what I had done for you. You said those weren't enough, I couldn't make a song for you.

The song name is "Never leave me alone". I became a famous musician. I'm on stage at big hall in Turin. I'm telling those words. "There was a woman that I loved too much. She was living in Turin. Maybe she has been still living here. Maybe she is among you. I am still loving her. You said I didint love you enough and If I love you enough I could make a song for you. And this song is for you Daniela."

In the outro of song I'm getting on my knees and singing those words: "If your heart will open to me, I can wait. Are you alive? Are you alive?"

Are you alive Daniela?

Would you connect with me after concert? Maybe back stage. What would I do? Except crying. What should I do? I would want to hug and kiss very much and firmly. Should I do? If you come, did you already accept my hug and kiss?

What would happen if you meet me in Turin Daniela? I would dream your beautiful lips and these moments.

Come back

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You and I... More then this.

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I lost my all hope. She won't come back again. Maybe she will find here one day. For that, I'll write her nickname which used in telegram.

Didi_inmars

Didi_onmars

Didi_onthemoon

Didi_starlight

Didi_bear

I checked all of them several times today. No way to reach her. I love you. Take care.

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Today it was 4 am. I was thinking you. I was thinking how I miss you. If I had a change to hold your hand, How much would I be happy? Also I was thinking that I would make her the happiest woman in the world. I am sure about that. Because my feelings my desires my patients my love will make me do this itself. We both lost Piccola mia Daniela. You were going to say it's good that I entered your life. You were going to feel how the real love make you feel. You were going to feel exciting at deepest place in your heart.

Today is my birthday honey. I will wait until tomorrow. If you don't come... Please come