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Your precious but..

Dear future me,

It’s seems that You have a lot in Your mind tonight. Not sure why You wanted to pour it all out. Lots of things are happening.

1. There was a sudden water disruption around the area. Your cousins from Subang Jaya would like to stay over for few nights (as their house were having renovations anyway). Of course You wouldn’t mind. But anyways, moving on.

2. You know that Your precious friends (like most of them) are quite dense. M. Kapoor said that (what it seems that I look like it) but she said it generally that usually human nature where we do something in giving and you expected something in return. Where You were actually beg to differ (at that time).

You thought that they are that dense. No. I mean, they really are that dense. You really don’t mind for any of your family and friends to use your Agoda’s Account to make their bookings. What gave you the disappointment, they are making a booking without telling you (which you have gave a reminder in the group, maybe like once ?) that whenever they would like to make a booking, please and pretty please to tell you first beforehand. Things get complicated as one of your precious friends (which you adored this group of friends since your study years) , make a booking quite early in the morning without telling you and accidentally booked it with your cousin’s card (well your cousin has make the booking before her) That was not the part that bothered you as it can be settled. Since she booked with free cancellation policy, the money can be refunded back. But it was the later part where you were bothered.

She booked for 2R. 1 for 2 pax and the other for 3 pax. You have noticed that previously she booked for her name and also his name. You were casually asking why he booked for 3, she answered that the other duo were last minute agreed to go together. where this duo is part from Your precious circle of friends. Turns out, You knew the rest of the them that will go and (I may sound petty saying this) but she don’t even asked you, whether you wanted to come as well. As an act of courtesy I say ? Since she used your perks as an Agoda workers and did not even tell you. Let say that you were not even to make it but would it will be nicer if they could have just asked you out of courtesy?

Or you were the one who was being too sensitive about it ?

You were quite upset, because deep down you know that they are really precious to you, that’s why you are easily offended by their action.

Small things does matter.

Nevertheless, your stupid heart still love them anyway. I hope (really) it will not fade by the time you read this back.

P/S: Do you still need them to keep living in the future ?

#blankets rainy anas stupidheart

Dear future me,

Remember the time that you said that you will overcome problems with ease ? I guess you were mistaken back then.

You have a landed to a great new job (it’s AGODA btw) which was much more blissful with great perks. All of your colleagues are the best, especially the wacko Sarounid (I hope ive spelled your name right) I really liked her and so does you, not to mentioned your Team Leader. She’s the best so far. Like really, I can see she is supporting you on however she can.

Your work life was great and you think that you couldn’t have asked for more. The pay was much better and let alone the benefits.

Early on MCO days, you had your 1st highway accident. To cut it short your company’s insurance has paid almost all (as they do not covered for your dietician meetings) for your fractured (read: broke to two) right collarbone. It was your painful experience (physically) ever.

Time passes by and you, well of course getting better.

Everything went fine, even your accident. Until, your fucking biological mentally ill mom came in.

I guess you know the drill as you will never forget of what she has done and will do to you.

PS : at this point, you couldn’t care less whether she has died or still alive.

PSS : at this point as well, as bad as you think this were, you really hope she will die. Please be reminded that this thought does crossed in your mind.