Muse-ings

My anonymous loneliness

[davidragifs]

[alown]

Space

What pains must oft hide in this space Of hurting hearts and voids most stark To win most cruel love’s jealous taste But find instead this bitter part

To rule this space my just reward That by the end I might find true This lover’s quarrels two edged sword Red bleeding heart now black and blue

To love And hurt In space Alone Where no one hears you scream

[alown]

WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

A place where I didn't have to hurt any more

[katnissintak-deactivated2011082]

It's such a trip that I can hide how close I am to suicide.

[alown]

danniuseyourtelescope:

My stomach hurts I can’t sleep. What the hell’s inside of me? Makes me feel this way. Almost every day. Was it something I did as a hurtful kid? My payback from way back? It’s the way that it goes. There is nothing more that I can say. I’ll save my life for a rainy day. I light a cigarette for all the regret. You’re famous to me. You help me breath. You’re famous to me. You’re all that I need.

[katnissintak-deactivated2011082]

I know things can't last forever.

[alown]

danniuseyourtelescope:

But there are lessons that you’ll never learn. Just the scent of you it makes me hurt. So how’s it you that makes me better?

[ellie---deactivated20110929-dea]

[alown]

To be young again!

[alown]

Envy

[alown]

Melancholy

[alown]

Been awhile - lost my muse so I'm a little anemic on inspiration Came across this song and the lyrics affected me

Quoting verses 2 and 3.  Formatting and Bold mine

And they send down some astronauts To study our bones Through the miles of garbage, beneath all the junk that we owned Carbon dating beer cans, condoms and twinkie wrappers We were something beautiful baby What the hell happened ... If you you were worth it, they'd skin you too For new tennis shoes Or a couch that fits the motif of the living room And doesn't clash with your business suits I wanna be in a museum, stuffed and in a realistic position, like I'm hunting Calling someone, or buying something Way too busy to look up and see what was coming

[alown]

Ad Infinitum

Anger.  Bitterness.  Disappointment. Loneliness.  Sadness. Love.  Hope.

Anger.  Bitterness.  Disappointment.

[alown]

Bridges Burned

In my youth I've had many conquests: Women beautiful Women intriguing All to sate my Pride

And now all that's left to me Is my sated Pride

But

Pride doesn't keep you warm at night Pride doesn't hold your hand when you are afraid Pride doesn't kiss away your tears

And

Pride doesn't love you when you are alone

[alown]

What I Found

The wind sang on the leaves And the air tasted of sadness

And then I saw Her

I thought to compliment her I thought to say something witty I thought too much And my opportunity passed

I've returned to this place Days.  Weeks.  Months.  Now Years And the only thing I've found Is the wind, singing on the leaves And the air, tasting of sadness

[alown]

RE: 1

In a world full Of Bicycles And Elephants Do you ever really forget?

[alown]

Like a drowning man Thirsts for air She's the closest thing to perfect And the furthest thing from me

[alown]

That is what is missing

To love is not enough

To be loved is not enough

But to love someone who loves me

[alown]

WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

Seeing my mother cry

[alown]

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The saddest thing in life Is forgetting how to feel