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[alphabetsoup13]

Adding a diagnosis doesn't change how they feel about me getting therapy? My type of therapy had to change when that diagnosis got added.

[animatedtext]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

start every day by thinking about what you can do for yourself

[livinjuicy]

is crying an option?

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

if that will help

[alphabetsoup13]

I feel..... stressed? Tired? I know there is an end goal, but am I really the type of person someone needs talking them down? I know I have people who depend on me now, but what about me? What about what I want? Why am I labeled and thrown in a psych hospital for not wanting to keep up with this bullshit? And that's all it is, bullshit. People leave. Eventually everyone hates their job. No matter what I do, I'm wrong. And I don't want to feel that anymore. But I'm so scared of failing that there is no point in trying anything. But I can imagine how freeing it would feel to fly before you go. The weird obsession with playing out in my head my death by rollover crash is getting worse, I'm up to taking all my as needed meds at night with the small prayer that MAYBE they'll knock me out before I get to the part where I die. Hell, last night I took an extra one from my stash and even then I couldn't fall asleep fast enough. I just want it to stop. The word sticking, the hitting myself without realizing I'm doing it because I'm anxious. And I sleep like shit at night because I'm exhausted all day, up until I lay down. Then I'm wide awake and playing out my death.

[alphabetsoup13]

"I can get rid of the dog, I could get the dog fixed or I can kill myself"

This podcast is hitting hard.

Chronic suicidal ideation is a real thing. Explains a lot

[filthyprotozoan]

i wish someone had told me at 13 that depriving yourself of food and sleep is very much a form of self harm

[filthyprotozoan]

hey kids i know sometimes things are very rough, and feeling like ur in control of ur suffering can be a coping mechanism for a while, but pls eat and sleep, and try to be gentle to yourself if you can

[clinicalacronyms]

stuff to remember if you’ve got BPD

Not everything is your fault. You’ll mess up sometimes, but so will everyone else.

Leaving a discussion to stop yourself losing your temper or getting triggered is not ‘losing’. You are just trying to be responsible and healthy.

You are not manipulating people by asking for support when you feel bad.

Denying the parts of yourself that you don’t like will not make you the person you want to be.

Ignoring emotions you don’t like will not make them go away. The fastest way to deal with them is to accept that they’re there.

You can learn to survive on your own.

Relapse is normal. It does not mean failure.

[letyourselfliveagain]

[mimis-memes-meme]

Talking to a new psychiatrist like:

[pungasi]

in honor of julius caesar can someone stab me today

[suicidehours]

bpd: hey y’know what we should do?

me: oh god what now?

bpd: don’t say a word to anyone until they text you first

me: why?

bpd: it’s the only way to prove that they actually care

me: ……..shit ur right

[mcburn]

adhd culture is writing fast but having your mind go even faster so you accidentally a few words

[feitanswife]

Adhd culture is also reading so fast your brain doesn’t even register words missing from the above post

[alphabetsoup13]

I wonder

So the ex and I had a discussion either right before we got married or soon after of what we would do if the other died. I said I don't think I could move on. I'd probably just stay single the rest of my life.

And they say I'm mourning the loss of a relationship. Could this be why I am terrified to move on?

[alphabetsoup13]

Tired again.

Can't even take a shower without jumping down a rabbit hole of bullshit.

Why is my first instinct to tell everyone everything bad about myself? I self sabotage what probably could be good relationships, just because I don't know how to NOT tell someone my flaws.

I trust people, but I don't. This is a come and go thing. I'll trust someone then one day I'll be like nah. Don't trust. 😒

The meme about you wouldn't let your phone battery die, don't let your self battery die. Bitch, I let my phone die ALL. THE. TIME.

Saw a video on "things your therapist is thinking" and rolled. Made a lot of shit make sense. 🤣🤣

[twitblr]

🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈

[isa-ghost]

This is one of the most adorable Pride posts I’ve ever seen

[pasteliume]

“wow you must’ve had to grow up so fast”

actually, my trauma stunted my emotional growth and now i’m a 20 something with the emotional intelligence of a 17 year old and trying to figure out how the fuck to be an adult but thanks for asking

[helperhoopoe]

intrusive thoughts are created because they’re what you fear the most. they’re not what you’re going to do. they’re what you hate most of all. 

they’re not an indication of how evil you are. the only thing they indicate is what you’re most against.