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Keep looking down on me, I am more than you'll ever be // LGN

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putangina pre

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How am I supposed to make you understand what is happening inside me? Even I cannot explain it to myself

[peachisty]

how to learn more about a person:

read the things they write

ask their go-to movies

observe the way they treat their pets

check out the songs they listen to

ask them if they prefer tea or coffee

converse with them under the stars

do they like summer over winter?

observe how they act when they’re mad

do they sleep with lights off or on?

when they watch the skies, do they observe the moon or the stars first?

would they rather eat alone?

how do they treat those who are ‘inferior’ to them?

the way they approach strangers when they’re lost

if they like texting better than calling

how they act when they’re scared

if they like rewriting their notes for an exam

during what situation do their eyes shine the brightest?

the things they say when they’re partly intoxicated

how they act when they’re alone and with their friends

how they look at the people they love

what is their most favorite thing about themselves?

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Dito na lang muna ako magrarant para di makita ng classmates ko putangina. Mukhang mang maliit lang na bagay, pero nakakalugmok talaga. Ewan ko ba bat ganito mga kaklase ko. Nakakawalang gana pumasok e dagdag pa yung mga subjs at schoolworks pati yung ibang prof. Ngayon lang nangyari sakin tong ganto. Nakakawalang gana pumasok. I mean alam kong simula pa lang naman pero nakaka puT29=&=£× talaga. Hindi ako masaya. Nakakastress. Nakakapagod. Dagdag mo pa yung *&** ** ×¥=*÷¥$& !! hay. Parang may mabigat na anchor sa puso ko na humihila sakin pababa. Ang babaw pero di ko alam kung bakit ako naiiyak dahil sa mga gantong rason. Hindi pa lamg siguro ako sanay? Masyado lang siguro akong naattach sa mga classmates ko & other people sa school? i dont fucking know. ang alam ko lang, this fucking sucks. Sana i can deal with my classmates na sa susunod. this is just too much for this week. di lang sa acads di lang sa pagod di lang sa classmates.... putangina lang talaga.

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BTS BON VOYAGE MASTERLIST

Due to copyright, Naver has taken down some of the links. Please feel free to DM me on Twitter and I can provide you with new links to watch/download BTS Bon Voyage ^^ My Twitter is @ jeoniies.

[PREVIEW] BTS BON VOYAGE: 

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BON VOYAGE EP5 Cheerful BTS’s party in the cruise

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BON VOYAGE EP7. Naughty boys visit Finland!

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BON VOYAGE EP8. Merry Christmas in Summer

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BTS BON VOYAGE MASTERLIST

Due to copyright, Naver has taken down some of the links. Please feel free to DM me on Twitter and I can provide you with new links to watch/download BTS Bon Voyage ^^ My Twitter is @ jeoniies.

[PREVIEW] BTS BON VOYAGE: 

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BTS BON VOYAGE : Epi. 00: 

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BTS BON VOYAGE : Epi. 01 (예고): 

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BON VOYAGE EP1. 서프라이즈 파티 (Surprise Party) 

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Mediafire: all taken down ㅠㅠ

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BON VOYAGE EP2. What happened in Bergen? (with TaeTae’s adventure)

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BON VOYAGE EP3. Humorous and playful tour over the mountains and seas!

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BON VOYAGE EP4. 방탄의 운수 좋은 날 (BTS’s lucky day)

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BON VOYAGE EP5 Cheerful BTS’s party in the cruise

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BON VOYAGE EP6. 캠핑카의 로망 (Camping-car ideals)

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BON VOYAGE EP7. Naughty boys visit Finland!

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BON VOYAGE EP8. Merry Christmas in Summer

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[GIFT VOD] BON VOYAGE Behind cam EP1 

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gago ka, denise. bye

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welcome back, black slug

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i always make the wrong decision 99% of the time the 1% is me deciding to listen to these life savers

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ive reached the point where these 16 boys r the only ones who can help me escape these awful life ((and i think thats better than me being suicidal)) haha tangina.

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Im sad. Sana sa susunod na pagbalik nila kasama na ko dun sa ocean of people. i cri. hirap ng walang pera :<

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chickpea

Seeing all these boys commenting  “wasak ang EDSA” “sarap naman nyan.” “patay na” at iba pang nakakabastos na comments kapag may inadd na babae yung friend nila makes my blood boil. Tangina, hindi nakakatuwa. Women are not objects. Nakakadisappoint lang makakita ng mga comments na ganon from guys, parang mga walang nanay o kapatid at kaibigan na babae. Kung sa tingin niyo nakakatawa, well hindi. Hindi niyo man lang naiisip yung mararamdaman nung babae bago kayo magcomment ng mga ganon. Onting  respeto lang naman. Ang gago pa nung mga nagtotolerate ng mga ganyang pa-pakshitan. Dinedefend pa yung kaibigan nilang maling mali naman. Gagawin pang rason, “joke lang naman yun at hindi intensyon maka-offend.” wow ha anuto gaguhan? Isip muna bago type, hindi porket ginagawa ng iba makikigaya na ha? Hindi ikakacool ng kahit sino yon. Don’t be dickheads. :-)

P.S. IM TALKING IN GENERAL HA :) BAKA MAMAYA MAY SUMALO NUNG MGA SINASABI KO

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At andito na naman ako sa point na gusto ko na lang umiyak ng umiyak hanggang sa wala na kong maramdaman kasi hindi ko alam? seryoso hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito. Kapag naman nagtatanong yung mga tao "o ano nangyare sayo?" tapos sasabihin ko hindi ko alam, hindi naman sila maniniwala kasi sino nga bang magkakaganito ng walang rason diba? hmm. e pucha paano naman kasi kung hindi ko talaga alam yung rason, wala naman kayo sa lugar ko e and im sorry kung hindi ko kaya. sobrang hirap ipaliwanag sa iba yung nararamdaman ko. minsan nakakapunyeta mabuhay.

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me to jessie: Hug me and tell me everything’s going to be okay.

HUHHU IM SO USELESS PATI BA NAMAN STUFFED TOY

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At andito na naman ako sa point na gusto ko na lang umiyak ng umiyak hanggang sa wala na kong maramdaman kasi hindi ko alam? seryoso hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito. Kapag naman nagtatanong yung mga tao "o ano nangyare sayo?" tapos sasabihin ko hindi ko alam, hindi naman sila maniniwala kasi sino nga bang magkakaganito ng walang rason diba? hmm. e pucha paano naman kasi kung hindi ko talaga alam yung rason, wala naman kayo sa lugar ko e and im sorry kung hindi ko kaya. sobrang hirap ipaliwanag sa iba yung nararamdaman ko. minsan nakakapunyeta mabuhay.

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Tangina ako lang ba yung nakakaramdam ng pagiging alone kahit na im surrounded by tons of people?

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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too.