elastic heart;;

[kiranskhan-blog]

Like I ever really had it. “Are you joking?!” I know her well enough that she is way too good for someone like you. “Yeah, yeah, shocking piece of information there, Benj.” He simply couldn’t be quiet, continuing to add retort after retort for every one of her statements. “Can you stop acting like I kept it a secret or something? You know I’m not as bad as how they make me out to be, don’t you, Benj? I ain’t ‘bout that secret life. Like it would have made a difference to you, anyway! Bares know about Sienna, and the gal from India. The only reason why Sienna doesn’t know about the other one is because then mum would kill me. I know you know about her and dad trying to par each other off all the fucking time, because apparently she tells you everything these days, init? But if they had just gotten over some clapped shit that happened years ago, then none of this would be happening.” 

Before he knew it, he was unloading all the ‘deep’ stuff, which he’d always try and brush off with a shallow joke. “I love them, but they keep dragging it on and longing everyone’s lives out, it’s so fucking clapped. Even if I hadn’t fucked up, at the end of it all, I’d be screwing one of them over, or both, or none! Maybe I’d marry both, I don’t know what they fucking planned. But if I did end up getting married, I was gonna try so hard to be a sick husband, Benj. That’s no way near gas. Even if the gal in India didn’t end up being as razz as me, I would have made her feel like the razziest, and all of that other good husband tings. It was just dead from the get go, so I wasn’t gonna sit around being a wasteman, stopping myself from chirpsing someone I actually like, just because they’re beefing each other with their bait games, was I?” For some reason, Kiran went from trying to blame everything on Benji to wanting to explain himself, and the word vomit kept flowing out. “And that’s all this is, stupid fucking games I never wanted to be involved in. Now it’s just fucking peak because Sienna’s proper upset, and I’m thinking about deep shit I never wanted to think about.” Luckily for Kiran, Benji’s following statements were bold enough to knock all of his other thoughts out of the park. Her words stung, seeing her on the verge of crying hurt. Why couldn’t he just stop upsetting people? All the anger that’d previously taut the muscles in his body was released, as he found it difficult to control the vulnerability that began to seep through. “Right…”

“I was upset, and didn’t want to be.” Kiran replied, a little defeated. He still couldn’t believe Benji actually hated him. “If you wanted me to ‘fight’ for you, you should have told me that when you broke up with me. I’m not a mind reader. We’re not in some next level film. You break up with someone because you don’t dig them anymore, and that’s what you did. Let’s just leave this conversation, Benj, there’s no point. Yeah. You’re right. Never cared about you. Obviously, since I introduced you to my mum. Let you get close to her. You know, the most important person in my life. So, just gonna take my selfish self and go fuck Amma Avery with her perfectly distanced eyes and perfectly round ass. Just stay out of my life.” 

[altwitch-blog]

She let him talk --and talk. She kept silent, trying her best to not get even more upset than she already was. And no matter how much she tried, the more he went on the more it felt like he was rubbing salt in open wounds. Benji wanted to run and keep running until Kiran Khan was nothing but a dumb ex boyfriend --until he couldn’t hurt her anymore. “Kiran, stop. I don’t care. You have such a comfortable fucking life and the only thing you have to worry about is getting married and your parents divorcing. So tough. So fucking tough. Your mother would let you out of it if you’d just be honest with her. Your dad’s a dick but I wouldn’t doubt he’d do the same. They love you and not just because you can be married off. You just going out and fucking girls all the time is just a slap in the face to them and those girls and you fucking know it.” 

Just stay out of my life. Her eyes locked with his as she wiped each tear that’d fallen from her cheeks. “Kiran, I am --was in love with you. I know that you don’t know much about my past. And I know that I’d rather you just pretend I’ve had a life like you had. But I’m so used to people leaving --dying and I was scared. You don’t get that. You don’t know how that feels even if you think that you do. I can’t ask you to fight for me or want me. That’s not fair..to me. You should want to do it yourself. And maybe,” She had to stop to catch her breath, “I needed you to come after me because no one ever does, Kiran. If I’m the only one who wants to fight for someone, they why the fuck am I fighting. I want to hate you! I want you to be nothing to me. And trust me, I’m not coming back this time. I promise you I will stay out of your life. I don’t even want to be in it -- not if I feel like this every time I see you.”

[altwitch-blog]

Benji Fenwick + Kiran Khan ( You broke me open. )

Three months ago, if you asked me, I would have told you that if you really loved someone, you’d let them go. But now I look at you, and I see that I’ve been wrong. If you really love someone, I think you have to take them back. 

[marieduplessis]

my heart it burned out ’till it was no more, still i wait on the ground, i don’t know what for

[culebraroyalty]

Goddess Santánico + crop tops and tight pants ಥ‿ಥ

[kieraknightley]

[altwitch-blog]

“Bro. Bro. Bro. If you don’t keep your hand to yourself I’m going to —- that’s it.”

“Are you fucking kidding me?” Benji rolled her eyes, grabbing the boy by the ear to yank him up and away from Lance before she tugged him up as well. “Bro. You’ve had enough, don’t you think?”

[kiranskhan-blog]

“Fuck me? Really? Why, you want my attention now? Fuck’s sake, Benji, you don’t even know her! You had no right chatting any of that shit to her, because yeah! She is beautiful, and kind, and smart. Smart enough to know what I fucking get up to during the week, right? But she ignored it all. Every single time I fucked up, she ignored it every single time because she didn’t wanna break her vows, alright? That’s how badly she didn’t want to break them. And you fucked it, Benj! You fucked it with your smart little speech, and she’s called it off. I mean, what the actual fuck?! You use me! Whenever Amos ain’t got time for you, you come to me knowing I’ll drop everything and take you back. Really don’t fucking understand where it came from or what made you think it was a good idea, but I hope you’re real happy with yourself, babe.”

[altwitch-blog]

“Like I ever really had it. I know her well enough that she is way too good for someone like you. You aren’t blaming this on me, Kiran. I might have been the weight to break it but if it weren’t for your shitty behavior and your ‘oh look at me I can fuck everyone’ attitude, she’d still be right there tryin’ to marry you, You made her break those vows not me! Hell I didn’t even know about her until the other day! I just knew about one of your wives to be. Did she know about the other one, Kiran? Or is that another girl you are going to fuck over? I use you?! I use you. If you didn’t have such a thick fucking skull you’d know that I want to be with you. Or I did. I come to you because that’s who I want to be with. But nah, fuck that. I hope you’re happy with yourself. This is all your fault. Two girls in one week -- such a shame, Khan. Best not tell your bois. I hate you and I’m so glad I left you when I did or I’d be just like Sienna.”

"--And let me just ask you something else, if i use you - if you are such the stellar guy- if you’re just as perfect as everyone likes to make you out to be - if you’re so giving, how long did it take you to fuck around after I broke up with you? How. Long. When did you ever fight for me? When did you ever care?  Or  how about you tell me how many times we’ve hung out and not fucked? You don’t give a shit about anyone but yourself. So, yeah, fuck you.”

[kiranskhan-blog]

“Nah, you know. Got a couple of questions you didn’t answer. When did I make you feel like you had to put out to keep me interested? Or, I don’t know, you gotta fuck me to have my attention, that I don’t stop for anyone. Oh wait, that’s funny actually. Pretty sure I stopped for you, didn’t I?”

[altwitch-blog]

“Kiran, fuck off. Seriously. Go be with your girlfriends and hell your fucking future wife. --I didn’t know it was her. She’s beautiful and kind...smart. Fuck you. Just fuck you.”

[altwitch-blog]

“Kiran Khan did WHAT with who?” Sienna, with her previously pleasant smile wiped from her lips, rose a hand to indicate that she didn’t require an answer. “Just… don’t tell me. I’ve already heard enough.” 

Benji couldn’t hold in her laugh any longer. The last ‘WHAT’ had done her in and she leaned over to the other girl. “I can’t believe you’re this surprised? You really don’t know what he gets up to in the week?” She shook her head,"He don’t stop for no one, not even some pretty bride. You don’t fuck him, he don’t pay attention to you. You don’t flirt with him, he finds someone who will. --Unless you’re Lance but that’s a whole different story. if you want him to stick around, put out. That’s all I got for you.”

[altwitch-blog]

@'Kiran'

Kiran: Nah gyaldem, busy tonight

Kiran: Razzing Amma hopefully, proper buff ting

Kiran: Don't u think????

Benji: Busy? Since when...

Benji: not really. eyes too close together, flat ass, crazy af stare..u sure you're not in it just to brag, kir?

Benji: Besides we can crash at ur moms for the weekend

[altwitch-blog]

@'Kiran'

Benji: want to meet up after?

Benji: shower first tho...

[jspotterii-blog]

James typically liked being alone, but was fine with company if they showed up. Right now, however? It just further drained him. “Sorry.” He leaned further against the side of the wall, slumped over. “It’s a good lesson to remember. Just didn’t expect anyone to be up here, to be honest with you.” Not many came up here, especially considering its history. “It’s been a bit of a long night. One of those that seems to never end.”

[altwitch-blog]

“--You’re the big Potter right?” She asked, not following the conversation she’d originally started at the sound the solemn ‘sorry’. “Hm, James? That’s got to be the one. Don’t think we’ve actually met but I’ve heard a lot about you. Mostly good things.” She let a small smile grace ruby lips as she glanced over his way only to weigh his reaction. However, seeing him slumped over had changed her demeanor. “Sometimes when you want to be alone is when you need someone around the most.”

[reggiemulciber]

“Because if it doesn’t, this will.” Reggie barreled her way into the sloshed bloke, bumping him away with her hips. Once he stumbled down onto the ground, Reggie wiped her hands together and took a seat beside Benji. “They’re like moths, aren’t they? I know Lance and Kiran are much the same way, but at least they try and have some tact. As bloody whacked as their ‘sick’ lines may be.”

[altwitch-blog]

Benji eyed the girl for moment but took the boy on the floor as some form of a peace offering. “Mm, you could say that. It’d be chill if they knew when to stop fucking talking. They like to say girls are the chatty ones and they don’t shut up.” She rolled her eyes, taking a second glance at the girl next to her. Amused, Benji shook her head, “I can’t shit talk the boys when part of their pack is sitting with me, now can I? But I’ll bite.”

[jspotterii-blog]

Rubbing at his stiff neck, James made a quick beeline from the Gryffindor Tower  to the Clock Tower. He figured that would be one place where no one would bother him. What a week this had turned out to be.  He’d even gone as far as to break his self-imposed sobriety. This year was stretching his limits, seeing just how far he’d go. For family. For those he cared about. But he’d continue to bend as necessary. Without breaking.  Hearing a step from behind him, James looked up at the sky, shaking his head. “      You know, I actually came out here for some peace and quiet.”

[altwitch-blog]

“Good to know?” She stepped forward, leaning forward against the railing ignoring his obvious hint for her to leave. She’d left the party early; too tired to watch Kiran follow Amma around drooling like she was something special. ( Bought as special as a loaf of wonderbread, she thought ). As far as she was concerned, Benji was there first and if anyone was leaving it would be him. “Lesson one: if you want to be alone, make sure no one else is around?”

[altwitch-blog]

Text: Shiloh @ Benji

Shiloh: tfw ur the only one not at the pardy

Shiloh: bc if u don't do ur stupid ass charms homework, ur gonna fail & no one takes bribes these days ((((:

Shiloh: what is this LYF!~!!!!!!!!

Benji: granted its a stupid ass pardy

Benji: you aren't missing much

Benji: ditch it and i'll help you in the AM