let me put on a show for you daddy

an old-fashioned romantic trapped in a modern world. crying to cheesy pop songs like the lovesick fool i am.

[aluminescentlove]

Call me Lys. They/She. Agender. Thirty-something. Pan/demi/aego. Lowkey a horse girl.

Involved and deeply in love with an older man (F). We're both adults and age doesn't matter.

Pining after my childhood best friend (K) like the dumbass I am since she and I were in middle school.

NSFW and/or yandere content will be posted at times so bear that in mind and follow at your own discretion.

No DNI; we block and move on like men here.

Please be aware that I don’t condone genuinely unethical relationships of any kind irl. This is a place for me to vent about my feelings more than anything.

[aluminescentlove]

We were supposed to have been married wives by now.

If you'd followed the plan you'd be mine forever...but you didn't...and now everything is ruined.

[aluminescentlove]

You'll never know how deeply such a simple sentence hurt me.

I was ready to tell you how I felt and then you unintentionally broke my heart by choosing someone else.

And yes, maybe you would've turned me down cause we were so young, but at least I wouldn't be lamenting what could've been right now.

[aluminescentlove]

I've never kissed a girl...and yet...I always hoped I could share that moment with her.

[aluminescentlove]

I wish I'd told her how I felt back then.

[lettersfromafairy]

You don't need clarity right now. Confusion isn't a sign of failure; it's a sign that something within you is reorganizing itself. Before all understanding, there's a period of fog. And the fog doesn't last forever.

Letters from a Fairy

[feelingsoftheday]

i love those rare souls who make me feel irreplaceably special.

[wonders-of-the-cosmos]

Messier 16 Credit: Geoff Chester

[lettersfromafairy]

Don't beat yourself up for not being "in the same place" as others. Each person walks with different baggage, different wounds, and different times. Comparison is not a fair yardstick to measure human lives.

Letters from a Fairy

[aluminescentlove]

Horses are living works of art.

[thealfaguy]

Some people really do be rare, not even talking about looks. They're just genuine, pure, & good hearted.

[thatoneacademic]

(be pretentious do crime <3)

[aluminescentlove]

I'm not dead, I promise. I just haven't had much to post about lately.

[aluminescentlove]

Anytime F calls me 'my dear,' I get butterflies and think about it for the next few days.

[aluminescentlove]

Had another dream about F the other night.

He and I had gone to see my childhood psychiatrist and he sat in my lap the whole time.

[aluminescentlove]

Thursday night I had the weirdest dream about F.

Him and I and my parents had checked into what we all thought was a hotel but what was really a hospital from the past - like, the kind that gave lobotomies - and before I could say anything, the staff had checked him in as their next victim. Nothing I or my parents did could get them to release him either.

[alexandralove]

Feminine urge to eat his soul