Since I was 19 and joined the internet spotlight, I have been told negative things. I’ve been made fun of. I’ve been called many things. oh yeah.. A lot of rumors too! Many ask me how I’m able to take in all that hate and negativity. The answer was simple. I got used to it.
Since I became “a little social thing”, I’ve been putting myself out there. Thinking of no consequences. Was there any consequences since I became something? Kinda, but not really. More opportunity actually. I posted myself first on here, Tumblr. Gained a few followers from it here and there. Then came twitter. Then after came Instagram. I’ve became pretty well known. But with popularity came the negativity. I’ve called fat my whole life but more so on social media. Being called names and made fun of hurt at first. But after hearing it all the damn time, made me build a thick skin. The hate started becoming entertaining to me. I started laughing at the negativity. If I got any negativity online, I would turn it into a meme or reply with something witty. It was my opportunity to get the last laugh. For example, Above. Sure.. some of it is true. I mean who doesn’t love some dick and isn’t a slut. Let’s be real. Everything that is said to me doesn’t affect me. So go on bitch, make me laugh.
The wonderful compliments I received from posting myself half naked or naked helped me build my confidence. That sounds fucking weird saying that but it’s true. People were appreciating that things about me that I was most insecure about. Back when I first started posting myself, I hated many things about me and social media was my escape. People appreciated my body more than I did. Over the course of the years, I began to figure things about myself that I loved. I started loving every inch of me, inside and out. Any negativity couldn’t hurt me unless it hurts someone I love, then fuck you! i’m coming for you! I know the price of being on the internet. I’m okay with the shit talking that goes on about me. The only things that kills me is whoever i’m dating gets dragged into it. That’s not cute but unfortunately its inevitable. My boyfriend/s of the past have been so fucking wonderful for accepting it because they love/loved me that much.
In a wrap, rumors and “shit-talking” will always be there if I choose to stay in the light. I will always be talked about. People will always have something to say. Make fun of me, if helps your self-esteem, do it.. I don’t care! Tony is still going to do what tony wants to do. Tony’s has goals and shit he wants to get done. Worrying about something someone said is not going to waist a minute of his time! Tony will live his best life and have fun along the way. 💋✌🏼
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