Felix Starkweather

I am way more than just a name... OC for the At World's End Roleplay

[mercy-had-a-little-lamb-deactiv]

Mercy cracked a smile as she replied.”Cheeky cheeky.”

[always-smiling-felix]

He winced. "Sorry about that, love. I suppose I'm in a bit of a sour mood today."

[always-smiling-felix]

A Very Happy Birthday | Felix and Graham

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

Graham’s reddened face transitioned into a pout. “That’s not funny..” He said, as if he’d had his arms crossed. “I thought you thought I was a prostitute or something. Or some sort or hooker.” Bashfully nudging his face against Felix’s chest he murmured softly. “I am glad you are.. Satisfied..” He had to shut eyes eyes scared of the word. Though if he’d been completely honest he never understood why he was so shy about it, the way Scott spoke about it in the past he’d felt like the only person in the world who reacted like so.

The way the nephilim held his fae almost caused him to melt completely in his arms, turning into nothing more than a mountain of pudding. “I love you.” He answered back automatically, he didn’t even need to think of it. Loving Felix had simply become second nature. “And also I am the one who asked you to bring me to the bedroom remember?..” His face was still bright as a tomato, but he hid himself to keep the other boy from noticing. He was sure it was a failed mission though. The long fingers that clenched onto him caused a flinch, but at his boyfriends words he attempted to do just that, relax. However he failed to do so. And instead he rested his forehead against his, it was just what his tensed body needed to releases the tight hold his muscles had.

Just like that he’d forgotten what words were, and his face heated up enough for Felix to take in just how red Graham really was. “Uh—” He blinked a few times before his eyes went down to focus on his boyfriends organ. It reminded him that it was normal, “Yes.. But— Only after I met you.. I started having… Feelings.. Especially when you would walk around the loft shirtless.” The memory caused his shaft to throb viciously. So a few times.. After you would go to patrol—” He couldn’t finish, heat filled his tummy and he threw his head into Felix’s neck.

Lifting his head his blue orbs began to shine from underneath his eyelashes. “I don’t want you to.” He said in a certain tone. “Wait anymore.. I mean.. And I don’t want to either.” Leaning up slightly he pressed a kiss to his boyfriends lips. “I’m ready tonight. I— Trust you..”

The cushions were soft, and welcoming when Graham’s back fell upon them. The nephilim’s need quaked with energy, but now, it didn’t frighten Graham. It didn’t cause nervousness. Taking an easy breath he closed his hand around it completely, before giving Felix a nod, then a smile. There was no hesitation, he simply let his head fall over to his side slightly, so it would come into contact with his boyfriends. “I’m ready.. And.. I love you sweetheart.”

[always-smiling-felix]

Felix took his precious boyfriend's face in his hands. "I would never ever in a million years think of you in such a light, my heart. I assure you. I was more thinking of my own indiscretions. I wasn't as confident in myself as you are." He peppered several kisses on Graham's already swollen lips. When he fae hid from him, it made Felix's chest ache. "Love...." He cooed, tugging him back to where he could see him. "Do not hide from me..never from me..."

Tucking Graham's head under his chin, Felix ran his fingers through his feather light hair. He pet and stroked his boyfriend to further soothe him. When his body stiffened anyway, Felix cursed himself for being too presumptuous. He eased the pressure and massaged the skin beneath his fingers. "Are you alright, my heart?" He bit his lip, wanting to assure Graham that he wouldn't hurt him. But he also didn't want to lie. He could hurt the fae without meaning to, he could not stretch him enough, he could move too quick. Pressing his lips to Graham's bare shoulder he took a breath to calm himself, not wanting to alert his boyfriend to his line of thought.

He picked up his head, eyes wide with surprise. "You did? Really?" A tingle went through his body as the thought of Graham touching himself in his honor. "Did you wish it was me stroking you?" He asked curiously. "Like this..." He whispered, closing his fingers around the fae's shaft pumping it once, then twice. "I thought something suspicious...especially when I discovered you'd been the one hiding my shirts." He mused affectionately. 

Graham's words stuck him like a bolt of lightning straight to his groin. His breath came in short puffs as his eyes turned hazy. "Then....neither of us will wait any longer." He sighed, accepting Graham's kiss and taking one of his own. "But there is plenty of time for that." He assured him. Only momentarily thinking they did have somewhere else to be, but it was fleeting and didn't stick around for long.

Pressing his lips to Graham's temple, Felix slid his hand up and down his boyfriend's erection. He moved slowly for two reasons. The first as to not scare his timid lover, and the second so that he could mimic his movements onto him as well. He smiled, letting his thumb caress the silky skin of his ball-sac. "Do you like that, love?" Then his fingers slid back towards the tip, spreading the pre-cum over the head of Graham's penis. His breathing deepened as his body began to tingle with each twitch of his own aching need. Trapping his tongue between his teeth he let out a little hiss as he increased the speed off his pumping, bringing his hand up and down the length of Graham, beckoning his orgasm closer and closer along with his own.

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

My Missing Puzzle Piece || Graham & Felix

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It hurt Graham to realize that none of his words had been breaking through to his boyfriend. for a second he felt as if he’d been hurting more than helping. Taking an easy breath he arched his eyebrows. “How can you say that? You think that just because I’m not as harsh on you as you are yourself that I don’t fully grasp the concept but I do. I guarantee it. So many nights I think about it,about what I would have done in your position, with you in Celine’s.. And no matter how I think of it I always come up assured that I would do the same.”

The fae nearly cried along Felix now. “Sweetheart… You are loved. I spend so much time trying to make sure that you feel it. You mean more than the world, at least to me you do, and everything that you have lost you regained and more. Your people turned your back on you for not understanding your love, but there’s Scott and Isaac and all the other friends you’ve made since you got here. They are your people, they are also your family… As is my own. My mom, dad, siblings. Dear lord even my grandmother asks me about you. And on top of all of that. You have me. The person who will always love you unconditionally, to me there is no one more important than you..”

A single tear rolled down his cheek now, but he laughed subtly, gripping onto the nephilim for dear life. “Oh Felix.. I’m never going to leave you. There is nothing in this universe that will keep me from you.” But the smile disappeared as his boyfriend continued to speak. A hallucination of some sort? His breathing, it told Graham exactly what it was. A panic attack. “Felix?..”

He shook his body, but more incoherent words exited the other boys lips. For a second, fear struck his core, he could remember vaguely reading in one of the medical books in the library of the university he attended that, panic attacks could be relaxed by a kiss. The fae could remember reading something about endorphin’s being released while holding the other persons breath and distracting them could dispel the discomfort completely, and so that’s exactly what he did. Without a second to waste Graham’s lips came crashing into Felix’s

[always-smiling-felix]

He squeezed his eyes shut, letting the tears slide down his cheeks. They fell in large droplets onto his clenched fists. He tried several times to speak but couldn't force the words past the lump in his throat. Graham was right. Deep down he knew it. He couldn't possibly be such a terrible person, not when someone as pure and wondrous as Graham loved him. Really loved him. If he could just focus on that. Focus on Graham, perhaps he could be okay.

Gripping his boyfriend's forearms, he let out one more strangled sob before his eyes opened. Graham looked like an angel. His guardian angel. His watery blue eyes wide with worry, worry for Felix. He'd come out in this dreadful weather for him. Bringing him his coat. His lashes left splotches of moisture on his cheeks as he pressed in closer to the fae. "I love you..." He managed to get out before the fear began to overwhelm him. 

Hearing his boyfriend would never leave him gave Felix enough pause to take a breath before his chest tightened and refused to let him take in anymore air. As he started to wheeze, his grip on the fae's arms tightened. He didn't want to hurt him but he couldn't get enough force into his fingers to pry them away. "Gra-ham..." He puffed as the edges of his vision began to darken.

The kiss startled a gasp from him. His eyes widened then closed as his focus shifted to soft feel of his boyfriends lips touching his own. They fluttered back open as the fae pulled back. Opening and closing his mouth a few times he tried to speak. Instead, he lurched forward again, kissing Graham like he was his life line. Right now...that was precisely what he was.

[mercy-had-a-little-lamb-deactiv]

"Thinking about all the small things. What are you doing?"

[always-smiling-felix]

"Thinking about all the big things." He replied cheekily.

[always-smiling-felix]

A Very Happy Birthday | Felix and Graham

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

The arch in the nephilim’s back set him off only slightly but not enough to cause him to cease the pleasure filled kisses he delivered over his boyfriends nether. Graham, after all these years of holding himself for such a special occasion oddly enough felt like he’d been in his natural habitat. Perhaps it was due to the fact that he was cloaked with the sounds of affection coming from Felix’s lips, or because he simply wanted to pleasure him. 

It wasn’t until he felt the other boy’s long lanky fingers rustling through his hair gently did he really give Felix the attention he so craved. There was more tongue, more saliva, just more lust overall. The air in the room became thick, causing nothing but the sound of heavy breathing to elicit past the couples mouths. But the fae gasped, mere moments after his boyfriend did. A shock of fear waved through him returning him back to his thoughts, his insecurities, his bashful behavior. It’d been as if he was one of those deer spotted during hunting season. However the way his name sounded pass Felix’s lips a second time, like a declaration of love, well really it was the only thing that kept his face from being consumed by red color.

if the tug wasn’t enough to cause him to giggle the kisses he’d been peppered with would surely do the job easily. But the praise it excited him, he was able to please the man he loved thoroughly. Their bodies motioned together like angels dancing in the clouds. “W— What is that suppose to mean?.. I just did what I thought you’d like.. I didn’t learn it from anywhere it just… Came to me..” The way Felix’s thumb brushed over his lips caused him to shudder with anticipation. Graham could have very well released right then and there. The touch caused the sexual tension to peek and his need throbbed. But the kiss acted as a rejuvenating factor, giving him the strength to shove the orgasm so far back that he’d had just as much energy as when they started.

Felix’s hand found the back of Graham’s head when they grinded against one another effortlessly, and Graham’s hand found the back of Felix’s neck. Never had he felt so close to someone before and truth be told never did he want to again, not like how Felix made him feel. Their second kiss caused the boys toes to curl again indefinitely, so much so that it’d pained him, the pain though, without a doubt heightened the pleasure. Taking mental note he pulled back breathlessly so that their foreheads rested against one another. Without a second thought a huffed out barely incoherent. “Felix..” Ushered past his lips. He eyed the drawer with the tools they’d need to go all the way, before fixing themselves back at the angel before him. “D— Do you want to?..” 

[always-smiling-felix]

"It was a joke...my heart..." Felix puffed out attempting in vain to catch his breath. Letting his head fall back against the pillows he let out a satisfied sigh. "I just mean...you're very good. Very...very good." He promised, his own face flushed as well. "You've....wonderful instinct." Felix himself did a bit of research before his own first time. Reading raunchy texts and watching questionable movies. He didn't want to mention it to Graham, as he didn't want to make him self-conscious if he'd done the same.

Wanting more of his little fae, Felix sat back up, cupping his face. He kissed him soft and sweet before pulling back and beaming at him. "I love you....more than anything...words cannot even describe how magical this is for me...I do hope you're enjoying yourself too." If the color in Graham's cheeks was an indication....he was. He let his fingers trail down the other teen's sides, reaching around to cup the round globes of his butt. Applying a little pressure, he kneaded the tense muscles. "Relax my heart...you're too tense...." 

His eyes dropped down to his boyfriend's member. It was long, graceful, just as the rest of the fae's body. Biting his bottom lip, he gave Graham a heated look from under his lashes. "Have you ever...pleasured yourself, love? Have you ever made yourself...you know." Bedroom language tasted bitter to his tongue. Perhaps it was his desire to keep all things pure and innocent with Graham. Then he realized how ridiculous he was behaving. "Have you ever had an orgasm, love?"

Laying back, he kept Graham tucked to his chest, letting his fingers stroke up and down the fae's back. "Oh my heart....of course I want to. I've wanted to since the moment our lips first touched. But, as I've told you before I am quite content to wait as long as you need me too. I'm in this for keeps you know...there will be plenty of time." His voice sounded subdued even to him, but it made the words no less true. If Graham wasn't ready, he would wait.

He rolled over, nestling Graham against the cushions. "I've an idea..." Taking the fae's hand he brought it to his own aching member, then put his own upon Graham's. "Let us do it together..." Propping on his side, he smiled encouragingly at his boyfriend. "Watching each other well....it always makes it better."

[mercy-had-a-little-lamb-deactiv]

"I would say that I was listening but I’m totally lying."

[always-smiling-felix]

"Then erm...what are you doing, love?"

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

My Missing Puzzle Piece || Graham & Felix

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

There were about a thousand different things rushing through his mind when the other boy spoke. That of uncharacteristic anger, frustration, sorry, pity— But like always there was an emotion that screamed louder from within him than anything else. Love. His love for Felix was stronger than anything else. He figured if there’d been anything that the nephilim needed to know. It was that. Everything was okay now. And it was, because Graham would do anything to keep any of those horrid past nightmares to creep on him again like so. To allow Felix to go back to jail, or parents who treated him like more of a tool then, well a child.

"Felix." Graham started, using his arms which shook due to the other boys grasp to cup his face. "Listen to me very carefully. Celine. She was, is the bad guy of our story. But the thing about bad guys is that all they ever accomplish is making the protagonists even stronger than they were before. Even if it’s just mentally. She didn’t break you.No matter how much you hurt I know it’s true. If you were broken, we wouldn’t be, us. She may have took so much from you, but it was also because of her that you were sent here. If she was never there to teach you pain. i wouldn’t be able to teach you love." He paused to kiss the nephilim on the forehead. "And joy, and all of that beautiful stuff you take so much pride in when it comes to our relationship."

"I love you. I care for you. I know that I am dramatic and not very strong and I can’t do as many backflips as you can. But the way I feel for you, is the realest thing I have ever felt in my entire life. I always knew true love was really amazing and special ever since I was little because of Disney movies. But it was because of this that I was able to learn that true love doesn’t just make you happy. It gives you drive, desire, dreams, purpose really.. I told you when we first met, regardless of how I feel about Celine, everything you did. You did out of the love you held for someone else. Acting on love will never make you evil sweetheart I promise. It makes you the opposite." His arms then flew around Felix to grip onto him completely, holding him tight. "You always talk about how innocent and kind I am. But you’re the noble one in our relationship. You do things for the sake of others like me but ten fold. Felix Nathaniel Starkweather. Celine. Has. Not. Broken. You. With me here she never will. I promise my life on that.”

[always-smiling-felix]

Felix closed his eyes, turning his face almost away. He couldn't bear to look at Graham, he felt like such a wretched human being. He'd turned his back on his family, on his people, how could the fae even want him anymore? It was so exciting a story, of how he'd risked everything for love. But now it just felt so cheap, so ridiculous. How could he not have seen? Known? His skin burned, almost as if by merely touching Graham and his innocent perfection would burn him. All he wanted was to disappear in the folds of his boyfriend's embrace and disappear.

Graham's words continued to chip away at him. He could almost feel the pieces of his shattered soul falling from his body and crushing to dust on the floor. Letting out a little sob he shook his head. "Stop..." He shook, "I just....you don't understand....Graham...I just..." He couldn't even put his thoughts into words. Pulling away he raked his hands over his tear stained face. "I turned my back of my people...my family...my friends...everything...because I thought it meant something somehow...all I've ever wanted was to be loved...to be important to someone and now...now I feel like such a phony."

His eyes widened as his boyfriend continued to speak to him. His voice like the light trill of bells. Blearily meeting the fae's gaze he fought to smile. It should have been easy. It'd always been easy before. But now it felt like his smile weighed a thousand tons of icor. "Graham..." He sobbed out with a squeak. Oh how he wanted to believe those words. That he wasn't broken. That he was salvageable. "Please....don't leave me...Graham." He said in a soft voice. "I'll do better..." He no longer sat with Graham on a bench in the park, he now curled into the corner of that prison cell in the City of Bones. Graham's voice sounded so very far away. "Don't leave me in here..." Clutching at his chest, he fought an impending panic attack. He'd hadn't had one in a long time, not since the prison. "I'm...sorry."

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Graham clapped his hands together, making his way to the nearest mirror so he could fix himself up. He could hear the sound of a few little children. The way Felix sounded interacting with them made his heart soar. Because of course, nothing was more attractive than a man who was good with kids. And well— Graham already thought Felix was good with everything. The knot was don’t just how he wanted, Jinx dressed up in a little yoshi sweater. The door slammed and he practically raced to his boyfriend. Making a small purr at first he gave a subtle laugh. “You’re so good with kids, were their good costumes? Please tell me one of them got a gold bag. I need to know to have faith in our next generation. Any Belle’s? Aurora?”

[always-smiling-felix]

Felix caught him with one arm, using the other to hold his bowl. Nuzzling Graham's cheek he gave it a kiss. "No princesses yet, my heart. But fear not, the night is young." 

"For now though....I do believe there is a pot of chili on the stove....and Halloween Town ready to play on the telly." He told him, guiding the fae towards the kitchen. "I do recall hearing someone mention a young belle would be out tonight....one of the neighbors I believe. Her little dog was to be the beast."

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"Felix! The kids are knocking! My sailors knot isn’t tight enough! Can you get it! And remember to give them extra candy if they have Disney costumes! But not if they are from Frozen! Elsa and Anna are America’s top ten costumes of the year! That’s not showing Disney flair that’s being on the in crowd. You don’t get extra candy for that!"

[always-smiling-felix]

Felix came around the corner, his prince's costume perfectly in place, caring a bowl of little bundles. "Of course, my heart. And yes I've color coded our little bags...an frozen costumes get the little blue bags that have black licorice and pencils....the Disney costumes get the gold bags that have the candy bars and ice cream vouchers and the others are red and they have the skittles and milk-duds." He told his boyfriend proudly. He pecked him on the cheek as he passed, "You look beautiful." He told him before he opened the door.

[come-on-over-valerieruiz-deacti]

Isn't Ironic?

Valerie held the umbrella over her head and she sang softly as she jumped over piddles and danced down the sidewalk. “It’s like rain. On my wedding day! It’s a free ride but you already paid it’s the good advice that you just didn’t take and who would have thought it figureddd.” She hadn’t been paying attention to where she was going or where she as swinging her umbrella and she gasped as she whacked someone right in the head. “Oh my god. I am so sorry!” 

[always-smiling-felix]

He ducked. "Wow! Careful there, love! You could put someone's eye out with that!"

"That's...Ironic by Alanis Morissette?"

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"No! Love you have to put more energy when you kick off! It’s a bit more like this—"

"Really it is not that difficult I promise you! Have a try. I promise not to laugh."

[always-smiling-felix]

"Oh...I can assure you...its actually part of the nephilim training regime. I'm fine with just watching today." He laughed. "Nicely done."

[sassy-demon-hunter]

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[sassy-demon-hunter]

"Ive been kind of obsessed with find someone for many years.. I havent had the time honestly. I guess one day I’ll give myself the chance. " 

"Since my parents died.. I havent really allowed myself a normal life." she shrugged thinking back to her conversation with Gendry. 

[always-smiling-felix]

"You should....never give up your search. Because when you least expect it you find someone, love. Just as I found Graham."

"Your parents?...I am very sorry to hear that. Do you miss them a lot?"

[always-smiling-felix]

A Very Happy Birthday | Felix and Graham

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

At first he simply gave a nod. The sound of Felix’s voice acted as a sort of anchor, stabilizing Graham from releasing right then and there. The sound of the nephilim’s voice allowed him to listen in on his own thoughts, and the way his body ached with pleasure, it pleaded for the fae to bask in his senses, to accept the ecstasy for just a bit longer. Then there was a twitch, with was slight, but it’d caused the boys lips to touch onto Felix’s softly, and for some reason that did not help him keep from climaxing, if anything it did the opposite. The way they traded breaths with one another was simply, unreal. 

They moved together like a wave of water washing on a shore of land. It’d been one fluent motion, as if they weren’t two beings but one entity. Graham found himself on top of Felix, one hand pushing him upwards so he could get a better look at the nephilim’s body, while the other grabbed onto his shaft, the hold he held was firm, because Graham needed to feel him. He needed more than anything to feel every inch of him, to know that Felix as a whole loved him. And so it wasn’t until he saw the other boys eyes go shut did his organ twitch with excitement. Instead of answering  with words he responded with a kiss to the lips. Then„ licking his lips he pressed kisses along his boyfriends perfectly sculpted body, until he reached the neatly trimmed bush of hair.

Graham gazed at the length that seemed to have throbbed with energy as if it had a voice, as if, like Felix it begged for the fae’s careful lips, it’s undivided attention. So without a second thought he engulfed it. There was no preparation, nothing of the sort. Graham had been too bashful, to shy to build up this anticipation. The nephilim was thick, and large, and so at first it’d been difficult for him to focus on pleasuring Felix due to the fact that he’d had such a hard time keeping it all in. However because this was Felix, Graham caught the hang of it, faster than he’d expected. He allowed his saliva to cloak the shaft that throbbed so needlessly in his mouth for a couple of moments before he pulled back for air, leaving nothing but a trail of spittle from his lips to the skin. Blushing now at what seemed to have been a mess he made he wiped his face, before resting a free hand on the other boys thigh, focusing on the length again, only this time giving it  licks, instead of swallowing it whole. Starting from the tip of the slit before molding and curving his tongue in various positions to match the way the nephilim’s organ ached.

It wasn’t until he noticed Felix’s eyes on him did he lose focus like a deer caught in action, hiding his face in the other boys thighs.

[always-smiling-felix]

Felix's body arched up off the bed. Each touch from Graham set his skin on fire, then cooled it with the next. He made a whining, pleading sound, bringing his finger to his mouth for something to gnaw on in the interim. "Mmm...Graham." He whispered, lashes fluttered against his flushed cheek bones. They had mutual petting sessions before. But something about them seemed chaste, not nearly so intimate. Mostly because Felix knew he wouldn't allow it to go any further. Graham was pure, innocent, he would never want to tarnish that...at least until he was sure his boyfriend was absolutely ready. Just as he was now.

His body took on a mind of its own, seeming to lengthen and display itself for Graham as the fae took him in. He'd longed for such appreciation for so long. It almost felt unreal. But his teeth digging into his own finger kept him grounded. His heart skipped a beat, then thrummed in unison with his throbbing erection. When Graham's lips touched him, he almost released right there. His body jerked, hips coming off the mattress as he made more whining sounds, desperate for the fae's attention. Which he so lovingly displayed. 

"By...the...Angel...." He gasped, fingers digging into the mattress below him. The fear of gripping Graham too tightly faded in and out of his clouded mind. But he ended up burying his fingers in Graham's lush hair anyway. He massaged at his scalp, letting him know just how good all of this all felt. That was...until the fae's tongue became involved. Felix took in a shuddering gasp, a tremor going through his body right into Grahams. "Graham..." He whispered as his hips bucked, demanding more and more. 

When Graham pulled back, and gave him that look, Felix lost it, immediately taking him by the arms and pulling him back up to him. "You..." He laughed, peppering the fae's cheeks with kisses. "Where did you learn all of that? You are...perfect." He told him sweetly, his finger touching Graham's lips, smearing the saliva over his plump bottom lip. Cupping the back of his boyfriend's head, he kissed him. Tongue gently prodding for entrance beyond Graham's lips. He moved his body so their erections touched, eliciting another gasp from him that transferred into the kiss. He wanted to treasure each and every moment of this.

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

My Missing Puzzle Piece || Graham & Felix

[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

It was her name that left him speechless for a minute. The former lover. The one who was suppose to be no longer residing in the land of the living, the lover who toyed with Felix’s ideas of what love really was. The woman who took from him, and gave nothing. “Shhh sweetheart— Please, you’re going to hyperventilate yourself right into a panic attack.” Graham didn’t know really. If nephilim could have panic attacks, but that did nothing to stop him from worrying about it. “It’s okay, I swear it’s okay. I am right here. Just focus on letting it all out.” Without hesitation he continued to rub soothing circles nuzzling his nose against the other boys neck.

There were so many things running through his mind. How was any of this possible. What would all of this mean, and most importantly, with the nephilim too emotional to use words, what would it do in the long run to him. Graham never thought it was possible to be capable of the emotion hate. He always thought it was nothing more than a myth used to excuse rage. Sure he said it but never did he really mean it. But he hated it, for the first time probably ever he knew what it was like to feel it. Graham hated seeing the sight of his boyfriend so hurt and so in pain. If he could have one wish it would be to make sure Felix would never have to feel that way again.

When Felix’s hiccuping sounds ceased he pulled back, not breaking their contact but re-position them so that their foreheads touched. “Hey, look at me..” He told him, taking the boys chin softly and carefully in his gentle fingers. “You probably feel really confused right now.. Because frankly I am too.. And you may have felt like your world was about to come crashing down. But I swear I will not let that happen. Whatever happened with Celine, what ever she made you feel, does not negate how I do okay?” The he leaned in for a kiss, chaste, but effective. “Just know that every emotion you are trying to keep inside— You need to let it out.. If you don’t you’re not going to be feeling so good later. So if you want to cry— Cry all night. I told you I’d stay with you every second if I have to.”

[always-smiling-felix]

His eyes fluttered closed, his lashes moist with tears. When Graham moved away from the kiss he took in a shuddering breath. His eyes opened once more and he saw the fae. Really saw him. Here was this being of light. People assumed nephilim gave off ethereal light, but no, they were made of dark, they were vengeful, they were death. Graham, a fae, embodied everything that the nephilm did not. Innocence, hope, absolute love...Felix didn't think he had ever been that innocent. 

Emotion rose up in his throat, threatening to choke him again. He shook his head repeatedly. Despite the fear embedded deep inside him, he wanted Graham to know, needed him to know. His hands came up and took hold of his boyfriend's arms. "She...lied...she wasn't just some vampire...I don't even know what she is...she....never really loved me at all...I just...after everything I did for her....I just don't know what to do with....this pain in my chest. It hurts...Graham." He said brokenly, desperately. If anyone could fix it, it would be his love, his heart, his everything. If anyone could mend this gaping hole, it would be Graham.

"She didn't care...kept saying it was better for me. Better for me.." He let out a choked cross between a laugh and a sob. ".my parents won't even speak to me anymore...they cast me away....tossed me in the garbage...they sent me to that wretched prison made for...for...evil beings. I wasn't evil...I wasn't...I'm not...I just wanted to be with someone who loved me, who wanted me...at least when I thought....when I thought it was for something I could accept it...but it was all for nothing....nothing..." He gave up the fight and just clung to his boyfriend, letting the waves of emotion wrack his body again. Because at least now....he felt safe. Felt that he could. He'd had no one after that time in the prison, he'd come to the Institute and met nothing but cold indifference. Graham was the first to see him, to really see him. He was so scared he'd lose him too.

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[cuter-than-tinkerbell]

Squintign his eyes with a giggle he bit his bottom lip. “Sweetheart you won’t have to let me win. Do you want to know why? Because I am going to win fair and square myself. When I was little and my parents use to take me to the playground I was the prince of cartwheels!” Kissing him on the lips swiftly he almost gave a hum. “I’m glad I gave you my heart. Every day I’m reminded of how it was the best choice I’ve ever made.”

[always-smiling-felix]

Felix's heart skipped a beat. "Were you really? That's darling. Do you suppose your parents could show me videos of you when you were younger? My parents never bothered with such things but, you were raised human...." He accepted the kiss then stole one of his own, the pleasant tingle going through him that always did whenever he and Graham touched.

His face pinked. Puffing out a breath he gave Graham a heart stopping smile. "I will cherish your heart forever, love just as you do mine." He pulled the fae closer as they swayed to the music. Tucking Graham's head under his chin, Felix closed his eyes, loving the closeness they shared. "I adore you....."

[always-smiling-felix]

I'll take about....five more of these thanks...

[chryseusxlamia-archive]

"Sadly, I don’t.  I am sorry.  Would you like a drinking buddy?"

[always-smiling-felix]

He beamed at her. "Always love. That would be marvelous." He pulled up a stool for her and gestured to it.