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23~

[shepherdsofhaven]

How did you learn to code Twine? If it's okay to ask thank you^^(I JUST REALLY LOVE IT-)

Very slowly and painstakingly, haha!

There are 3 to 4 aspects to making a Twine game, in my mind:

Learning "Twee": this is the base coding notation of a Twine game without using the visual editor. This is how you learn to make labels, choice links, branching, etc. For example, in the Twine visual editor, you can create a choice that goes to a label titled 'cainedieshere' using this Twee notation: [[I choose to let Caine die.|cainedieshere]] This will show the reader a choice that says "I choose to let Caine die" and when they click on it, they'll be directed to a passage with the label 'cainedieshere.' Twee is basically learning more of this, and allows for more flexibility and 'shooting from the hip' coding than having to manually create a new textbox and connect it to another one in the visual editor.

You can learn how to write in Twee/Twine using the Twine cookbook or the SugarCube wiki (if you're using SugarCube, which is just one 'version' of Twine (the most advanced one--I believe other ones include Harlowe and Snowman), as well as Adam Hammond's tutorial on how to make a Twine game! This is what I did, though I fully admit that I had the advantage of already being very well-versed in ChoiceScript, which shares a lot of the same principles and nomenclature!

Learning CSS: this is how you style the game's UI. Full disclosure, I absolutely hate it. It's so finicky and doesn't make a lot of inherent sense to me, but I try to muddle through. :') There are lots of CSS guides out there, including Grim Baccaris's Twine Grimoire! There are also a lot of amazing creators out there who offer free Twine CSS templates for free, especially on itch.io, so you can start off your game with an existing UI. I used one of these and built up from there in order to develop the Shepherds UI!

Learning JavaScript: this is only necessary if you plan to use a lot of complicated functions and behaviors, like interactive maps and documents that update without having to navigate to a different passage. I'm also horrendous at this and had to have a lot of help from people who are better-versed in this kind of coding, but thankfully it was only a small part of the game!

Learning HTML: this is the framework that Twine outputs into, but I don't think it's really that necessary to 'learn' if you've got the other things handled or are using a template! The principles are still good to know, but I wouldn't say it's really as crucial as the other bits.

Hope that all makes sense, and is helpful! :D

[vaadazen-codes]

How To Get Started Making Visual Novels

Wanna make a visual novel? Or maybe you've seen games like Our Life, Blooming Panic, Doki Doki Literature Club, etc. and wanna make something like that? Good news, here's a very basic beginners guide on how to get started in renpy and what you need to know going in! Before you start, I highly recommend looking at my last post about writing a script for renpy just to make it easier on you!

LONG POST AHEAD

Obviously, our first step is downloading it from their website

thankfully, its right on the home page of their site. Follow basica program installation steps and run the program. I highly recommend pinning it to your task bar to make it easier to access.

From there, you're met with the renpy app, it's a little daunting at first but let's talk about what all these buttons are for.

Projects

This part is simple, it just lists the current projects in the chosen directory. You probably won't have any in there of your own. You should still see Tutorial and The Question!

Both of those default projects are super helpful in their own ways, i highly recommend testing out the tutorial and playing around with it just to get comfortable with some of the basics.

Create New Project

The first step to actually making your game into a game!

You'll be met with a prompt letting you know that the project is being made in English and that you can change it. You can click Continue.

From here, you'll be asked to input a project name! Put in your games title, or even a placeholder title since this Information can be changed later! (this is also the title the folder will be in your file browser, be sure to name it something you won't overlook)

Now we get to choose our resolution!

If you have no idea what to choose, go for 1920x1080! This is the standard size for most computer monitors and laptops, but it will still display with moderately decent quality on 4k monitors too!

You can choose 3840x2160 as well. This is 2x the measurements of the default, with the same ration. These dimensions are considered 4k. Keep in mind, your image files will be bigger and can cause the game to have a larger size to download.

Now we get to choose our color scheme!

Renpy has some simple default options with the 'light mode' colors being the bottom two rows, and the 'dark mode' colors being the toop two rows.

You can pick anything here, but I like to choose something that matches my projects vibes/colors better. Mostly because depending on how in depth you go with the ui, it minimizes the amount of changes I need to make later.

Click continue and give it a minute. Note: If it says "not responding" wait a moment without clicking anything. It can sometimes freeze briefly during the process.

Now we should be back at our home screen, with our new project showing. Let's talk about allll that stuff on the right now.

Open Directory

This just opens that particular folder in your local file explorer!

game - is all the game files, so your folders for images, audio, saves, and your game files like your script, screens, and more.

base - this is the folder that the game folder is inside of. You can also find the errors and log txt files in here.

images - takes you to your main images folder. This is where you wanna put all of your NON gui images, like your sprites, backgrounds, and CGs. You can create folders inside of this and still call them in the script later. EX: a folder for backgrounds , a folder for sprites for character a, a seperate folder for spirtes for character b, etc.

audio - Takes you to the default audio folder. This is empty, but you can put all your music and sound effects here!

gui - brings up the folder containing all of the default renpy gui. It's a good place to start/ reference for sizes if you want to hand draw your UI pieces like your text box!

Edit File

Simple enough, this is just where you can open your code files in whatever text/code editor you have installed.

Script.rpy - where all of your story and characters live. This is the file you'll spend most of your time in at first

Options.rpy - Contains mostly simple information, like project name and version. There aren't a ton of things in here you need to look at. There is also some lines of code that help 'archive' certain files by file type so that they can't be seen by players digging in code however. Fun if you want to hide some images in there for later or if you just dont want someone seeing how messy your files are. We've all been there

Gui.rpy - where all of the easy customization happens. Here you can change font colors, hover colors, fonts, font sizes, and then the alignment and placement of all of your text! Like your dialogue and names, the height of text buttons, etc. It more or less sets the defaults for a lot of these unless you choose to change them later.

Screens.rpy - undeniably my favorite, this is where all of the UI is laid out for the different screens in your game, like the main menu, game menu, quick menu, choice menu, etc. You can add custom screens too if you want, but I always make my own seperate file for these.

Open Project - this just opens all of those files at once in the code editor. Super handy if you make extra files like I do for certain things.

Actions

last but not least, our actions.

Navigate Script - This feature is underrated in my honest opinion, it's super handy for help debugging! In renpy you can comment with # before a line. However, if you do #TODO and type something after it, it saves it as a note! You can view these TODO's here as well as easily navigate to when certain screens are called, where different labels are (super great if your game is long, and more. It saves some scrolling.

Check Script (Lint) - also super duper handy for debugging some basic things. It also tells you your word count! But its handy for letting you know about some errors that might throw up. I like using it to look for sprites I may or may not have mispelled, because they show up in there too.

Change/Update GUI - Nifty, though once you start customizing GUI on your own, it isn't as useful. You can reset the project at any point and regenerate the image files here. This updates all those defaults we talked about earlier.

Delete Persistent - this just helps you delete any persistent data between play throughs on your end. I like to use it when making a lot of changes while testing the game, so that I can reboot the game fresh.

Force Recompile - Full disclosure, as many games as I've made and as long as I've been using Renpy, i have never used this feature. I searched to see what it does and this is the general consesus: Normally renpy tries to be smart about compiling code (creating .rpyc files) and only compiles .rpy files with changes. This is to speed up the process since compiling takes time. Sometimes you can make changes that renpy don't pick up on and therefore won't recompile. In these cases you can run force recompile to force it. Another solution (if you know what file is affected) is to delete that specific. rpyc file.

The rest of your options on this right hand side are how you make executable builds for your game that people can download to extract and play later!

Sorry gang! that was a whole lot of text obviously the last button "Launch Project" launches an uncompiled version of the project for you to play and test as you go! Hang in tight because my next post is about how to utilize github for renpy, so you can collaborate easier!

[b1adie]

[floral-poisons]

kind of wanna reinforce this here. because i’ve seen ai writing become so popular on tik tok.

ai writing is not okay.

it’s literally theft. just like how ai art steals, ai writing steals. it’s using authors’ very real work to generate whatever you type in. and this also needs to be said as well.

writing is a form of art. fanfiction is a form of literature.

seeing this all over my fyp is REALLY discouraging. fanfic itself is already a labor of love and we love it when you interact. but please do not use ai writing for your fanfic needs when this writing literally steals from fanfic authors.

genuinely don’t know if this post will go around because my interactions outside of hcs are shit, but i hope it does.

[wonderingcheese]

Wanted to redraw them,,

Everyone belongs to @evertidings <3

[notsogreatdion]

✶ INTERACTIVE FICTION RECS ✶

✶ Project Hadea - @nyehilismwriting (wip)

✶ The Exile - @exilethegame (wip)

✶ Vendetta - @vendetta-if (wip)

✶ When Twilight Strikes - @evertidings (wip)

✶ The Northern Passage - @northern-passage (wip)

✶ Merry Crisis - @merrycrisis-if (wip)

✶ Diaspora - @diasporatheblog (wip)

✶ Infamous - @infamous-if (wip)

✶ Fields of Asphodel - @chrysanthemumgames (wip)

✶ Eyes of Shan - @eyesofshan-if (wip)

✶ A Comedy of Manors - @sviyaginthegreat (wip)

✶ Wolf Set Free - @wolfsetfree-if (wip)

✶ Honor Amongst Thieves - @leoneliterary (wip)

✶ Thicker Than - @barbwritesstuff (wip)

✶ Soulmates Inc. - @soulmatesinc-if (wip)

✶ Crown of Ashes and Flames - @coeluvr (wip)

✶ Virtue's End - @virtues-end (wip)

✶ You Live and Fern - @beetlebethwrites (wip)

✶ Attollo - @attollogame (wip)

✶ Wayfarer - @idrellegames (wip)

✶ The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - An affair of the heart - @doriana-gray-games (wip)

✶ Superstitions 1, 2 - @13leaguestories

✶ Seven Days in Purgatory (I don't think this one is ever getting finished, but it has a special place in my heart)

⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣ ✶

VN'S

✶ A Date with Death - @twoandahalfstudios

✶ 14 Days With You - @14dayswithyou (wip)

✶ Blooming Panic - @robobarbie

✶ ERROR143

✶ The Good People - @moiraimyths (wip)

✶ Our Life: Beginnings & Always - @gb-patch

✶ Our Life: Now & Forever - @gb-patch (wip)

⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣⌣ ✶

[coeluvr]

I posted this a month ago on Patreon which means now it's time for everyone to finally see her! ✨️

Please welcome our beautiful Fadiya. 💗

Artist is @/CGcrescent on Twitter/X !

[fisheem4mmal]

因為我剛好遇見你 留下足跡才美麗

[fisheem4mmal]

the uncropped long picture under cut

[cannibalchicken]

[ventique18]

Life sized cutouts... He is so... He is so... God he really stands like he owns the entire place and I'm so into it 😩

So glad I wasn't there bc I would've been arrested for stealing a husbando cardboard 👍

[mangacupcake]

@adrianasunderworld @marrondrawsalot @writing-heiress @the-weirdos-mind @nproduction626 @rose-tea-and-strawberries @anxious-twisted-vampire

LILIA’S SHOES!!!! 💕

[manonamora-if]

Interactive Fiction - Twine Resource Megalist

This Resource Megalist is intended to centralise the resources for the IF Tumblr community to create Interactive Fiction with Twine. While most will focus on the Twine formats, other useful resources will be included.

I don’t know much about other Interactive Fiction programs or format aside from Twine. Even then, I tend to only use Sugarcube. Though this list may try to cover all Twine formats in its resources, my bias for the SugarCube format will be obvious.

If you have a resource I should include, send it to me and I’ll add it !

Official Twine Links

Official Website : Twinery (you can download Twine or use it online) Official Discord: Twine Games, the creators of Twine and most formats, as well as Twine wizard hang out there to help. Official Reddit: Twine Games, answers Twine related questions too.

Twine Formats

Harlowe: Current version: 3.3.3 Repository, Documentation. Creator: Leon Arnott

SugarCube: Current version 2.36.1 Repository, Documentation. Creator: Thomas M. Edwards/TheMadExile/TME (Patreon) also created the Tweego Compiler (all format).

Chapbook: Current version 1.2.2 Repository, Documentation. Creator: Chris Klimas (Patreon), who also created Twine!

Snowman: Current version 2.0.2 Repository, Documentation. Creator: Chris Klimas, but currently maintained by Dan Cox.

Many other formats have been created for Twine, and a non-exhaustive list can be found on this page. Please note that some formats may not be complete or available anymore.

Aside from Tweego, there are also other compilers. A non exhaustive list can be found here.

Forums and Guides

The Twine website has a guide to help with the Twine interface here, as well as Cookbook to help you choose the format you may want to use. The Cookbook includes explanation and tutorials on the ways the different formats operate. There is also the old Twinery Forum where many questions were solved before it closed in 2017 and the Twine Q&A (similar fate). Please note: Due to the Forum closure and the lack of update for the Cookbook, some examples/code may be out of date (though the logic may still be good).

If you are looking for a Forum style-community for help (or discuss Twine), you should go instead to the IntFiction Forum!

Other Guides, Tutorials and Communities

The documentation for each formats may still not be quite easy to get, as it often use very technical description. Below are some guides and tutorials with maybe easier explanations. There might be more (please let me know!).

Guides and Tutorials non-official

YouTube Channels:

Dan Cox

Adam Hammond

Yi Weng

Note: The Twine interface changed in 2022, some aspects of these tutorial may be outdated.

Written Guides:

The Twine Grimoires (Harlowe and SugarCube - focus on visual) by @gcbaccaris (Patreon)

Introduction to Twine (Harlowe 2.1)

Narroscope Chapbook Talk

Kira’s SugarCube Guide (code)

@townofcrosshollow SugarCube Beginner Tutorial &  Tutorial 1.02

Guide for ChoiceScript to Sugarcube/Twee Transition by @manonamora-if

Tumblr coders

Below is a list of IF creators using Twine and having created tutorials/answered asks. Please check the creator’s FAQ before sending an ask/contacting them. There might be coders for other formats making tutorials, but I do not know of them.

SugarCube

@manonamora-if : I have #coding support masterlist

@idrellegames also answered a lot of Twine questions over the years (coding asks) (Patreon - Ko-Fi)

@cerberus-writes answered asks here. (Ko-Fi)

@nyehilismwriting has a coding tag. (Patreon - Ko-Fi)

@townofcrosshollow made some tutorials too.

@ramonag-if Tutorials (Patreon - Ko-Fi)

@outoftheblue-if coding/tutorials posts (Ko-Fi)

Harlowe:

@heart-forge used to answer asks. (Ko-Fi)

Coding Communities

Below you will find Discord servers focused on coding with Twine or Interactive Fiction where you can ask question. I am sure there are others Discords or Forums out there (especially with other languages) !

Decoding Twine Discord - run by multiple IF Creators on Tumblr.

Interact-If Discord - mainly an IF discord, but coding questions can be asked there too.

Fiction Intéractive - similarly to the one above, this one is mainly an IF community but Francophone.

Other Twine Resources

Custom Macro (GitHub + Patreon/Kofi links)

There are A LOT of people who created custom macros for Twine (SugarCube especially).

SugarCube:

Official Add-ons

Akjosch (GitHub) : Modules

Chapel (Website - GitHub - Ko-Fi): Macros.

Cycy (GitHub) Macros. Also created the T3LT extension for VSCode (syntax highlighter and macro checker-ish)

Greyelf (Forum + Forum) : Harlowe style animations + Right-Sidebar

Gwen (GitHub) Macros.

HiEv (Patreon): Macros, Inventory System

Hogart (GitHub) Macros.

Mike Westhad (GitHub) Macros and some StyleSheets

SjoerdHekking (GitHub - Patreon) Macros.

TME (GitHub) : Language Setting

Harlowe:

Chapel: Audio Library, Macro API

Inventory System

Greyelf (Forum + Forum): CSS styles

Templates (Visual or Code)

Note: I have not tested all of these below.

SugarCube

100% Good Twine Sugarcube Templates by @manonamora-if (Visual, 2 templates as of now)

Sugarcube Template & Twine - Sugarcube Template by @nyehilismwriting (Visual)

twine sugarcube template by @cerberus-writes (Visual)

ChoiceScript-like SugarCube template (code for copy-pasting) by brushmen (Visual & Code)

Twine/Sugarcube 2 Template by @innerdemons-if (Visual)

Fallen London Twine Template by thesharkwrites (Visual)

Tutorial: Coding Pronouns and Verbs in Twine SugarCube by Sylveranty (Code)

Twine Template and Twine Template II by @outoftheblue-if (Visual)

Simple Visual Novel Template for Twine by Sun Labyrinth (Visual)

PC98 Layout for Twine by fia glas (Visual)

A Quick Guide to Character Pages by @gamesbyalbie (Code)

Coding Pronouns and Verbs by @sylveranty (Code)

Harlowe:

Twine 2 (Harlowe) CSS Pack #1 by Candy✩Giants (Visual)

Custom Pronouns - Twine Tutorial by chewiethedoggo (Code)

Gender Inclusive Twine 2 Harlowe Code Tutorial by autistmouse (Code)

Harlowe Stylesheet (Github, Visual)

Twine 1:

Twine Texting Project by shindigs (Visual & Code)

Other Twine Resources

Tweego

Tweego Installer from Chapel

Ready-To-Use Tweego Folder + Guide by @manonamora-if

Other

Turning a Twine Game into a Google App

Interact-If Twine Resources Tag (you may find some of the resources above there) : #twine #twine resources #twine templates 

Other Coding/IF Resources

Knowing a bit about other coding languages can help you with customising the visual or the gameplay of the project. CSS/HTML are most helpful when understanding templates or how to build/edit the visual size; JavaScript for the gameplay/animation.

W3Schools is more accessible to new users and the explications tend to be easier to understand overall. However, MDN is thought to have the superior code and will let you know more easily if a code/rule is compatible between browsers. Both websites will include explanation for JavaScript, HTML and CSS.

If you want to learn JavaScript, you may want to start on this website.

Accessibility Resources

An important point that should be included is how to make your project accessible (for screen-readers, colour-blind, visual sensitive, etc…). While the way Twine/Tweego compiles the project into an HTML file already takes some of these into account (especially for screen-reader use), but the way one codes may hinder this accessibility.

Colour Contrast Check

ARIA-rules (used by Twine)

Firefox Accessibility Inspector

Misc Stuff

Codepen is useful to test HTML/CSS/JavaScript. There are also some cool code out there (but edits are required to work on Twine).

Pattern of CYOA Games is more of an IF Planning resource than a coding one, but is always useful to have.

Interact-If has also reblogged some resources (see the Platform Ref Tag Subsection).

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Again, this list is non-exhaustive. I’ve only added what I know/have seen around the internet. If you have Twine resources not included in this post, please let me know so I can add it.

If I have forgotten Patreon/Ko-Fi links for any of the people mentioned above, please let me know ask well!

[ilovelosermen69]

Girls when he does the bare minimum in fanfiction

[queen-shiba]

Well if the men irl aren't gonna protect me from society and give me cuddles, who will?

Women don't even give me that

[zorlok-if]

As I'm making an effort to be more open, here's a glimpse at my progress/process.

You can find the full text for the passages below the cut.

Passage 1:

Behind the thick glasses, he looks back at you—not challenging, but unflinching. He's... confident. When it comes to this, at least. And not just confident, exceedingly confident.

Demons cannot lie.

You know this to be false—you just proved it so.

But, for whatever reason, Tommy is wholeheartedly convinced of this.

In his eyes, you cannot lie to him.

Play along. - [lying]

Ask him why he thinks this. - [curious]

Prove him wrong. - [honest]

Admit that you've already lied. - [honest]

Passage 2:

[Play along]

Well, what Tommy doesn't know { either: "can't hurt you" or "could be used to hurt him later" }...

You lean forward. The legs of the chair slam down onto the floor. "Great. I'm glad I don't have to explain that." You examine him, adopting a smile that's subtle enough to appear unintentional but noticeable enough for Tommy to catch it. "You know what, kid? You're more clever than you look."

"Oh," Tommy's head tilts the other way. "Cool. Thanks... I guess?" Something clicks, a flame sparks in the depths of his dull eyes. "Wait! Cool! That's it. We were talking about the contract—specifically, what it means to be cool."

Continue

[Ask him why he thinks this]

"Why do you think that?"" you ask.

"Think what?"

"That demons cannot lie."

"Cause before, when we formed the contract, you told me—" Horror dawns across Tommy's his face. "Wait... Can you lie? Did you lie to me back then?"

"I can't answer that second question—thanks to you—but I can lie now. So... what do you think?" – [honest]

"No. Like you said, demons can't lie. If I can't lie now, I probably couldn't then." – [lying]

[infamous-if]

O kay okay okayaoakayasysayas Since Rowan isn't going to be a LI can we please get his POV reaction (deep crush stage) of MC going over to him to tell him that MC is in love with one of the other ROs? Pleasee I need the angst and I love Rowan and am sad we won't be able to romance him!!

I was listening to favorite crime and kind of went a bit overboard. Please excuse this lengthy and angsty-ish drabble. Aha.... 🤒 ill keep it short next time

The soft notes of Rowan's guitar--affectionally dubbed 'Betty'--rises above his head, filling the silence of his hotel room. He strums aimlessly, absently, his fingers having a mind of their own as they move, creating a random melody that's oddly soothing. Or maybe it's the very essence of his guitar--he always feels more grounded, centered, with Betty in his hands.

Rowan's gaze remains unfocused as he plays, his head tilted, legs crossed on the balcony that overlooks the sleepy streets of their latest tour stop. A soft, pleasantly warm wind curls around the messy strands of his hair, locks sweeping across his forehead like a caressing hand. As the melody takes hold, going from mindless practice to something that sounds like it can be the bones of a real song, he closes his eyes.

Rowan has never been a good singer, but you don't need to be a good singer to make people feel something. He's learned that from the best of them.

I wonder if MC would like this.

The thought of his best friend makes a low groan sound in his throat, and with a huff he pauses the recording of his phone. Suddenly Betty's romantic notes feel like a taunt, a blade to his heart with every reminder of what he and MC are not. They're not together. They're not anything more than friends.

They're not what he wants them to be.

He knows he shouldn't feel this way about them. They're friends. They've been friends since he still thought fart jokes were funny and he had no bass in his voice. That's all they've always been and all they will be: friends.

The word has never sounded so terrible.

Still. If only...

His phone buzzes with a text and he sets Betty down. That blade in his heart only twists when he sees who it's from.

Of course. Did my thinking manifest them? The thought induces both a laugh and a sharp hint of misery from him.

He reads the text: Open your door.

He turns his upper-body to face his door, bursting up once the realization flows through him. He glances at himself in the mirror on his way there, making sure his pajamas are at least semi-presentable. It's MC; they've seen him in worst states, but level of comfortability changes when you want someone to see you in ways they've never seen you before.

In other words, he needs to look good.

Rowan heaves a breath before swinging open the door, remembering to keep the easy smile on his face. MC still looks good even at twelve a.m. after an entire day on the road. It's almost unfair.

"Heyyyy." He grins, trying to appear light. "To what do I owe the pleasure?"

MC rolls their eyes. "You're not busy, are you?" They lean over to peek behind Rowan's shoulder, their eyes settling on an abandoned Betty. "Working on something?"

"Nah." He scratches his neck, self-concious. "Just fooling around. What, you need to talk about something?"

MC pushes past Rowan's shoulder to breeze inside, throwing themselves on the bed with a huff. "Iris and Devyn are out and I need to talk to someone."

Rowan takes a seat next to them, snorting. "So I'm the third choice?Wow."

They prop themselves up on their elbows, strands of hair falling in front of their face. Rowan has the terrible urge to lean over and push them away. "You're not exactly the 'serious talk' kind of person."

"Serious talk?" He gapes. "Yes, I am! I'm capable of being serious, you know. I'm not an asshole."

With a laugh, MC rolls over on their stomach and groans into Rowan's pillow. Now his curiosity is officially piqued. What could have MC so...like this?

"What's up?" Rowan's following laugh is both nervous and amused. "Did something happen with Seven?" Seven and MC have been a bit...all over the place since the beginning of the tour. He hardly knows what to call it. "Or did Orion lecture you again?" Orion is another one. That man has been relentless since tour started.

MC shoots him a look before sitting up, copying Rowan's position. His eyes flicker down to where their knees touch, to the proximity that's gone from the size of the bed to none at all.

They've been close like this before. No, scratch that. They've been closer, but this is different. This is different because everything is different.

"You know you're my best friend, right?" MC says, putting their hands on Rowan's.

He clears his throat, the skin under theirs burning with their touch. "Yeah...?"

"And we can tell each other everything?"

"Yeah." He quirks a brow at them, trying to stifle their humor. "Are you dying? Please don't tell me you're dying. You haven't even gotten rich yet to leave me anything in your will."

MC laughs but it comes out a bit uncertain. High-pitched. Rowan knows them. The same way he knows Iris and Devyn. He knows all of them like the back of his hand. So it only takes him another second to realize it.

MC is nervous.

His heart does a weird somersault in his gut.

"I have a secrettttt," MC sing-songs. Even as a joke they still manage to sing with perfect pitch.

The four words are enough to shake his very world, but he manages an eye roll. "Fucking hell, we're not twelve. Just spit it out."

"Sorry." MC palms their face, a nervous laugh escaping them. God. This must be serious for MC to be nervous in front of him? Rowan has never really gave anyone the impression of a harsh judge. Hell, he's always been an open book. "I just...I'm in love with [RO]."

He wished he didn't rush them. He wished he didn't hear those words at all. He's half tempted to grab it from the air and shove it back into MC's mouth so they can pretend it never happened.

"What?" is all the fuzz in his brain can spit out.

MC throws their self back, a wildly breathless laugh escaping them. The sound is even better than Betty's notes. "WHEW. That felt good to say it. Is anyone hot in here? I know I am."

MC keeps babbling but all Rowan could hear is a white noise in his head. MC is in love with RO. MC is in love with them.

MC is in love with someone that's not him.

"I just needed to let that out." MC huffs, gazing around the room. "You should invite me next time you play. You know I like seeing you finger Betty."

Rowan can't even laugh at the dirty inside joke they've had between them since he bought Betty years ago. It suddenly makes him feel wholly small and largely ridiculous: Rowan will never be the person for MC. He will always be the goofy best friend that makes stupid, childish jokes about fingering his dumbass guitar and the one MC goes to when Devyn and Iris aren't available.

He's not even the second choice. He's the fucking fourth.

As if noticing the change in atmosphere, MC awkwardly purses their lips and says, "I should probably get back to my room and get some sleep. We have an early start tomorrow."

He blinks, managing a small nod. "Uh-huh." He runs a hand through his hair, feeling naked without his hat. "Right."

They stand and shoot Rowan a final look. "Thank you," they say after. a moment, "for being my friend."

He's really starting to hate that word.

But he smiles anyway. "Yeah. Ditto."

MC grins, spinning on the heel of their foot to leave the room. Rowan follows, waving lamely at them and watching as they disappear down the hall, whistling a merry tune. It's true; it does feel like a weight was lifted of their shoulders. They walk with a hop in their step. Rowan hates knowing it was RO that is responsible for that.

With a sigh he closes the door, leaning his forward against it. Spinning on his shoulder, he looks up at the ceiling.

"I need to get laid," he mumbles.

Though he has a feeling that won't do much to solve the problem in his heart.

[fisheem4mmal]

History repeats itself

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THIS ONE MADE ME LAUGH LMAO 😭😭 He's like yeah okay this that get over it!