FOURFIVESECONDS

❝ i don’t trust anyone who hasn’t been self-destructive in some way. and who hasn’t gone through some sort of self-loathing. you’ve got to bang yourself around a bit to know yourself. ❞

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넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

i love you, alistair tremaine [ ! grins widely at him though her voice had dropped to a whisper. she always felt more vulnerable showing affection to him when they were alone especially since she was the far opposite when they were in public. she thinks its because it feels more real in private; she thinks he can study her more, too ] i had loads of charm, shut up [ ! continues to smile as she turns to slap him on the chest ] i confess my love all the time! i can do it now–who do you want me to call? ben? uncle tony? your mother?

[alxtremaine-blog]

i love you too, camila barton. more than you know. (/ presses his nose into her hair again, wrapping his arms around her tight again, and just appreciating the silence that surrounded them in that moment. ) yeah, okay (/ rolls his at the comment. pinches her nose between his thumb and finger when she turns to slap him ) alright, miss, you can stop picking fights. i trust you. (/ smiles softly, moving to adjust himself ) though i’m starting to cramp a little. can you move a little bit?

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

[ ! scrunches her face in his grasp ] really? [ ! softens into a shy smile. she had always struggled with the idea of romance, more used to teasing him than truly appreciating him–not that she didn’t. she knew she was a lucky son of a gun to even have him. ] what was it that made you want to marry me? it couldn’t have been my thirteen year old charm, right? [ ! laughs, as she whispers the next sentence ] i think i always knew, too. sort of. i don’t know [ ! shrugs off the confession, returning to leaning against him ] 

[alxtremaine-blog]

really, really (/ presses another kiss to her crown, one of many that he’s done. rarely do they find themselves with so much free time. either his job takes him away from her, or her job away from him. beyond that their respective parents meddled ridiculously ) oh, you wish. it had no charm when you were thirteen (/ laughs ) its that smile. it used to fill your entire face like you had just heard the funniest joke in existence. it still does. (/ smiles at her before exaggerating a surprised expression ) camila irene barton, confessing her love for me?! stop the presses! 

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

[ ! feels the smallest pit of guilt at the bottom of her stomach ] no–babe–it’s not–it’s not that it’s a sensitive subject– [ ! turns completely so that she’s kneeling in front of him, rather than leaning against him. in an attempt to throw a not-so-serious light on the sudden conversation, she keeps a packet of chips on her lap ] i want you, forever. there is not a single doubt in my mind. but i want us to get married because we want to get married not because we’re about to have kids. i want us to get married for us. not for this little rascal [ ! points at her stomach and rolls her eyes jokingly ] this little rascal is going to be the reason for a lot of things in our life; i don’t want them to be the reason why you marry me. 

[alxtremaine-blog]

(/  he tries to hide his panic. from experience, sudden changes in her exposure were never and good thing and more often than not they resulted in a screaming fight. he was in no mood for that today and willed that the fates allowed him some peace ) (/ when she’s finished speaking, he can’t help but blink, absorbing her words. finally he simply laughs, cupping her face between his hands ) i’ve wanted to marry you, for you, since the day i met you. you underestimate just how tightly you have me wound up, miss. 

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

[ ! blatantly ignores his statement by shoving as many snacks in her mouth at one time, almost choking though recovers with as much dignity as she expects–which is very little, in reality ] 

[alxtremaine-blog]

(/ laughs at the far too familiar sight of his girlfriend gorging herself in snacks in order to avoid the conversation of marriage, raising his hands in a sort of surrender ) okay, okay, i know when i’ve hit a sensitive topic, you can stop trying to drown yourself in snacks (/ places a heavy kiss to her cheek out of pure amusement ) 

[saintbaekhyun]

I miss you. what do I do? Only longing builds up

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

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[ ! looks down at her belly, releasing his hands to cradle the enlarged part of her body in her small hands ] they’ll be the happiest kid in the entire world. [ ! voice drops to a whisper, leaning forward as if to speak to the unborn child privately ] i promise. [ ! when she’s finished, she lets out a loud bark of a laugh ] if it scares you that much, i’ll make sure they idolise you. [ ! continues to smile, leaning against his again ] excuse me, mr. tremaine, can you please stop making me fall in love with you? i’m already pregnant with your child, like, what else do you want from me?

[alxtremaine-blog]

(/ his laugh is dry, short and appreciative of her response. in turn, he hums quietly at her questions, though joking as they were. shutting his eyes, he takes a moment to sit in the silence before, near silently, mutters ) your hand in marriage, would be nice. just a thought. 

[bbemybaby]

Buy/listen to Be Alright by Ariana Grande on iTunes!

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

[ ! of course she feels the kick her baby returns to the pokes and can’t help but giggle at the tickle. snuggles against him closer and laughs quietly ] like mother, like son or daughter. did you know nico is taking bets with my father on who the child looks more like? [ ! she shakes her head at the stupidity of a few of her favourite boys ] i think it’ll look like neither of them and be a spitting image of either you or my mother [ ! looks up at him ] i’d like it if he looked like you, i think. or she. [ ! smiles ] no, not really. i don’t want to name him or her until i meet him or her. i do like natalia, though, and the name anthony. alistair is nice, too [ ! continues to smile at him, though she was being series ] i always did like your name. 

[alxtremaine-blog]

i don’t really mind what they look like--or who--as long as they’re happy (/ grins blindly, focusing his attention solely on her. sometimes it was hard for him to really understand the situation they had found themselves in ) what do you think they’ll be like? i’m terrified that they’ll hate me. worse still, that they’ll idolise me (/ he’s only half serious of the statement but knows that she’ll pick up on it within a second ) i’ve always liked you, so. there’s that. (/ wraps his arms around her tighter still, snuggling against her ) 

[tsukinosusagis]

[chiaradr]

Vaporize SS15

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넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

[ ! as she scrambles to fit as many chips into her mouth as she can, she almost misses his kiss and smiles to herself. she knew early on in their relationship that she was lucky to have alistair. not because of his relation to the prince but because he is far more understanding than she realises she probably deserves. shaking her head at the question, she pushes the remote back ] you can choose. or we can just talk. i feel like we won’t be able to have as many of these moments once he or she arrives [ ! pokes her stomach lightly with a laugh ] 

[alxtremaine-blog]

(/ somewhat surprised at her refusal, he shrugs it off and returns the remote to where it sat previously. ) guess that’s true. (/ reaches over to poke her stomach too, laughing at the kick that is returned ) they’re a little fighter, aren’t they? can’t wait to see them running around here (/ he wraps his arms around her, resting his chin against her head ) have you given any more thought to names? 

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

[cvbarton-blog]

[ ! in a quick succession she finds him entering the room, bouncing onto the couch, motioning to the space beside him and then speak. it takes her a few moments to register everything before she, slowly, trudges towards him. her stomach was nearing nine months and so caused her a bit of discomfort as she moved. with her knees giving way, she falls onto the couch, covering half his body in the process. she lets out a small yelp in shock but straightens up when she knows that she is okay ] ain’t that the truth [ ! settling into the position, she arranges her snacks around her before turning slightly to peck him on the chin ] thanks. 

[alxtremaine-blog]

(/ he reaches out to help steady her when she stumbles, panicked that she would land on her stomach. he is well used to his girlfriends carelessness with her actions but considering she is carrying another person, he finds himself worrying more. ) (/ shifts slightly to give her a more comfortable position to lean against; returns the kiss to her crown ) no problem. do you want to pick something to watch or should i? (/ reaches for the remote beside him, handing it to her ) 

[oilait]

Hanging Out TOKYO with BEAMS 【三辻茜】

[until-we-meet-again-my-friend-d]

I don’t trust anyone who hasn’t been self-destructive in some way. And who hasn’t gone through some sort of bout of self-loathing? You’ve got to bang yourself around a bit to know yourself.

Johnny Depp (via sleep-water)

[cvbarton-blog]

넌 is 뭔들

[ ! prods barefoot into the living area of her parents apartment, she uses one arm to carry her snacks and the other is propped against her back as a balance to her stomach. she stops in the centre, studying where would the best place be for her pregnant self to seek refuge for a few hours ] 

[alxtremaine-blog]

(/ he passes by the living room only briefly catching her frame standing in the middle of the room. stands behind her for a few moments, finally realising she was studying the seats to see where she would be most comfortable. ) (/ flops down onto the couch, patting the space beside him ) you’ll be standing there all day if i didn’t make a decision (/ laughs )