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I do not promote eating disorders or any form of self harm. when viewing my profile pls take into consideration I'm a very blunt person and dont sugar coat anything. TW. if you need help pls get help.

[amassivefuckup]

Of course, I had to go fuck shit up and let it slip out of my mouth once. I’m so fucking stupid how tf could I hurt them like that. I’m so fucking stupid. I hate myself. I’m so over it. I relapsed and took some meds. I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry. Why would i allowe it to happen. I’m so ready to go back. Today a year ago I was hospitalized. Can’t be I’ve I made it exactly a year later and managed to allow myself to give up on getting better.

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I PROBABLY WONT BE TRIGGER WARING MY POSTS BTW!!!!

[amassivefuckup]

My anger has been super bad,, I binged yesterday and I want to D I E. I’m so over all this bullshit. I want to slit my wrists and get high one meds.

~and that’s on unhealthy coping skills and substance abuse ✌️

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Well

I mean today I haven’t eaten anything but a few tiny pretzels and a tiny bit of water. I’m too nervous and uncomfortable to eat around anyone right now. I don’t wanna let it eat me alive again but damn it feels so fucking good to drink something and feel it go all the way down my tummy because it’s empty.

[amassivefuckup]

Kinda wanna fucking kms,, dead ass over my existence.

[amassivefuckup]

Hello,Its been a minute since I've been active,but I could update you guys. It's been rough I found put my S/O cheated on me and decided not to tell me after we moved in together. So my issues are constantly growing and bothering me. I've been stressed and cant do anything right. My ED is a little rough rn,plus i relapsed the other day and it was over something so dumb and pointless.

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Wow

I feel like everything is my fault and like i ruined it now I wanna self harm so badly.

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[amassivefuckup]

So

I'm a mean bitch who literally cant fucking do anything right. I fuck shit up no matter what,like existing just isnt for me and I wanna fucking Die! I'm so done with existing I just wanna fucking relapse. I wanna take a bunch of my anxiety meds and stop my heart from beating so I die of a "accidental overdose" ... ya know????

[amassivefuckup]

A constant fear of mine...

Knowing someone who is close with me and them knowing my history with bulimia and stuff like that,hearing someone I love in the bathroom coughing and shit,makes me think they're slowly shoving their fingers down their throat just to feel better. It makes me worry,butt I could never ask if they were and its sad.

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I hate this nasty feeling in my heart when someone I care about very much is just suffering.

[amassivefuckup]

My anger has been getting worse,and my OCD has been acting up. I'm fucking exhausted and ready to DiE.

[amassivefuckup]

My ed has been bad and I've been struggling to not throw up everything.

[amassivefuckup]

Small update...

So I just recently received something that involves alot of responsiblity and patience,but I'm stressed and breaking down over something small and its hard,but I can and will do it. I'm working hard and have been to do this,I'm ready!! I just need patience.

[amassivefuckup]

I'm,,

Hungry, bored,emotionally exhausted, physically exhausted,over the day...I just wanna eat ugh.

[amassivefuckup]

I'm really stressed rn so I bought ice cream and a bunch of other shit to binge tonight,I'll probably gain a bunch of weight,but it's fine I'll just hate myself and fast as much as possible.