Daydeams & Bad Decisions ♉️

Im Ambar Im a daydreamer, a wanna be novelist, and a true Wallflower Aka just another twenty something year old who wasn't prepared for real lifeBut I am the seaNobody owns mePKD/CKD FighterSister, BestFriend, AlienPandaBabeSugarLover

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josh's thick ass fucking eyebrows

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yes

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I am active on Instagram! @ambrawr

A whole new person… holy water can not help you now

Find me

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Recovery

...has been hell so far. The pain when I wake up makes me regret having anything done. But they keep telling me to be hopeful. That soon nothing will hurt this bad. Soon I’ll be able to throw myself into securing what I need to keep life going. The time I do have awake and numbed out to my kidney I’ve been planning for my OF. Thinking of little perks and how to market myself to the fetish community. Blasphemy. Humiliation. Saliva. I want the weirdos weirdos. But I can’t do anything while it’s still hard to even breathe. They took a chunk of the top of my right kidbeys and drained and scrapped and shot nerve blocks where they could.. I don’t know why I thought I’d be up and normal after a couple days. I’m a week in and told I have another week or so before I feel somewhat normal.

For now just remember this isn’t even my final form

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Surgery today

On that extremely off chance I don’t wake, I love my niece more than words could ever describe and my brother is my heart and my grandma my strength. I’d be nothing without the hope they give

Now when I do wake up, and heal up, I owe someone some content! I did not forget. And I’ll be going balls deep on my OF for weebs lol just gotta wake up just gotta wake up wake up wake up

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My OF is up. Currently working on figuring out what you guys want to see. If anyone wants to help with ideas.

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I'd like to buy some content anonymously

What are you looking to see and how are you thinking of keeping your anonymity? That’s something I definitely am interested in learning how to do

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Gonna have to start a whole new blog

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Soo, hai😅 it’s been a minute. Around this time last year I had built crazy momentum trying to lead up into doing more of the things I wanted to do, instead of letting “fear of” control me and in direct defiance to feeling ugly and useless. And I was doing pretty ok... And then there was a decent sized rock tossed in front of my wheelies. And someday I’m going to find a way to get my story out there in hopes that it’ll help someone else not go through what I went through for literal decades. Mixed in there i let a relationship fall apart because I was so worried about it falling apart. Something in my head feels like a glow stick snapping. And as it cracks and shakes I need to allow myself to weirdly glow. I mean I’m quickly running out of time to dick around like this, not getting any younger lol and my kidneys are not getting better, I’m getting weaker and more and more exhausted every passing day just waiting for them to fail enough (soon I hope s00n) and right now I have just enough support to just try all the things. For years I wanted to cosplay and for years I’ve teased at naughty content. I took a crazy chance and spoiled myself with some things and aside from the one enraging comment about my skin tone not being fitting for the character I chose cause I’m not white) the response has been overwhelmingly supportive and I’ve only shown two photos lol but yes I hope I’m able to build that momentum again I hope you guys like what I decide to share! I’m still just testing waters with lighting and poses and being “in character” but also out of character as I’m found for Weeby Lewds for the Weeby dudes (remember I’m a dude hes a Dude shes a dude we’re all dudes yea!) Also I am 10000% more active on instagram if you’ve been trying to reach me there is easiest. I’m still clawing my way out of the big sad so I might not immediately get the hang of being able to respond and keep up with conversation and more importantly keeping up with posting content but I’m ready to go balls deep y’all

So stay tuned my babies

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Those of you hitting me up for content, give me a little bit! A bitch is getting some goodies to wear/take off 💋

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