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2023. What a year.

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I never post on here anymore. It's just become so much to juggle life, work, and beyond.

I am currently looking for jobs, and wow is it exciting and stressful all wrapped into one. I can't believe I'm in my final year of residency and that each day that passes, is one less day I spend in my training.

I am so excited to see what's to come. I have a busy few weeks up ahead, but I feel like I'm at such a pivotal and transitional period in my life. What a blessed life I live.

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Twenty-eight.

Today is my 28th birthday. Every year I come on here to reflect and wow there was a lot that happened in this past year.

Twenty seven was an okay year. I went through a lot of emotional turmoil and just intense feelings of burn out, but all of that fluctuated and eventually went away. It's tough because I think I learned a lot this past year, but it was hard to adjust to.

I have a really great feeling about being 28. I know I say that just about every year, but there's such a strong sense of pride and accomplishment that I feel right now.

In this last year, I finished PGY2; I went to Paris, the South of France, California, upstate New York, the Delaware beaches, Kansas City, Maine; I moved in with my partner; I grew.

In this next year, I hope I have a lot of clarity and just happiness. I am wrapping up my final year of residency!! The job search has already begun, and I'm just so excited. Everything feels calm and perfect. Onward and upward.

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Twenty eight today. ❤️

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1 month till 28. Time goes by so quickly. Here’s to the rest of 27.

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Hello.

It’s been such a long time since I’ve come on here. Since I last blogged...

I worked through some terrible horrible shit. We are still trying to navigate how our lives are to this day but things are better.

I moved into the 2 bed/2 bath apartment of my dreams.

I stopped caring as much about what other people think and started doing things for myself.

I started treating weekdays as days. For so many years of my life, weekdays meant no fun and all work/studying. Now I go to baseball games and basketball games and restaurants and happy hours during the week, and it feels fantastic.

I went to France and fell in love with the country all over again.

I went to one of my closest friend’s weddings. How surreal is it to see your friend in her single days and then to be at her wedding!!

I explored all of San Francisco.

I ate some of the best food I’ve ever had in my life. From omakase to just fantastic pasta.

I finished six 24 hour shifts!!!!!!!

I am in the last 3 weeks of my PGY2 year and WOW. What a year it’s been. I’ll have to recap the whole experience when I’m nearing the end.

I started focusing on my own happiness. And whatever that means for me.

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I am so heartbroken. I just don’t get why this shit keeps happening to me.

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2023.

It’s been a few weeks since 2023 started. My New Year’s turned out to be a rough awakening, but since then, I feel like things have been better. And stable.

2022 was...to say the least, fine. I worked harder than I probably ever have and ever will and it was brutal. I’ve never pushed myself to those limits before and I felt broken at times. But at the same time, I had so. much. fun. From so many weddings to birthdays to sports games to happy hours in the city. I wouldn’t give it up for anything.

In 2023, I want happiness and peace. I’ve stopped doing resolutions for a while because they were getting so hard for me to fulfill. But goals I have for 2023 are to continue to try to eat healthier, to continue working out and getting stronger, to try to be the best coresident and upper year possible, to be more selfless and introspective.

I have lots of big things coming up in 2023. And I’m excited to see where this year takes me. 

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Halfway through residency. Thank goodness!!! So proud and excited to be this far. Can’t wait till a year from now when I’m in the home stretch.

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An update.

I’m starting to realize that I can’t continue to live like this. Waiting until hardships are over to be happy is unrealistic and unhealthy. I’m officially 1.25 years into residency and it’s been tough. I thought that when I became a second year, most of my burnout would disappear. And while it’s gotten so much better, I can’t help but think that I need to find something sustainable. Only 1.75 years left of this.

I am excited for the future. We’re trying to find a place that we can live together in next year. Right now, we bounce around from his place to mine, and it’s tough having to balance that on top of crazy work hours. It’ll be exciting to just finally have a place that’s ours.

I’m getting excited to go to these weddings that are coming up. Two fall weddings back to back weekends right after coming off a week of nights is going to be tough, but I can’t wait.

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Twenty-seven.

It’s incredible that I’m already at my 27th birthday. Life is not what I thought it would look like at this age, yet it’s also so much more than I could’ve even imagined. Today I worked in my primary clinic and then the obgyn clinic, went out for lunch with my parents, and drove home while on the phone with my brother. I’m sitting here waiting to go out to eat for dinner, and life is good - hectic, tiring, and chaotic, but good.

I have a really good feeling about 27. Twenty six was a wild rollercoaster, and I’m just glad I’m taking the lessons I learned and the experiences I had with me into this new year. Onward and upward, always.

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27. ❤️