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[ #𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐅𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒 ] an independent, private & highly selective multi-muse roleplay blog featuring muses from the twilight saga, the hunger games, ginny & georgia, one tree hill & many more 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐛𝐲 𝐣𝐚𝐝𝐞.
I'm really sorry for falling into the void. Before coming back to rp I was in an 11 year relationship that for the last 8 or so years was really, really toxic and I was isolated quite severely. Only person I managed to keep in touch with was Jess and even that was sometimes months between messages. Not going to go into too much detail but because it's been so long since I tried to socialise i got incredibly overwhelmed and ended up isolating myself. Then my kitten got sick and I've been dealing with that. I promise it wasn't my intention to ghost or disappear and I promise I'm actively working on healing. ❤️
I promise I will post a starter call or something soon, currently my kitten doesn't like me typing but I do wanna write. Hit me up in IM's for my Discord to plot if we're mutuals. ❤️
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metacarpals (for matilda? 👀)
do they ask for help or clench their fists and bear it ?
∘ YOUTH : As seen throughout the novel, as a child Matilda would very much be in the 'clench her fists and bear it' camp. As a child raised in a space of abuse and neglect she quickly learned that she was the only person who could solve her problems because adults weren't to be trusted; this could also be down to being brought up in a very small English town where everybody would've known each others business yet chose to let Matilda stay in a household that didn't send her to school or supervise her, that let her roam the streets alone from a very young age and when they did send her to school the same caregivers chose to send her to one where the headmistress had the reputation of a tyrant just so Matilda wouldn't be happy or feel safe. Meeting Miss Honey was a turning point in regards to trusting adults, but even in that instance Matilda tried to save her teacher and classmates over seeking help for herself first, like support from an adult could only be acquired transactionally and this is apparent in her friendships with Violet and Bruce too; she stood up against an authority figure to help people being treated like she was at home (if not worse) with no regard to her own safety because nobody ever stood up for her and she took the blame wherever she could to protect them from cruelty. Her initial relationship with Miss Honey is also an example of how trauma effects young children, she treated Miss Honey as more of a peer than anything else at first because her experiences lead her subconsciously away from her actual peers because their life experiences are not the same. She was almost parentified, only instead of raising a sibling or taking care of a parent like that dynamic usually works, she raised herself. Meals, dressing, education - they were all her responsibility; even when it came to fighting back against her parents she took the role of avenger instead of asking for help. The sad thing is that until she started school and made friends and found an adult she could trust, to her this dynamic was normal. She developed telekinesis as a trauma response rather than trust an adult to help her.
∘ YOUNG ADULTHOOD : Now, as a young adult Matilda still likes to deal with things in her own way and just power through but having had a solid guardian who supported her and offered guidance and love for longer than she had her biological "parents", she's a lot more willing to let people in and help her - as long as they are people she trusts. As much as she persevered before, she now has the capability to reflect on her abuse and mistreatment and process the trauma inflicted upon her as a literal infant, so trust doesn't come easy to her but when potential friends treat her with consistency and show up for her she will ask for help when she needs it and they will have a fiercely loyal friend for life who will take on their causes as if they were her own - no questions asked.
JASPER TAG DROP.
JAKE TAG DROP.
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angst-y sentence starters
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“ I never asked you to save me - I asked you to stay. ”
“ You keep saying you’re fine, but I can still see the blood on your hands. ”
“ Don’t touch me. Everyone I love ends up broken. ”
“ I forgave you the first three times. There won’t be a fourth. ”
“ You weren’t there when I needed you most, so why are you here now? ”
“ I stopped counting the days since you left - turns out forever is shorter than I thought. ”
“ All those promises you made sound like lies when I say them out loud. ”
“ I kept your side of the bed empty for a year. It’s time to admit you’re not coming back. ”
“ You look at me like I’m a ghost, but you’re the one who killed us. ”
“ I would have burned the world down for you. You wouldn’t even cross the street. ”
“ Say it. Say you never loved me so I can finally stop hoping. ”
“ The worst part isn’t that you lied - it’s that I still believed you. ”
“ I practiced smiling in the mirror so you wouldn’t notice I’m falling apart. ”
“ You taught me how to trust again. Thanks for the lesson. ”
“ Every time you walk away, a piece of me goes with you. ”
“ I didn’t lose you. You threw me away the moment someone better came along. ”
“ Stop apologizing. The damage is already done. ”
“ I still reach for you in my sleep and wake up colder than before. ”
“ You said ‘forever’ like it was easy. ”
“ I keep replaying the last time you said my name, trying to hear love in it. ”
“ The silence after you left is louder than any fight we ever had. ”
“ I was ready to die for you. You weren’t even willing to live for me. ”
“ Tell me where it hurts, so I know where to stop touching. ”
“ You moved on so fast I didn’t even get the chance to miss you properly. ”
“ I built my whole world around you, and you just walked out the door without looking back. ”
“ The worst lies are the ones we tell ourselves to survive loving you. ”
“ I finally deleted your number. My phone still autocorrects ‘I’m sorry’ to your name. ”
“ You weren’t the villain - you were just cruel with good intentions. ”
“ I hate that I still check if you’re okay when I’m the one bleeding. ”
“ We didn’t break up. We slowly tore each other apart until there was nothing left to save. ”
“ You said you’d never make me cry. Look at me now. ”
“ I keep the voicemail you left the night everything fell apart. I’ve listened to it so many times I know your pauses by heart. ”
“ Loving you feels like drowning in slow motion while you stand on the shore. ”
“ I wasn’t enough to make you stay, but I was enough to make you feel guilty about leaving. ”
“ You came back like nothing happened, but I’m still picking up pieces you don’t even see. ”
“ I stopped leaving the porch light on. You never noticed anyway. ”
“ The saddest part is I still defend you when people ask why I’m not over it. ”
“ You didn’t just break my heart - you broke my ability to believe anyone else. ”
“ I finally understand why you always said ‘don’t get attached.’ You never planned on staying. ”
“ Every happy memory we had now feels like evidence in a crime scene. ”
“ I wish I could hate you. It would hurt less than this. ”
“ You keep asking what you can do to fix this. Start by going back in time. ”
“ I smiled in all the photos so no one would know you were destroying me behind them. ”
“ The hardest part of letting go is realizing you let go first. ”
“ I still flinch when someone says your name like it’s a curse. ”
“ You weren’t a chapter - you were the whole book, and now it’s on fire. ”
“ I didn’t lose feelings. They were murdered, slowly, every time you chose not to choose me. ”
“ I hope one day you look for me in a crowded room and feel what I feel every single day. ”
“ You walked away like it was easy, but I’m still here trying to remember how to breathe without you. ”
“ I finally stopped waiting for you. That’s the closest thing to healing I’ve managed so far. ”
( * BARE BONES.
a selection of headcanon questions inspired by key bones in the human body.
skull. what memories/thoughts do they guard the most from others ?
cheekbone. what makes them smile ?
mandible / jawbone. what are they incapable of saying out loud ?
teeth. what lasting mark do they leave on others ?
hyoid / neck. who taught them to speak up, or stay silent ?
clavicle / collarbone. who/what do they lean on when they're vulnerable ?
scapula / shoulderblade. what burden do they carry on their back ?
sternum. what makes their heart pound hardest ?
ribcage. who/what are they trying to protect ?
humerus. do they use humour as a shield or a weapon ? what from/to ?
radius. who/what do they reach for first in a crisis ?
ulna. who stands by them no matter what ?
carpals. what small habits do they have ?
metacarpals. do they ask for help or clench their fists and bear it ?
phalanges. what is their relationship with touch ?
spine. when do they lose their backbone, what scares them ?
pelvis. what future or legacy are they afraid/excited to be responsible for ?
sacrum. what sacrifices have they made ?
coccyx / tailbone. what outdated beliefs do they still carry, if any ?
femur. what drives them forward ?
patella / kneecap. how compliant/obedient are they, who will they kneel for ?
tibia. who/what keeps them moving forward ?
fibula. do they ever feel overlooked ?
tarsals. what past mistakes stick with them with every step they take ?
metatarsals. if they could disappear for a day, where would they run ?
MISC TAG DROP.
RORY TAG DROP.
MATILDA TAG DROP.
PEETA TAG DROP.
AUDRINA TAG DROP.
MARCUS TAG DROP.
BELLA TAG DROP.