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It is an irony worth noting that of all the love songs and poems that ever were, none of them succeed in recording any sense or impression of what the beautiful being who inspired them was like. All that is recorded is the feeling of love itself. And yet for the author of the song or poem there was only one person who it could be meant for. Why is that person always lost?

– Quentin S. Crisp, from “Far-Off Things,” Morbid Tales (Tartarus Press, 2004)

#lost by frank ocean

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Hayley Chiu (Chinese-Canadian, 2001) - Abode (2023)

If God had a face what would it look like

And would you want to see it

If seeing meant you would have to believe

watching the cup was anticlimactic, until it wasn’t . goalie gave it everything.

#silly little signs

metaphorformetaphor

You’ve become—and I never would have wished it— something like a metaphor of the passage (time, a cobbled alley between two streets which diverge, a tune that

re-emerges out of the permutations rung on it by saxophone, bass and piano, then takes one more plunge so its resolution’s all transformation).

Someone’s always walking away; the music changes key, the moving men pack the boxes. There the river goes with its bundled cargo: unanswered letters.

— Marilyn Hacker, from “Alto Solo,”A Stranger’s Mirror: New and Selected Poems 1994-2014 (W. W. Norton & Company, 2016)

The shooting pains certainly aren’t slowings so there’s something.

I’m breathing loud hot air into the room as if it will release me.

I can’t, so

it doesn’t.

There’s always a fucking lesson.

But also:

And finally:

Tears

#smoking joints back to back and listening to In Rainbows front to back

Assassins Creed Odyssey rn and gonna try Castillo Protocol or cronos. Dk.

#wish I had an eater otw tbh gd

My parents calling my sister to check up on me :

#she isn’t staying with me btw #little brother Connor is and for a 16 y.o boy who could be doing anything else…I’m grateful and lucky #LOL BUT WTF I DID NIT REALIZE THE MAGNITUDE OF THIS RECOVERY AND THAT IS ANOTHER HUMBLING FACTOR

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Moebius, "Nighthawks"

I never want this scenario again. I have to be so for real and get serious about meeting someone and starting a life. It is fucked.

#and no I’m not writing during the down time I am painting and keeping a watch journal because I think letterboxd is performative

Btw it’s a strict ass gotta keep my right knee elevated for 6 weeks and no weight bearing whatsoever pt once a week nothing is cheap and I am stuck what the frick is up over here fr

Wheewww best not to be entirely negative when writing so I’ll keep this short. I miss my routine and freedom. I’m learning to release and trust.

#I miss making coffee and slow showers and I’m so tan I should be kissing babes outside!

Gonna pass out for ten hours finally

#fingers crossed #yk where