All alone, smoking his last cigarette

Colton James, Doctor. Army Vet. 

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Colton groaned as he heard the knocking on the door, he listened for Dan’s footsteps but only heard the silence of the flat. Dan must of gone out or too work. Colton rolled over as he heard the knocking. “God sakes.” Colton muttered as he reached out for his wheelchair, and pulled himself into it. “I’m coming, hold your bloody horses.” Colton called out, something that seemed almost out of character for the mild manner doctors as he rolled towards the door, being careful not the apply to much pressure to his hand and busting the stitches. He opened the door, with a frown as he saw Sebastian on the other side. “What are you doing here?”

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twislandofmuses​:

“Okay, good,” Dan Said with a nod, smiling at the other male as he looked up at him, “don’t be silly, its not the first time I do stiches, and I have to say I do rather well” at least he didn’t got any complains from Eoin, even if the man did end up with a Scar, that was to be expected. “Alright, we’ll Stay here then until you’re ready to move” Dan Said, gently stroking his hair, as Colton let head rest his chest. “Hey, hey,” Daniel sighed, very gently pushing the other away as he kissed him, “Not right now, okay? You are not in a good emotinal state, I don’t feel right letting anything sexual happen with us tonight. Your head is far form being clear, my dear, I will not take advantage of this. I will stay with you for as long as you need me, and I’ll take care of you, as a friend,” he didn’t want to be harsh, but he was not going there while the man was haivng was having a break down, no way. “We can revisit this some other night when you’re not feeling like this. ”

Colton frowned when Dan broke away from the kiss. He ran his eyes over the man in front of him before he started to pull away.  “Jeez, if you don’t want me. Then just tell me.” Colton said as he watched Dan before he tried to move away from Dan. “You don’t need to make up some stupid excuse, I know I’m the best thing out. But really.” Colton said, his voice rising again as he squirmed against Dan’s arms. “Let me go, Dan. I know, I know I’m disgusting. How could anyone think to be with me right.” Colton finally pulled away from Dan, his breathing was getting heavy again as Colt moved and tried to get up, forgetting that he didn’t have prosthetic leg on.  Colton stumbled forward before he landed face first on the kitchen floor.  Colton let out a small sob as he clenched his hands. “I know, I’m useless and disgusting, not worth anything to anyone.” 

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islandofmuses​:

“Okay,” Dan said, his hand softly stronking the human’s back, as he help him calm down, he really didn’t know what was happening, he had never seen Colton like this before, “It’s okay, darling, you’re doing good,” the half vapire reasured as he continued to stroke his back, “Colton, are you with me, my darling?” he asked softly, he knew he was bleeding, he had seen the cuts and even if he haven’t he could smell the blood pretty well, “Let’s take you to you bedroom so I can take a look at the cuts and you can rest, I’ll make you some tea and I’ll sit with you, what do you say?” he didn’t know if Colton was listening to anything he was saying, but he figured it wouldn’t be bad to try, and maybe talking helped bring the other back to reality, so to say.

Colton took a deep breath before he nodded as he lifted his head, to look at the older male. “Yeah, yeah. I’m here.” Colton said as he moved a hand and rubbed his eyes slightly. He frowned as he looked down at his other hand, and saw the blood. “It...it’s fine. I’ll stitch it later.” Colton said softly as he looked up at Dan, before he laid his head back on his chest. “I want to stay here, I don’t think I could move even if I wanted too.” Colton’s voice was still very broken and rough. He took another deep breath as he looked up at Dan again before he leaned forward and pressed a kiss to Dan’s lips, as he moved his hand and gripped the front of Dan’s shirt tightly. Colton’s head was swimming, everything was jumbled up and nothing was making sense. Just like last time, expect last time he was alone. He had no one around him, apart from the nurses that looked after him when he was in the hospital when he recovering, and the doctors that put him in restraints to stop him from hurting himself more.

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Bas chuckled, “You should have told me about that sooner,” he clicked his tongue at the joke and how easy it was for them to go back and forth on their banter. “I know I don’t need to but I can’t make that stop,” he looked at Colton in the eyes, “I don’t wanna stop. No matter what, you and I, I know we’ll always be there for each other,” he said letting his hand move from his friend’s arm to his hand, giving it a squeeze. He wanted to believe Colton was being honest but he had a weird feeling in the pitch of his stomach and he always had trusted his instincts so he was gonna keep a close eye on the other man from now on. “Thanks… I figured you’d understand but still…” he shrugged as they walked into the food tent. “Well yeah but it’s also about if you want to… if you don’t feel like it now or soon, I can just let him know it’s not a good time,” he assured not wanting Colton to feel pressured on meeting Sebastian’s boyfriend. “Well I think in that case you probably have more dirt on me than he does,” he chuckled.

“Well, it’s just to bad you will never know.” Colton said as he laughed softly. The banter between him and Bas, was always a consent thing. They fell into an easy rhythm and they both knew that it didn’t mean anything. They were just two friends, egging other on. Colton sighed as he looked down at Bas’s hand in his own, a small smile as the soft squeeze. “I love you, Bas. You know that.” Colton said softly as he squeezed Sebastian’s hand back gently. “And you know, that if anything was wrong, truly wrong. I would come to you and talk to you. But I’m doing good, finally settled in proper and just finding my feet.” Colton squeezed Bas’s hand one last time before he pulled his hand away and shoved it in his jacket pocket. Colton hadn’t fully settled in, he still felt easy being back on home soil, being back around normal people living a normal life. But if he could fake it enough, and start believing then maybe Sebastian will as well.   Colton stood off to the side, not wanting to get in anyone’s way as they looked the food before he looked at back at his friend. “No, it’s fine. I can meet him.” Colton smiled softly before he laughed. “Aren’t you worried, that I might tell Chris all your dirty secrets.”

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Sebastian laughed and shook his head, “Never been a fan of spanking but it’s interesting to hear that you are,” he teased trying to keep the mood light. He reached to grab Colton’s arm gently to make him stop and turn around to look at him, “I really hope you are. I worry about you because I care a lot about you ok? That won’t ever change Colt,” he assured. “I know you won’t. I just feel like an ass for being away with these news for longer than I should,” he tried to explain. He nodded, “Yeah! That’s actually very spot on… I just didn’t wanna rush things,” he sighed and then arched a brow, “Because you’re my best friend and I’ve talked to him about you… not everything about us but he knows you’re important to me and he wants to meet my friends I guess,” he smiled and shrugged not wanting it to sound like he was pushing too hard. 

“And you will never know if I’m lying or not.” Colton smirked as he looked up at Sebastian. “One thing you are going to miss out with me.” Colton laughed softly, he knew Sebastian was teasing him. It was something they did, tease each other over trivial things.  Colton stopped when Sebastian grabbed his arm and looked up at his friend.  “I know you care, Bas. But you don’t need to, I’m fine. Really.” Colton smiled as he ran his eyes over Sebastian. “I’m doing better, getting use to all of this.” Colton said as gestured to area around him. “Promise, I’m doing good.” Colton said as he shrugged a little as he turned and started walking towards the food tent. “I know you Bas, I know what you are like. I understand why you did it.” Colton said as he walked into the food tent before he looked back at Bas. “I guess, I can meet him. If that’s what he wants. See what dirty secrets I can get out of him.” Colton laughed softly.

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wrldkllr​:🌻

rowan wondered if he heard that often. the way the blush settled in, she bet not. luckily she didn’t tell him he was handsome even if he was. she didn’t want to… embarrass him? her head nodded. “luckily i like to explore.” if she really stopped to think about it, there had been far too many places that she couldn’t count on both hands that she had explored and come to love. the island would surely be no different. “eh, maybe. her boyfriend said she’s here but i’ve yet to find her.” which might say something about her; she’s either exploring to run into her or she knows she’ll see her when the time is right. “at least i know if i need a doctor, i can find one easily.” rowan announced, head shaking yes. “how about ring toss? i’m not a fan of the shooting games.”

Colton cleared his throat quickly, and shook his head. Smile still firmly in place as he nodded. “Yeah, this island is perfect for exploring.” Colton said as he walked Rowan and laughed softly. “I really hope you don’t find me in the hospital, it would be unfortunate.” Colton said as he looked at Rowan, before he shrugged. “But I’ll be happy to help you out, if you ever need it.” Colton was happy to help people out, that was just who he was. He smiled again as he watched Rowan. “We can do the ring toss.” Colton said as he grinned. “But just so you know, I’m a pretty good shot. So the shooting games, will be easy.”

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Bas arched a brow not totally buying it, “You better not being lying to me, James…” he said in a warning tone but didn’t insist not wanting Colton to feel more uncomfortable. He sighed and tried not to smile but it was almost impossible, “I know… I guess you have a point,” he agreed and shook his head, “I know you’re not but you’re my best friend. I should have told you I was seeing someone,” he sighed, “Everything just happened fast and unexpectedly,” he admitted. His face answered before he could, the stupid smile on his face was enough for Colton to know the answer, “He does… He’s… something else,” he added playfully at the double meaning of his comment. “He wants to meet you but I needed to tell you first so yeah…”

Colton looked over at Bas and raised an eyebrow before he grinned. “Well you can’t spank me now, if I was lying. Your boyfriend wouldn’t like that.” Colton laughed as he nudged Sebastian gently. “I promise, I’m okay. I will tell you if I wasn’t.” Colton said with a smile as looked away from Bas. Colton knew that was a lie, he wouldn’t Bas if something was bothering him. He didn’t want to be a burden on Sebastian, especially not now that he was happy. “You told me, that’s main thing. It doesn’t matter when you told, I’m not going to get angry that kept it from me.” Colton shrugged as he glanced back at Sebastian. “You are trying something new, seeing how it works. No point rushing into telling people, encase you find it doesn’t work.” Colton shrugged a little before he frowned slightly. “Why does he want to meet me?”

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islandofmuses​:

Dan should’ve knowned this was mistake, you don’t thouch people when they’re having a panick attack/break down, most of them don’t want to be touched and holding them even as in a comforting way can be trigerring, however this wasn’t a stranger, a patient it was Colton, his friend, someone he was close with, so naturally the vampire’s first move was to hold him and try to get him to stop crying. “Yes, yes, dear it’s me!” Dan said as he felt Colton holding on to his shirt, “It’s Daniel, I’m here, I got you, my dear,” he said, taking his hand to man’s head and letting it rest there, “Colton, listen to me my dear, I’ts Dan, your roomate, your friend, you are home and you are safe, focus on my voice, you you are safe. Can you hear me?”

“I need you to try and breath, can you do that for me? listen to me,” he gently rubbed his back, “Slow breaths, in and out, focus on my voice, you can do it.”

Colton gripped Dan’s shirt tighter. The blood, the pain from the two cuts and the pain in his stump, wasn’t registering to Colton. His mind was racing, everything was going a mile a minute. His sobs died down, slightly but the tears were still falling. Colton nodded his head a little, as Dan’s voice broke through again. “Yes.” Colton said softly, his voice was laced with pain and sounded very broken.  Colton didn’t sound like himself, he sounded weak, and small. Colton shifted a little as he rested his forehead on Dan’s chest as he tried to calm his breathing, tried to follow what Dan was telling him. 

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“It’s a good thing,” he agreed with a smile. Bas frowned a little, “I know but that doesn’t mean you have to be uncomfortable or in pain just to stop relaying on your crutch,” he said seriously. He wasn’t expecting that. Not that Colton had seen him and not that he was gonna be so direct about it, “Oh…” he chuckled nervously and rubbed the back of his neck, “no… that was my way to uh… you saw that,” he sighed, “I probably should’ve told you about him sooner. I’m sorry,” he felt terrible for his friend to have found out like that.

Colton shrugged a little as he listened to Bas. “I know, but really I’m fine. No pain at all.” Colton smiled as he looked up at Bas he walked with him. Colton laughed softly as he watched Bas, becoming nervous. “Yeah, I saw that. You weren’t as subtle as you thought, espically when you do it in an open area.” Colton said with another laugh. HE shook his head as he looked back at Bas. “You don’t owe me anything, It’s not like I’m some ex you have to tell.” Colton said as he shoved his hands into her pockets. “Does he make you happy?”

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wrldkllr​:

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maybe she was wrong. she could’ve been reading the situation wrong. “either way it was cute.” rowan told him and although she wondered if she was wrong, he was cute either way. adorable even. “it’s not what i expected but i like it. turns out my sister is here so it’s even better.” rowan just had to find her but she also knew she was bound to find her eventually. it always worked out in the end. “there’s a hospital? well no offense but i hope i never see you there.” amusement laced in her words, she laughed. he was a doctor and although she would’ve pegged him as a teacher or someone who worked with animals, she seemed to think him as a doctor suited him. 

Colton rubbed the back of his neck, blush a little when Rowan called him cute. “Well thank you.” Colton said as he smiled looking over at Rowan, before he looked down at his cake. “It’s a pretty nice island, once you get use too it. A lot of places to explore.” Colton took a bite before he nodded slightly. “Well that’s good, you get to see her.” Colton smiled as he looked back at the girl before he laughed softly. “Yes, we have a hospital. We aren’t that backwards. Colton said with a shake his head. “Do you want to go play some games? Win some cheap toys?”

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islandofmuses​:

Its was true that the half vampire was a little over woked, for the most part Daniel didn’t mind, he did loved his job and he had no problem filling in for Jessica when She needed it. Now, as he returned home, he was moslty looking for a quiet night some sleep, maybe Colton would like to watch something he didn’t mind.

As soon be for near the apartament’s door ,though he could hear it, the vampire hearing was strong, picked up on things crashing, breaking? Worried for his roomate, he rushed as fast as he could, opening the door and usings his vampire speed to rush over the other man.

Daniel paused, looking at he mess on the floor, “ If you wanted to redecorate, my dear, you could’ve told me,” he half joked, moving closer, the half vampire sat Next to his friend, without a word, pulling the human to him, clearny something had happened, the man was hurt, bleeding and crying, Dan knew, he could tell something was up with Colton, he just needed to other man to open up, he wanted to give Colton the time to feel confortable enough to do so, now Daniel wondered if he should had pushed a little more, tried a little more to get him to speake, because, well, he seemed to be having a melt down.

“Colton, dear, what’s going on?” Dan asked in a soft voice as he held the other man, “Its okay, you let thet out Darling, Im here.”

“It’s okay, you’re okay, Darling, I got you. I’m here. I got you.”

Colton didn’t register that the door had opened, or the that someone was in entering the apartment.  But as soon as Colton felt someone next to him, and arms around him. Colton panics. “No, stop. Stop.” Colton all but yelled as he tried to pull away, but the arms around him, were holding firm. Colton struggled a bit more, before the soothing voice of Dan finally penetrated his ears.  Colton slumped forward, leaning his head on Dan’s chest. “Dan?” Colton said softly as he gripped Dan’s shirt tightly.  He closed his eyes and tried to control his breathing, tried to keep his thoughts under control, but it was hard. There were too many things swirling around in Colton’s brain. It was getting bad again. 

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Bas grinned, “That was a great idea. You do need to come out more,” he assured reaching to place a hand on his friend’s shoulder, “Come on, let’s seat for a bit,” he said noticing the absence of the crutch. Colt’s stubbornness was almost as bad as his own so he didn’t mention it but he imagined siting down for a bit would be good for his friend’s comfort. “Oh I’m honored!” he smiled, “We can go grab a bite or something if you want,” he suggested trying to buy sometime before talking to Colton about Chris.

“I’m trying.” Colton said with a smile as he leaned into Sebastian’s touch, which at this point was always a comfort to Colton. Colton shook his head when Sebastian suggested they have a seat. “I’m really, I’m trying to not to rely on my crutch to much.” Colton said as he smiled again before he raised an eyebrow, letting out a small laugh. “Is this your way of avoiding talking about that guy you were kissing?”

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Colton has been feeling off for a few days. He didn’t know what it was it, but he felt a heaviness settling into him. He hadn’t been sleeping well, Colton tried to hide that fact from his roommate, though it seemed Dan could always tell when Colton was up. 

After getting home from work, and taking off his prosthetic leg. The pain was getting too him, more than normal. He hadn’t even been on his leg as long as he normally would. But today, Colton just couldn’t take it. He pushed a hand through his hair as he glanced around the flat and noticed the plates and cups, were sitting out and waiting to be put away. Colton headed over to the kitchen area, determined to put them. He liked order, and structure. Something that was drilled into him from his time in the army. 

He hadn’t gotten around to moving the plates to a lower cupboard. Colton didn’t want to bother Sebastian or Dan, with something he deemed a stupid request and as much as he struggled he wasn’t one to ask to help, with a seemingly easy day to day task. Colton reached up to try and get the plate in the cupboard, but without his leg, he just didn’t have the height on him, and the plate slipped out of his fingers. Shattering as it the floor. “Fuck.” Colton breathed out as he looked down at the broken plate, it took a moment to really focus on what he was seeing. God, why are you so useless Colton thought as he adjusted himself a little, not that it made any difference. 

Colton grabbed a plate and threw it, watching it hit the ground. The pieces landing in different directions. Colton ignored the hot tears that landed on his face as he threw another plate. He didn’t want to be here, he wasn’t meant to be here. Colton let out a heavily breath as picked up another plate and looked it over. “If those stupid doctors, just left me. Everything would be fine.” Colton muttered as he tossed the plate. Watching it landed near the others he had thrown, more pieces shattered. Colton went to grab one more, when he felt himself losing his balance.  He didn’t have time to catch himself, as he started to fall. Colton grunted as he hit the floor, he face landing on some of the debris, not that he felt it. Colton pushed himself up, causing shards of the plate to cut into his hand. Colton leaned his head back against the cabinet as he felt himself crying. Sobs were being ripped out of him, as he sat there. Unable to do anything, unable to pull himself up. Because when it came down to it, Colton knew how useless he really was. 

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wrldkllr​:

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she watched him with amusement. there had been a few people over the few years she had been traveling but the man who brought her cotton candy seemed to be genuinely sweet. that was rare. she took the cotton candy with a thank you and a smile. “that was pretty smooth, colton. i wouldn’t mind a next time.” while it seemed only fair to buy him a treat, she liked his energy. he seemed like someone she wanted to be around. “actually you’re right. i’ve only been here a few days and it’s been a whirlwind so far. how long have you been here?”

Colton blushed a little as he broke some of his cake off. He licked his lips a little before he took a bite of the food. “Oh uh thank you. I wasn’t trying to be.” Colton said softly as he looked at his cake before he looked back to Rowan. “How are you enjoying this island?” Colton asked with a smile as he took another bite of the cake, before he nodded. “I’ve been here for a few months. I work in the ER over at the hospital.”

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wrldkllr​:

🌻

she found the more she stood in front and took life by the reins, there were less butterflies and nervous fluttering in her stomach. rowan knew who to thank for that. she had a feeling she’d regret it if she hadn’t stopped to talk to the other. “it’s a pleasure to meet you, colton!” rowan grinned with a nod before thinking about it. “are you sure? because i could go for cotton candy.” in fact she could smell it in the air around them, mixed with popcorn and butter. “next treat is mine to get.”

Colton nodded his head as he looked at the vendor and asked for cotton candy for Rowan, and got himself a funnel cake. He handed some money over before he looked back to the girl. “So we get a next time then?” Colton said with a grin, as he grabbed the cotton candy and handed it to Rowan. “How long have you been on the island? I feel like you are new here.” Colton grabbed his own food before he stepped away from the vendor. “I could be wrong, so please correct me.”

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swccthearts​:

laney was happy. there wasn’t anything she loved more than the carnival and she didn’t think the island would have something so fun. she didn’t hate it here but it just didn’t seem like the type of place to have these kinds of things. “well, i am happy.” it was just the carnival that had changed her mood but it was a large contributor. “i’m glad you came. you wanna do something together?”

Colton turned his head and pressed a kiss to his sister’s temple. “I’m glad you are happy.” Colton said with a smile as he squeezed his sister’s arm gently. “I’m enjoying it, a little bit.” Colton said as he looked over at the food booth before he nodded his head. “Yeah, I would love to spend sometime with you. It’s been to long.”

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shwrldkllr​:

🌻

she wasn’t here for this… carnival thing… and when she called out to the guy, she was originally going to ask him questions but she was hit by waves of friendliness she couldn’t seem to shake. it brought a smile to her lips. “i suppose i am. i’m rowan… i’m new and i don’t quite know anyone here yet—” @an-apple-a-day​

Colton smiled as he looked over at Rowan. “Well now you know someone.”  Colton said with a nod of his head. “Colton, please to meet you.” Colton looked over the food again before he turned to looked back at Rowan. “Would you like something? My treat.”