my rambles, enjoy

ed or eddie || they/them

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i need to revisit this masochist thing i am so sore from rugby and this is evil

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crying in the shower bc it’s the only place no one will hear me. love college

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alright first official quiz of college. i got this. it’s a map quiz. map quizzes are literally why i failed a class my freshman year of high school. i cannot memorize maps. but i have memorized this map. i got this. locking the FUCK in. heck yeah.

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my tune changed very fast who do i feel like im forgetting everything im freaking the fuck out oh god.

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holy mother fucking shit i got 100%

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alright first official quiz of college. i got this. it’s a map quiz. map quizzes are literally why i failed a class my freshman year of high school. i cannot memorize maps. but i have memorized this map. i got this. locking the FUCK in. heck yeah.

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my tune changed very fast who do i feel like im forgetting everything im freaking the fuck out oh god.

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alright first official quiz of college. i got this. it’s a map quiz. map quizzes are literally why i failed a class my freshman year of high school. i cannot memorize maps. but i have memorized this map. i got this. locking the FUCK in. heck yeah.

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how do i make new friends? what if nobody wants to be my friend? what if i can’t do it?

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this is all so scary and overwhelming and i don’t know how im going to be able to just start all over in a new place with new friends and without my mom. i can’t wait to go but i don’t want to at all

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trying so hard to communicate w roommates who are clearly very introverted like guys i just wanna make sure you aren’t axe murderers before we all start living together PLEASE text me back :(

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i miss you so much and i havent left yet

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i feel like i’m grasping at smoke

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gang what do you do when you got into a not argument-argument with your girlfriend and now haven’t talked in 5+ hours and you genuinely don’t know what to do bc you wanna give her space but you also wanna make sure she’s ok?

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it’s my last proper day of high school. next week is senior week and we rlly don’t do anything. this is so weird to me. like. what do you mean this is the end?

anyway we’re also doing on our grad nite trip today so it’s not like i’m gonna have any time to be emotional about this….right?

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me: my mental health is doing good!

also me: *has been listening to ‘i think i’m okay’ by machine gun kelley very frequently for like 2 days*

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so. i have pots. and while yes, i carry around electrolytes and all the stuff i need, i was at an event the other day where i was getting popcorn. and it was individual packets of salt, and i like salt (plus it helps with the pots). so i grabbed a handful (was also grabbing for my gf and bsf)

then i remembered something. i don’t have any bills in my wallet atm.

there are now 12 individually wrapped salt packets in my wallet :)

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a visual

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so. i have pots. and while yes, i carry around electrolytes and all the stuff i need, i was at an event the other day where i was getting popcorn. and it was individual packets of salt, and i like salt (plus it helps with the pots). so i grabbed a handful (was also grabbing for my gf and bsf)

then i remembered something. i don’t have any bills in my wallet atm.

there are now 12 individually wrapped salt packets in my wallet :)

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saw beyoncé’s cowboy carter concert last night and i have my ap african american studies test today (in 13 mins im so fkn tired) anyway, im p sure that the concert counts as review.

i can explain - she used photos and videos and they fit the themes of the unit and i was able to make connections and relate them back to the class and basically review for the test

and honestly i refuse to do late night or early morning cram studying bc it always makes me feel unprepared even if i am super prepared (im very prepared for this test lol) and so if i hadn’t gone i would have just been on my phone all night

so hell yeah thank you beyoncé for the review and the absolutly jaw-dropping phenomenal performance

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yall. i committed to my dream school. holy crap.