Look with your heart

A OC multiverse Rp blog for a Lover to many and friend to all. Phoibe Tides. OC and Canon friendly, mun and muse is 20+, may contain NSFW content: sexual themes, drug abuse, violence ect. mutliverse and multiship { Run by Abbz }

[thanatos-moon]

no act of kindness is small and insignificant!!! if you choose to be kind and do good your choice matters and makes the world a better place. never underestimate a kind heart 

[melamemea]

couples & angst .

“ I know I’m not the best, but… ”

“ Why can’t you just give me a chance? ”

“ I’m nowhere near as good as them, but if you could let me try? ”

“ Why does everyone leave me. ”

“ I feel so… you know? ”

“ Sometimes it feels like my world is falling apart. ”

“ I feel so unlovable. ”

“ What’s it like being loved? ”

“ Are you trying to tell me to believe you? It’s not that easy. ”

“ I don’t think you understand what it feels like, hating yourself. ”

“ At this rate I’ll just ignore everyone and everything. ”

“ But you know what? Fuck you, that’s what. ”

“ It’s not like I care, you know. ”

“ Why do you always do this? ”

“ What gives you the right to do this to me? ”

“ Is this all I’m good for? ”

“ Your lips says one thing, your eyes says something else. ”

“ You dare come here and — demand such a thing? ”

“ You’re not good enough for me, face it. ”

“ I’m not good enough for you, I get that. ”

“ Am I good enough for you? ”

“ What is it about me that makes you hate me so much? ”

“ Why can’t you look at me? ”

“ It’s not that easy, ( name ). ”

“ Well, if you could just be HONEST with me then we wouldn’t be there. ”

“ Honesty? Really? Is that what you want? ”

“ You won’t even look at me. ”

“ I am trying my best here, (name)! ”

[an-evening-doll]

19 and 20

What were your character’s deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now?

Phoibe’s biggest is probably her ideals of goodness, that anyone can be good and kind. This is what gets her in the most trouble with people as she trust people at face value or finds one or two redeeming traits or habits (that could also be faked) and holds onto them so tightly. 

What were the most deeply impressive political or social, national or international, events that they experienced? 

Dishonored: Jessamine’s coronation. She was very young at the time but she remembers it and the events close after. That is was big day and marked the importance of the Isles.  But also hearing of her assassination and rat plague  

[phosphorescence7991]

Based on a conversation our Dishonored rpg characters had with some Whalers

I personally believe that the only beings Overseers like are Wolfhounds

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

He tried hard to keep his bouts of melancholy away from her most days.

They had such limited time together most days, it seemed wasted to spend it in a negative way.

Today, however, he could use some comfort.

"I love the world, but I just don't love the way it makes me feel." He sighs, head resting on her lap.

[an-evening-doll]

religiousshitbaby​:

He does listen, looking up at her as a soft smile forms.

“I’ve told myself that for years, its good to hear you say it too though.”

With his free hand, he reaches up to stroke her cheek. “Though…with the way the world goes it sometimes feels like we’ll run out of time before anything ever happens.”

She leans into his touch, “ well even then. I will help others won’t it? Even if you never get to see your voice be more than a whisper there are others who will hear it roar. You are a passionate man, Carl. You will be heard, passion like yours, a heart like yours.. many thrive to have.” 

[religiousshitbaby]

He smiles, sitting up enough to kiss her.

"Thank you. I'm sorry to put this on you suddenly, but if you're the only one who believes in me then that's enough. "

[an-evening-doll]

She returns the kiss.

"No, I'm glad you shared. We should be able to speak to each other on the things that bother us. You're alway soothing my worried thoughts, I'm glad I can return the favor."

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

He tried hard to keep his bouts of melancholy away from her most days.

They had such limited time together most days, it seemed wasted to spend it in a negative way.

Today, however, he could use some comfort.

"I love the world, but I just don't love the way it makes me feel." He sighs, head resting on her lap.

[an-evening-doll]

religiousshitbaby​:

He does listen, looking up at her as a soft smile forms.

“I’ve told myself that for years, its good to hear you say it too though.”

With his free hand, he reaches up to stroke her cheek. “Though…with the way the world goes it sometimes feels like we’ll run out of time before anything ever happens.”

She leans into his touch, “ well even then. I will help others won’t it? Even if you never get to see your voice be more than a whisper there are others who will hear it roar. You are a passionate man, Carl. You will be heard, passion like yours, a heart like yours.. many thrive to have.” 

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

He tried hard to keep his bouts of melancholy away from her most days.

They had such limited time together most days, it seemed wasted to spend it in a negative way.

Today, however, he could use some comfort.

"I love the world, but I just don't love the way it makes me feel." He sighs, head resting on her lap.

[an-evening-doll]

She was running her fingers through his hair as they relaxed in her room. His words had broke the subtle silence between them.

It wasn't often Carl shared his woes, always felt like he was comforting hers. She leans down to give his forehead a kiss. "What's on your mind"

[religiousshitbaby]

Even that gentle touch was enough to ease his mind.

"Its just my thoughts." He sighs, "I was told once that the changes I make, the small ones I've done against The Abbey, were insignificant. At the time I didn't listen to him. I assumed he was just getting under my skin out of some personal resentment for me. Though, as years pass I fear he might be right about me and what I've done."

[an-evening-doll]

"I think you should continue to ignore that. Even the smallest of changes can completely alter things. You may not see it in an instant or even years but it does leave a mark, like all our choices" she pets his hair again. "You don't get see a flowers beauty till it has had time to grow and bloom. And first you must sew the seeds. You, and what you do is not insignificant Carl." She looks down to him, to be sure he's heard her, taking his hand and removing his glove before placing a kiss to his knuckles.

"You just need time."

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

He tried hard to keep his bouts of melancholy away from her most days.

They had such limited time together most days, it seemed wasted to spend it in a negative way.

Today, however, he could use some comfort.

"I love the world, but I just don't love the way it makes me feel." He sighs, head resting on her lap.

[an-evening-doll]

She was running her fingers through his hair as they relaxed in her room. His words had broke the subtle silence between them.

It wasn't often Carl shared his woes, always felt like he was comforting hers. She leans down to give his forehead a kiss. "What's on your mind"

[religiousshitbaby]

🍷

"Phoibe...!" He slurred happily before stumbling over towards her.

"Void are y..you-" hic "Are you always this beautiful?"

[an-evening-doll]

It was a surprise to see Carl like this, she couldn't Carl a time sting him drink, especially not excessively to the point of intoxication.

She laughs some, at least he seemed like his drunk. " that's sweet of you Carl."

[an-evening-doll]

Some ship art of @religiousshitbaby and Phoibe's Dragon Age verse

[painted-bees]

Character solidifying!

[rockinrpmemes]

1. How does your character think of their father? What do they hate and love about him? What influence - literal or imagined - did the father have? 2. Their mother? How do they think of her? What do they hate? Love? What influence - literal or imagined - did the mother have? 3. Brothers, sisters? Who do they like? Why? What do they despise about their siblings? 4. What type of discipline was your character subjected to at home? Strict? Lenient? 5. Were they overprotected as a child? Sheltered? 6. Did they feel rejection or affection as a child? 7. What was the economic status of their family? 8. How does your character feel about religion? 9. What about political beliefs? 10. Is your character street-smart, book-smart, intelligent, intellectual, slow-witted? 11. How do they see themselves: as smart, as intelligent, uneducated? 12. How does their education and intelligence – or lack thereof - reflect in their speech pattern, vocabulary, and pronunciations? 13. Did they like school? Teachers? Schoolmates? 14. Were they involved at school? Sports? Clubs? Debate? Were they unconnected? 15. Did they graduate? High-School? College? Do they have a PHD? A GED? 16. What does your character do for a living? How do they see their profession? What do they like about it? Dislike? 17. Did they travel? Where? Why? When? 18. What did they find abroad, and what did they remember? 19. What were your character’s deepest disillusions? In life? What are they now? 20. What were the most deeply impressive political or social, national or international, events that they experienced? 21. What are your character’s manners like? What is their type of hero? Whom do they hate? 22. Who are their friends? Lovers? ‘Type’ or ‘ideal’ partner? 23. What do they want from a partner? What do they think and feel of sex? 24. What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually? 25. What are their hobbies and interests? 26. What does your character’s home look like? Personal taste? Clothing? Hair? Appearance? 27. How do they relate to their appearance? How do they wear their clothing? Style? Quality? 28. Who is your character’s mate? How do they relate to him or her? How did they make their choice? 29. What is your character’s weaknesses? Hubris? Pride? Controlling? 30. Are they holding on to something in the past? Can he or she forgive? 31. Does your character have children? How do they feel about their parental role? About the children? How do the children relate? 32. How does your character react to stress situations? Defensively? Aggressively? Evasively? 33. Do they drink? Take drugs? What about their health?  34. Does your character feel self-righteous? Revengeful? Contemptuous? 35. Do they always rationalize errors? How do they accept disasters and failures? 36. Do they like to suffer? Like to see other people suffering? 37. How is your character’s imagination? Daydreaming a lot? Worried most of the time? Living in memories? 38. Are they basically negative when facing new things? Suspicious? Hostile? Scared? Enthusiastic? 39. What do they like to ridicule? What do they find stupid? 40. How is their sense of humor? Do they have one? 41. Is your character aware of who they are? Strengths? Weaknesses? Idiosyncrasies? Capable of self-irony? 42. What does your character want most? What do they need really badly, compulsively? What are they willing to do, to sacrifice, to obtain? 43. Does your character have any secrets? If so, are they holding them back? 44. How badly do they want to obtain their life objectives? How do they pursue them? 45. Is your character pragmatic? Think first? Responsible? All action? A visionary? Passionate? Quixotic? 46. Is your character tall? Short? What about size? Weight? Posture? How do they feel about their physical body? 47. Do they want to project an image of a younger, older, more important person? Does they want to be visible or invisible? 48. How are your character’s gestures? Vigorous? Weak? Controlled? Compulsive? Energetic? Sluggish? 49. What about voice? Pitch? Strength? Tempo and rhythm of speech? Pronunciation? Accent? 50. What are the prevailing facial expressions? Sour? Cheerful? Dominating?

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

"I know." He kisses her cheek as he climbs in beside her.

"I'm glad I have you to remind me "

[an-evening-doll]

She smiles, cuddling up close to him. Giving his cheek a kiss.

"Well, I'll just have to see you more often to keep reminding you"

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

"I know." He rubs his thumb over her hand before bringing it up to kiss.

"We can be more careful. We can do whatever you need to feel safe."

[an-evening-doll]

She smiles at the gesture and kind words. Ever patient, ever caring. She hardly felt worthy.

"Thank you Carl. I just worry meeting at the Cat so often may get us caught..or seen..but I don't want to stop seeing you either."

[religiousshitbaby]

"Well, The Abbey is right out."

But Claverling Boulevard had plenty of places two people could sneak around to.

"If I'm not in uniform I might be able to approach Bottle Street, bribe them to give us space. "

[an-evening-doll]

"I know a few from that gang. I'm sure I can pull a few favors" she adds, knowing a few girls who owed her a shift or a favor from their own affair.

[religiousshitbaby]

"Right...just be careful with them." He said, forgetting he was the one who first suggested that.

"But we'll figure this out." He leans forward, forehead resting against her. "You're worth it."

[an-evening-doll]

She nods, "of course, of course. The Cat already does deals with them for elixir." She explained moving her hands around his shoulders, smiling at his words. Certainly blushing from them. "You're far to good for me.."

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

"I know." He rubs his thumb over her hand before bringing it up to kiss.

"We can be more careful. We can do whatever you need to feel safe."

[an-evening-doll]

She smiles at the gesture and kind words. Ever patient, ever caring. She hardly felt worthy.

"Thank you Carl. I just worry meeting at the Cat so often may get us caught..or seen..but I don't want to stop seeing you either."

[religiousshitbaby]

"Well, The Abbey is right out."

But Claverling Boulevard had plenty of places two people could sneak around to.

"If I'm not in uniform I might be able to approach Bottle Street, bribe them to give us space. "

[an-evening-doll]

"I know a few from that gang. I'm sure I can pull a few favors" she adds, knowing a few girls who owed her a shift or a favor from their own affair.

[an-evening-doll]

♥

"She falls asleep with a book in hand now. The words in it remain a mystery, but the scent of the pages bring comfort, reminding her of him... she waits for a day where it will no longer be a book. "

[bongwatershots]

Not to sound like a common whore but can someone hold my hand and rub it with their thumb comfortingly

[religiousshitbaby]

@an-evening-doll

"I know." He rubs his thumb over her hand before bringing it up to kiss.

"We can be more careful. We can do whatever you need to feel safe."

[an-evening-doll]

She smiles at the gesture and kind words. Ever patient, ever caring. She hardly felt worthy.

"Thank you Carl. I just worry meeting at the Cat so often may get us caught..or seen..but I don't want to stop seeing you either."