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Inutile è l'attesa Principessa Salvati da sola 🌸Pro-recovery ✨Fatphobic bitch out of here✨ ✨StaySafe✨ G.W. 40 |M.W.|

[starvingpan]

this account is not to trigger anyone, romanticize eating disorders, or hurt anyone. this account is for:

-me to vent

-me to not feel alone

-to be there for others struggling

-to cope

-to take my mind off things

-to post things that matter to me

-to be happier

-to find new friends

SO IF YOU:

-dont have an eating disorder

-come on these pages and tags to trigger yourself

-think this is only about being skinny

-are a young person trying to lose weight

-think this is healthy

-are a predator

-are mean

-are here to report

-are here to “give yourself” an ed

PLEASE LEAVE, I ACTUALLY ENJOY RUNNING A ACCOUNT AND I DONT WANT TO BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYONE

[holy-carcass]

"My body is a temple."

Good for you! My body is a prison and I'm going to destroy it to break out of it.

[3m4ci4t3d-deactivated20240224]

The only thing I have left to lose is weight

[corpseorgan69]

I need some advice I’ve been maintaining my weight even though I’ve been in a low restriction (500 cals or less) working out. I have no idea what im doing wrong.

[yor-iyoi]

My boyfriend broke up with me (not a sad thing dw)

Is it weird that I'm relieved I've got one less person to make excuses to?

[geopsych]

First time I’ve grown a dahlia and its first bud is starting to open. Can’t wait to see the whole thing.

[were-starving-for-control]

I really hate myself. I ruin everything for myself and for everyone else. I wanna be hungry again. Even though I just ate after two days with no food. I wanna see if I can make it another two days, maybe even three. I have to have dinner tomorrow but I can definitely get something really small or only have a few bites.

[were-starving-for-control]

I hope you’re all doing as well as you can. I’m stuck in this and I don’t want it for you guys. I’m sure you’re all so beautiful and worthy as it is. Please try not to do as I say. I know how hard it is. Getting better will happen when you and I are ready for it. Just know that I don’t want this for you.

[were-starving-for-control]

It’s amazing how easy it was to fall back into these behaviors. I knew I was only recovered in the sense that I was eating well enough most of the time but not as it relates to my mind and thoughts. But wow.

[were-starving-for-control]

I ate one bowl of Thai coconut soup with tofu and noodles that I made for dinner today. And one piece of candy. This was my first time eating in two days. I’m gonna try to go two days again.

[were-starving-for-control]

People think Ana is about food.

But they don’t understand that it’s so much more than that. Yes, it’s about hating your body and yourself and wanting to feel OK with how you look for once in your life.

But it’s also about control. About trying to dull the pain through self destructive behavior. It’s about wanting to prove you can control something in your life when everything else is out of control: no matter what, at least you can control what you eat and how small you. At least you can prove that you have control over your behavior.

It’s about wanting to be so small you disappear. So small that no one can hurt you anymore.

Ana is about so much more than food.

[were-starving-for-control]

I have to have a bit of a smoothie tomorrow and something for dinner. I can make sure to only eat a bit and get something small. Good for my wallet too. I just need to make sure I stay in control. I wanna go another two days eating mostly nothing, even if I can’t not eat anything for those two days like I just did.

[th1nspocals-deactivated20221218]

anyone else just starve to feel like they have their shit together

[notprobutimfat]

My girlfriend is skinnier than me...

Part of the reason i relapsed is because i'm in a relationship with a girl (for the first time) and she's skinnier than i am. She's the type of person who "forgets to eat" or "doesn't eat when she gets depressed" and everytime she hugs me i can feel her ribs so easily and her shoulders, her spine. And i'm always scared that she can't feel mine. It was all fine because i thought i was recovered, but i made the mistake of opening up to her about my eating disorder...

I thought she would understand, i thought she would finally be the one person who would see me and be there for me and actually take my ed seriously, because i opened up to her about a loooot of shit and she was there for me 100% and she keeps it in mind at all times, but for this, she doesn't. At all. She basically forgot about it.

And if that isn't the most triggering thing i've ever felt. Her complete disinterest. It's because i'm not skinny, and she is. I'm the fat one so of course she's not worried about me.

I wanna starve until i'm put in a fucking hospital bed and die because they couldn't save me. Starving is the only way i feel good about myself, i feel productive i don't feel like a failure, a lazy piece of shit, a disappointment.

[dreamyandotherworldly]

hello ed tumblr, does anybody have any advice for convincing your family that you eat ? my sister is becoming very suspicious……………..

[skin4ndb0n3s]

I just want to wear cute clothes without looking like an ugly fat pig...

[were-starving-for-control]

I am not enjoying my morning coffee and it’s making me irrationally angry