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Day 1 ig:
HW: 132
CW: 130 (again, jfc)
LW: 111
relapse number: like 4 or 5 Iāve lost count
GW1: 125
GW2: 120
GW3: 115
UGW: 80
Day 2: how tall are you do you like your height?
I am 5ā1ā and I hate my height. I wish I wasnāt so short but thatās kinda my fault for stunting my growth.
Day 1 ig:
HW: 132
CW: 130 (again, jfc)
LW: 111
relapse number: like 4 or 5 Iāve lost count
GW1: 125
GW2: 120
GW3: 115
UGW: 80
My ED isn't even sad or depressing anymore,,, its deadass just funny now. Like i have a crippling fear of peanut butter,,, thats fucking hilarious.
Iām back 0_0 again. My friend said I looked like a Pixar mom (which is actually a really funny joke) but my stupid brain canāt help but think it means my hips and legs are fat (these just so happen to be the parts of my body I am most insecure about) so hi again. I canāt seem to get rid of you.
waking up to stars on the ceiling and bruises on pale skin and battered feet on & off the scale and almonds in ziploc baggies and bite marks on fingers and hair down the drain and measuring crunches by the spots left on the spine and enough water to drown organs and eating an apple with a knife and fork and battered feet on & off the scale and desperate hands clutching ribs and standing up & the world goes dark and carrying an emergency rice cake in your purse for weak spells and enough green tea to drown organs and how many calories are in toothpaste and whatever nail polish color covers yellow and battered feet on & off the scale and is today the day my heart gives out and how many calories do you burn when you sneeze and pillows squeezed between thighs and waking up in a new body everyday and fingers clasped around wrists and notebooks filled with numbers and purple crescents below the eyes and accidentally knocking your elbow on your hip bone and being afraid of your own reflection and iām not hungry or i already ate or iāll eat later or i donāt feel well and oxygen that tastes like splenda and battered feet on & off the scale
Iām done! *muffled speaking*
It really do be like that š«
i wish i had money for pretty clothing and i wish i was skinny and my hair looked nice
*starts to get hungry during a fast*
*watches To The Bone for the 1,524th time*
Donāt like me
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the only good thing about abandoning my account and coming back months later is that there are so many more memes and content lol hiiii
My fbi agent watching me download tumblr again after another failed recovery
HELLO MFS IM BACK
I want to recover
I want to recover
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*pfft* look at this bitch
one of the worst things? being a people pleaser with an ED.
mom bought me food? well I have to eat it, I don't want to hurt her feelings.
not wanting to make friends feel weird by not eating when everyone else is.
not wanting people to be worried/suspicious. the attention doesn't deserve to be on me.
not wanting to react poorly when someone gives me something (like an ice coffee with creamer) that I used to love, but I just can't enjoy anymore.
one of my biggest issues: not wanting people to be offended or mad at me for making something else for myself instead of eating what they made.
I don't want my issues with food to affect other people, but they really affect me.
Im back bc my dad pissed me off so I left mid breakfast and decided to finally relapse
*looks in the mirror*
what the fuck is that
