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@andengdeng
Is surviving worth it?
All my life, thatās what Iāve been doing. Just surviving. Trying to make it from end to end. Iām tired of it. Iām tired of sitting still. Iām tired of not having any opportunity to better myself.
Why is everything so hard to reach? Is there even a thing reserved for me in this life? A thing thatās worth all this suffering?
8/3/25
Here again with this familiar feeling. My heart aches again for a reason I donāt even understand. Itās so foreign, yet Iāve been here so many times.
Different person, same gut-wrenching day. Now Iām convinced that I really am the problem.
I fucking hate myself. I really do. Why am I like this? I never change. I donāt deserve anyone. Just leave me please. I am meant to course through life alone.
I want it. Lord, please.
Tonight I watched HIMYM because I'm happy. Weird, but what relief.
Deniel, I love you so much. Thank you. Nakapagpahinga na 'yung puso ko.
šš»āāļø again
Iām sad and clueless again
2:15 AM
Thu Apr 18 2024
Hi. Where do I start?
Itās been a while. Actually, hindi ko rin alam bakit ko āto ginagawa. Pero ewan. Bigla ko lang naisip mag Tumblr ngayong gabi, tapos nakita ko āyung old posts ko. Siguro gusto lang kitang i-update sa kung ano man āyung nangyayari sakin ngayon.
Parang wala. Right now, my life seems dull. Lumilipas āyung mga araw na wala akong halos nakakausap. Ito lang. Kaya rin siguro nagsusulat ako ngayon sa sarili ko. Ganun na ata ako ka lonely. Lonely? Haha. Di ko alam. Alone and quite lonely. Siguro ganun.
Nagsusulat pala ako sa Microsoft Word ngayon sa bago kong laptop. Ang pangalan pala niya ay Stargaze Macmac Garcia. Stargaze kasi āyun āyung huling bulaklak na natanggap ko. Macmac kasi wala, Macbook siya, eh. Garcia kasi syempre love ko siya. Ang ganda niya and ang saya niya makasama. Marami na rin kaming napanood together simula nung makuha ko siya last December. Ang saya nung December at nung -ber months last year. Sana laging ganun. Thank you sobra sa parents ko kasi hanggang ngayon inaalagaan nila kami.
Ano ba ang gusto kong i-update? Ayun. āYung state of mind ko ngayon ay hindi pa rin nagbabago. I think Iām still depressed. I think it never went away naman. Itās just that right now, it feels heavier. Iām scared that it will feel even heavier as I go along because I never address it.
Sa relationship ko sa food at sa katawan ko, ganun ulit. Same way I felt back when I was a kid. I still have body dysmorphia and because of that, Iāve been depriving myself of food. Itās good, though, ācause Iām not yet getting the feeling that I want to throw up everything that I eat. Ganun kasi ako nung high school. Hay, kung may resources lang sana ako, nag gym na talaga ako. Kaso wala eh. Tiis muna.
Sa pera naman, ayun ganun pa rin. Hindi pa rin ako financially stable. Wala pa rin akong sariling pera. Ang lungkot kasi 26 na ako, pero andito pa rin ako sa same situation na ever since, gusto ko lang naman makalaya. Kailan kaya giginhawa āyung buhay namin? Sana tinadhana na maging okay kami.
Sa love, ganun pa rin. Ilang taon na akong malungkot. Feel ko nakarma ako pero feel ko rin Iām being too hard on myself for thinking like that. I know I did not deserve it. I also know that I donāt deserve the treatment that Iāve been constantly getting for years. I am tired already. I canāt even explain. Nandun na ako sa point na dahil sobra na āyung sakit na na-endure ko these past few years, hindi na ako interesado. But hindi naman ako makawala. Years from now kaya, ano na? Nakakatakot isipin at imagine-in lahat. Wala akong scenario na nakikita. Siguro ayaw ko ring isipin. Mas lalong ayaw kong gawin. Sobrang sakit kasi, parang hindi ko pa kayang pagdaanan ulit āyun. Pero kung hindi man kami talaga, sana kayanin ko. Ang importante lang naman ay āyung maging okay siya. Pero shet, pag nagkataon, wasak na wasak talaga ang puso ni nasty mac hahaha. Di ko kilala kung sino āyun. Tama ba spelling? Lol.
Inantok din.
Goodnight. Usap tayo ulit sa susunod.
Please :(
malungkot ka na naman. :(
my comfort zone
Not even a week has passed and I can already feel the weight this year's gonna put on me. :/ until when am I going to feel this dragging rock on my chest? Ugh. I just want to be happy.
goodnight.
ang liwanag ng kidlat.
i think i need to watch a disney movie.
tangled, maybe?
i just want to see if there is light at the end of the tunnel.
i want to cry
sad again
hi diary.
itās been hard lately. i canāt even put myself to celebrate the smallest of wins because i feel like i donāt deserve to be happy.
idk.
great. now iāve accidentally deleted the things i wrote. š
i just feel so inadequate. i donāt know if it is still possible to make it.
hay.