( a n d r o m e d a )

her heart was soft, hidden beneath diamond bones && steal skin. she was kind when others weren't. she was a paragon, because it was all she knew how to be andromeda lux | 24 | shadowhunter

[theonlypair]

[andrcmedalux]

hclfblccd :

      he can’t imagine the pressure she is under - especially given how things have been lately. the clave will be demanding results, explanations. “nothing’s fair.” he shrugs, following her footsteps. it’s too late in the day to charge him with anything, so he can only expect that he’ll be put in the holding cells. unless she’s taking him to idris. “i have to pay for what I’ve done.”

        “that might be true, but it doesn’t mean i have to like it.” she sighs, shaking her head. she knew what the clave wanted, and knew what she was going to do would inevitably piss them off, but until she found him guilty and sentenced him, his fate was in her hands. “and you will - after we figure out exactly what that is. for now you’ll want to change, you’re a bit over dressed for a say in the cells.”

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cxssiopeiic:

cassi flinches without thinking, her own eyes narrowing as she goes on the defensive. the rogue shadowhunter snatches the dress back out of the wardrobe fully for spite, grip so tight on the hanger that her knuckles burn white. she knows that she deserves the anger, truthfully she deserves all the anger and resentment that andi wants to give, but it still hurts and cassi is itching to blame someone- anyone but herself. 

“ yeah ? and who’s the fucking reason i disappeared andromeda ? i’m curious , did our darling parents even realise i was gone ? how long did it take for all you to notice i wasn’t there whilst you were out celebrating our birthday ? how long was it before our parents forgot about me ? how long before they started showing their relief that the failure was finally gone ? how long before all of you agreed ? “

        any thought andi’d had of sleeping any time soon have long since flown out the window, the inquisitor ready to turn right around and find some way to release the tension that kept twisting tighter and tighter inside her. she was hurt, and her sister’s barrage of questions did nothing to ease the pain and anger rolling through her. by the time she spoke, however, any evidence that she had any sort of human emotions was gone - she was empty, her tone flat.             “right - so our parents being complete trash makes it okay that you just left cer and i without so much as a word. their wrongdoings means it’s fine that you let us think you were dead for the last decade. i waited for you, cassi. i looked for you. i spent hour after hour in that damned forest looking for your bones because i thought ‘surely they’re right, she died out there because there’s no way she’d just leave’. there wasn’t a single day that went by that i didn’t think about you, that i didn’t hate myself because if i’d just waited, if i’d stayed with you until you were ready, you would’ve been alive and sitting at that table with cer and i, celebrating our birthday. all of us, together. but i didn’t, and you died, and suddenly there wasn’t a birthday anymore - just a reminder that i hadn’t protected you from whatever happened.”

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cxssiopeiic:

the rogue shadowhunter pouts at her older sister. she’d been hoping for more surprise, maybe a scream of some disbelief. disappointed, cassi turns, rifling back through andi’s wardrobe. shdowhunter gear. shadowhunter hear. shadowhunter gear. shadowhunter gear. aha! the brunette pulls out a dress, deep red and holds it against herself, turning to look in andi’s mirror.

“ well fuck that . i think i should get a party , after all , our family is anything but typical . i was hoping for a bit more shock . a few tears maybe . didn’t you miss me ? “

            “how could you even ask me that?”         her voice was low and almost dangerous, soft in a way that was rare for her - a sign that she was on the verge of breaking. she’d spent years morning the girl in front of her, spent all of her free time since becoming the inquisitor combing through the woods for any sign of her body. she hadn’t let herself hold onto the hope that her sister could still be alive, because she wouldn’t just leave them like that, without a single goodbye, right? and yet here she was, proving yet again that even family couldn’t be trusted.         she can feel the sting of tears pricking at her eyes and she quickly shuts down, bright blue eyes cold as ice as she steps forward to take the dress from her sister’s hands and shove it back into her wardrobe.              “you’re the one that disappeared, cassiopeia. you want a party, throw it your damn self.”

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hclfblccd:

     “andi-” he shakes his head quickly, hand reaching out to squeeze her arm reassuringly. “it’s not your fault. it’s mine.” she is doing what she has to, following her orders. no one can blame her for that. “you did what you could.”

        “i...thank you.” she’s not used to this - she’s more accustomed to being met with hostility and harsh words than understanding and kindness, at least when it comes to this sort of thing. “still, i’m not entirely convinced that the blame is fully yours. and even if it is - it isn’t fair to drag you from your family on a day like this.”

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hclfblccd:

      a grateful nod is the only response he offers to her gesture - the last thing his sister needs is to see him dragged out in chains. “i don’t want to ruin this for her.” luca murmurs, meeting andi’s eyes. “not after everything I’ve done.”

        “today should be one of her most beautiful memories,” she hates it. hates that she has to take him from his sister’s wedding. “i’d wanted to let you stay for the full evening, i'm sorry that i couldn’t.” she’d argued with the clave for hours, for all the good that had done.

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( n a t e )

     “ oh —- you’re joking, ” nate said with a smile, shoulders relaxing. he was worried for a moment that she had actually called him a demon ( which he had been called before ever since his resurrection ) but now it was gone and he was smiling once again. taking the offered hand, nate gave her a nod of his head. “ i’ve been kind of a runner in my days. ” he added before his smile grew wider. “ andi, it’s lovely meeting you. i’m nate. ”

        “well nate, i can honestly say i don’t think i’ll be challenging you to any foot races any time soon. or ever. probably not ever, honestly.” she returned his smile, shaking her head and gesturing back towards the path. “that said, if you’d like a bit of company while walking at a nice, semi-leisurely pace? i can offer that. i’m pretty sure i’d fall over dead if i tried running again today.”

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( n a t e )

     when he realized that the person was making effort to catch him a smile appeared on his face and he pushed harder; he had always been good at running, fastest of their time. but as soon as the sounds of the other pair of footsteps ended, nate grew concerned and turned around, seeing the woman crouched next to a tree. that made the resurrected shadowhunter run back, bending a bit to be able to look at her, slight concern crossing his features. “ ma’am ? are you okay ? ” he asked, panting himself. “ what demon ? ”

        “you, you’re a demon,” she’s grinning slightly when she says it, the only clear sign she’s joking. “its the only thing that makes sense - no one else would be able to run like that.” a moment more and she’s regulated her breathing, finally straightening herself up and offering a hand. “i’ve seen you around, but i don’t think we’ve met. i’m andi.”

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cxssiopeiic :

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andi had always been the calmer of the two, so cassi decided she’d be the best triplet to go to first. she was already regretting it. the youngest triplet is tempted to just turn back and leave, but she’s already broken into andi’s place and situated herself in her sister’s room. it’s too late to turn back now. the rogue shadowhunter is rifling through her sister’s wardrobe, frowning at the lack of taste when she sees her sister enter the room. 

“ you know , i was hoping for more of a homecoming . then again you and cer may have been born twins for all mother cared . hello sister . “

        she was tired, more so than usual, and for a moment before she enters her room at the institute the raven-haired shadowhunter actually thinks she may be able to sleep. instead she’s met with the face of a ghost that had haunted her for years and she’s too stunned to even speak. when she finally shakes herself free of her stupor she finds herself leaning back against the door, sifting through an array of emotions ranging all over the scale, and by some miracle she manages to keep her tone level when she finds her voice again.

        “right, sorry about that. you know how it is, though - dead girls typically don’t get welcome home parties. doubt i could even find a card.”

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hclfblccd :

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      “i won’t fight you-” he says quietly, offering out his wrists to be cuffed. “but please, for elena, let’s be discreet.”

        she gives a slight nod to that, thankful that he wasn’t planning on putting up a fight. still, instead of cuffing him she simply gestured for him to follow her. “we’ll just go for a walk, i think. make less of a scene.”

[andrcmedalux]

     spotting the other person ahead, nathaniel sped up, forcing his limits while he was at it. he always liked some challenge as he trained himself for better, and even though he didn’t know if that person was on a morning run like him or not, her wanted to give it a chance. at worst, he’d get a weird look and go on. so he reached them, not even turning to look at them as he ran past them but made sure to say, “ on your left. ”

        she didn’t run. she hated running. why the hell was she running? she nearly tripped when the other passed her, but before embarrassment could fill her a competitive urge leapt into its place, pushing her to catch up and match the pace of the other. it didn’t last long, unfortunately, and soon she’d come to a stop, crouching next to a tree as she caught her breath as she ran a hand over her face. “a demon. he’s got to be a demon. and me without my stele..”

[katiemcgrathnews]

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katiemcgrathnews :

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[andrcmedalux]

khylensilverhaze:

“Inquisitor,” Khylen nodded his head. “Thank you for seeing me.” He hadn’t really seen another Shadowhunter since he’d turned, and it hurt just about as much as he thought it would. “I guess I don’t need to officially resign…my weapons are all turned in and most of my things are gone from the Institute. And I know you’re busy, it’s alright. I’m…dealing.” He couldn’t say he was dealing well, because that would be a lie, but he was okay. “All I’ve ever wanted was to be a good Shadowhunter,” he added quietly.

        “Please, call me Andi. And busy or not I should’ve found time sooner.” She hates this part. She’s talked with a handful of ‘former’ shadowhunters and they all hung on her heart - not because she pitied them, but because so many of them seemed to feel like they failed or like they were suddenly monsters, and she hated that there was nothing she could do to ease their burden. “If there’s anything I can do, anything you need, you can always reach out. And Khylen,” she pauses for a moment, managing a small smile, “as far as I can tell, you were a good shadowhunter. This doesn’t change that - even the best of us make mistakes, and have to bear the consequences.”

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        “it’s khylen, right?” she knows it is, she’d put the effort into remembering the name of every shadowhunter in la, though only a few had actually stuck with her - she can’t for the life of her remember the name of the man that tells her to go to sleep when he finds her in the training room at three in the morning, or the woman that seems to spend more time polishing weapons than actually using them. “i’m sorry it’s taken me so long to reach out. how are you handling everything?”

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[sebastianstans]

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sebastianstans :

                      once you let the darkness inside                           it never comes out