THE ANDROID GRLFRND

A lavender and chartreuse aura'd enigma, a daydream, a NB, they/them ghost at the bottom of the ocean. The first breath you take after realizing that you're loved, the first breath you take when you've been taken off of life support.

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Sorry to let everyone down again but I relapsed. I think I had 112 days.

Still, it’s progress not perfection. This time, I’m going to be working SLAA as well. I’m getting right back into the rooms to pick up where I left off. I can fucking do this I know I can, but I can’t keep pretending my love addiction isn’t as bad as it is.

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I’m gonna go to sleep before I either relapse or kill my self

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I wish I could delete my life temporarily until I decide I have enough energy to keep trying again

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I feel terrible and I didn’t mean for it to come off that way and I guess now I can get back to focusing on losing a shitton of weight

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My friends are suffocating me and idk how to politely tell everyone to leave me alone for a few days

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Hi, this is gonna sound weird, but um I don't know if you remember Austen, but I came across your posts about him and he messed me up a lot, too, and I was just sort of, I don't know, I know it was a long time ago, but I'm sorry that happened and if you wanna talk, we can, or if not, that's cool, too.

Dude please PM me!!!! Or talk to me on insta @rileyregret , I rarely check this

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90 days ago I decided to drink a bottle of wine to reward myself for controlling my drinking for the four days prior. That night I: shotgunned a second bottle of wine, blacked out, announced to Facebook that my nudes were for sale, drunk texted the person I was trying to not text (that was the whole reason I was trying to control my drinking in the first place ugh), blacked out, barfed a lot, passed out on my bathroom floor, and apparently got woken up by my roommate at like 6am, and then went upstairs and went to bed (I don’t remember most of this). Honestly, though, if I hadn’t completely fuckin embarrassed myself over and over again, I don’t think I would’ve tried to get sober sober again, much less work a program. I’d gone without hard drugs for months at a time before, but the longest I ever managed to go without any substances or alcohol at all was 89 days, and the furthest I ever got on my steps was step 4. My shit is finally fucking together in every facet of my life and I’m not looking back, even if I get really depressed again or if my anxiety continues to eat me alive. 90 days may not seem like a lot of time, but if you’ve followed my story for the past 5 years or so, you’ll understand how huge this is. Also I just kind of realized that I am currently living the life I’ve always wanted to live and never thought I’d have, so that’s nice, too. (at North Nashville) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByHU8tNFyOO/?igshid=205knusrygmm

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All patrons now have access to a rough draft of my new song :) patreon.com/androidgirlfriend (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bx85nM0HBii/?igshid=lxo1zfzp92v5

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@amandapalmer signed my boobie!!!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍 (at East Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxnohxLFv_5/?igshid=vropaa3518o8

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This is the first time I’ve worn makeup since das Feuer (at North Nashville) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxltjtIl63v/?igshid=1grmcn4zhwb8v

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I refuse to accept that it’s summer outside (at North Nashville) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxls-RNlMBz/?igshid=pbdgdarpivtn

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The Internet is bumming me out today please tell me good things that are happening in your life or in general (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxk8Fl5FC2w/?igshid=1fh3wd21f10zz

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@grazenashville got that good good bathroom lighting (at Graze Nashville) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxi7FJAllR_/?igshid=1fc26xz45ttg4

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1st is with my multivitamin, second is without. It is 100% possible to get enough vital nutrients on a vegan diet, and tbh it’s been a lot easier for me to do it vegan than it has been vegetarian. Food 4 thot (at North Nashville) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxgnhPvl71E/?igshid=yedf9dqd0kgy

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Album updates: So, first off, the name of the album has changed. RIP Pipedream, you’re now called Limerence. This past month has been fucking insane, but I’m now settled into my new place, and I’m working on her again. I completely re-did some lyrics yesterday, and I’m re-working some lyrics right now. I think a friend of mine may help me produce it, so I’m really hoping that works out because I’m honestly kinda scared it won’t turn out as good as I’m hoping it will—GarageBand can only take my broke ass so far. If I get my ass in gear, I think I may have it done by mid to late June, which means I’ll have it out to y’all by July. OH AND IM PLAYING MY FIRST SHOW IN JUNE and I’ll totally let y’all know when exactly it is when I know. Thanks fer yr patience, and pls spam me on Spotify and shit in the meantime. 💜💜💜💜 . . . #synthpop #gothpop #hiphop #hiphopmusic #lalocalmusic #synthwave #synthmusic #nashvillelocalmusic #lamusicscene #nashvillemusic #lamusic #fembot #conceptart #sadmusic #depressingmusic #goth #gothgirl #girlswithtattoos #girlswithpiercings #queermusic #queermusician (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxbVbSZnNiV/?igshid=1srlxt10fxng

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Happy mamas day to my beautiful mama! https://www.instagram.com/p/BxYhTGslGOk/?igshid=1ohpimq75t5vm