andshesback

active nov | bmi 19.8 | minors dni

[andshesback]

not bleeding anymore :D healing from IBD

i've been focusing on healing my IBD. and i fucking am. I'M NOT BLEEDING ANYMORE!!! from a warzone in the toilet for 6 months, to not a single drop. and i don't have to run to the toilet to have bloody diarrhea 10 times a day.

am i perfectly healed? no. if i have junk food/dairy/red meat/sugar, I'll have issues. BUT THIS IS GOOD FOR ME. It forces me to not be bulimic or binge. like I literally cant b/p anymore.

best of all, i haven't gained a single pound. I'm having liquid calories (fruit juice), oil in my food, fatty fish, dark vegan chocolate. BUT I feel satisfied from smaller portions bc I'm getting all the nutrition I need.

[zandrapaints]

every painting I finished in November

I was in a bit of an art rut for a few months but this November was really good for me! 3/5 of these were for a challenge on instagram that I cohosted which is a good reminder that sometimes you need external motivation to get out of a rut! having some set inspiration really helped me just paint more this morning and I love the results.

[andshesback]

organic fruits n veggies are so expensive its actually evil

so if we don't want dangerous chemicals sprayed on our food we gotta pay like twice as much? we're living in hell honestly

[andshesback]

narcissists dont deserve pity

wtf!!! we're now supposed to feel sorry for narcissists because they "have a disorder and can't help it"? LOLLLL save your energy, pity, and empathy for people who deserve it.

i keep seeing posts here about how narcs are "valid" and shit LOLLLLL!!!LOOLOLEELELOOLELEL!!!! actually giga omega lol

[zandrapaints]

it's okay to take a break

[andshesback]

getting an IBD diagnosis pulled me out of bulimia immediately

i'm going to the grocery store every day to buy fresh produce now. i spend like an hour daily juicing veggies and fruits. I've been cooking actual MEALS. lean protein and vegetables. i'm snacking on blueberries. i had some vegan chocolate earlier. (wtf vegan chocolate is actually delicious)

i've got freshly squeezed fucking CABBAGE JUICE in my fridge. it's nasty but I drink it for my health. i also have pineapple & pomegranate juice which was my snack for the evening instead of binging and purging junk.

knowing my insides are literally inflamed, (i saw it LIVE during a colonoscopy, my colon literally has these white inflamed spots) makes me not want to put garbage in my body. this is not to celebrate getting fucking IBD, I am grieving and there's been tears. but this has given me perspective on wtf we're doing to our bodies when binging and eating like shit. I'm so grateful for my health and grateful my IBD isn't worse.

[07242024-deactivated20240725]

[girl who is a complete loser and has been one her entire life]: actually, loner hermit virgin is just my vibe right now... i'm just curating my vibe okay. that's it. it's just my whole vibe. not a lot of people would get it... whatever

[andshesback]

back to juicing :) no more bs ingredients

got rid of the drinks i had with artificial sweeteners and the dairy products in my fridge. I got my juicer out that I haven't used in forever and made mango, banana, and pineapple juice. i watered it down so its half juice/half water and not so calorie-dense.

[cybervoidd]

[andshesback]

19.8 bmi

slow but i'll get there. i'm happy there's any progress at all

[izzy444angel]

me on a random tuesday after bawling my eyes out

[fuckyeahkitschy2]

[andshesback]

doctor said i'm not bulimic bc i'm not fat

me: do you think my digestive issues could be a consequence of bulimia? dr: you're bulimic? what makes you think you're bulimic? me: i throw up after i eat, quite a lot dr: on purpose? why? to lose weight? me: that and to relieve stress dr: most bulimics are overweight, you're slim, you're not bulimic, if anything you're anorexic

dude are you actually...... so just because i'm an effective purger I'm not bulimic? my binges are fucking huge. it's not like I'm super skinny and throw up bc i ate a granola bar. i binge like crazy. i could go on ranting about this but damn what a dumbass.

idgaf about diagnoses but it felt like he just dismissed everything I've gone through with bulimia. idk I just took it personally i guess

[serial777killers]

I’m traumatized cause every time I wanted reassurance, clarification and to share my feelings it was perceived as trying to argue, shit has really turned me into a cold person

[pallmallsandashtrays]

[amphetamine-angel]

[pillboxprincess]

me every time u guys out a tumblr man for being a piece of shit