diary of a lone lost soul

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[les-fleur]

White Nights (1957, dir. Luchino Visconti)

[mournfulroses]

Makenzie Campbell, from a poem featured in "Room of the Mind: Poems" originally published in 2021

[mournfulroses]

Jean-Paul Sartre, from a play featured in "No Exit and Three Other Plays," originally published in 1944

[andthenilostmyself]

Most people wish they were normal, no mental health issues, just completely and utterly normal and I too wish that sometimes, but deep down, I feel like if it weren’t for my depression, anxiety and ptsd, (and the long list of other issues I have) I would never be able to create the things I do. The most talented artists really do suffer and I don’t mean they are technically good at something, I mean their art speaks volumes because of the raw emotion that has been put into it, raw emotion only someone who has fought constant battles can create.

I think that is a beautiful thing, the ones who suffer tend to be more gentle and thoughtful because they know the pain life can cause, so why cause more?

I truly believe that if I were normal, I’d be boring and lack any creative thought.

Is it wrong to think that? Is it wrong to think that normal people are boring? Normal people don’t understand the world the same way we do? Is that wrong?

[midnightsadboy]

i have never faked my love for a single soul and that's why i take betrayal so personally

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[pwettiestdoll]

she's a 10 but randomly goes back into depressive episodes every time she starts to get better because she finds too much comfort in her own mental illness.

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

im not anyone's first choice. im not anyone's favorite. people may tell me i mean a lot to them and that im special to them but i know there's someone they'll always choose over me

[ishouldgetlobotomized]

i have a massive fear that no one actually likes me rather everyone is just politely tolerating me hoping i leave them alone

[andthenilostmyself]

It’s all I ever think about, no matter what I’m doing, who I’m speaking to, who I’m around, it’s always in the back of my mind.

“Why am I so fat, if I was skinny I would be easier to love, prettier to the world and happier”

And all I ever hope is that day comes, when the noise finally stops.

[maxesslangblr]

I hate myself so much

I wish I could disappear without anyone noticing, or ever knowing me.

I don't want to be in this house anymore.

I don't want to be anymore.

[miafi1112]

I hate eating, but I can’t stop.

Every bite leaves me feeling worse,

disgusted and stuck in this cycle.

All I want is to be thin —

to finally feel free in my own skin.

[nixscriptum]

[hatin]

via weheartit

[vexheart]

[vexheart]

[perrfectly]

“We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together But we sure make it feel like we’re together Cause we’re scared to see each other with somebody else”

— Drake “Doing It Wrong” (via perrfectly)

[lunebordeaux]