Is this real life?

I'm Ali. Florida. I have a birthmark on my left cheek.

[artsyfartsyartsy]

[novr-deactivated20190712]

[peenslaya]

drunk me is the me i really want to be. confident, hilarious and, most importantly, drunk. 

[drugera]

[nitsuainphilly-deactivated20221]

[s-softsound]

[colorsinmybubble]

[swagpizza]

[andthenlifegoeson]

My heart has never hurt so bad.

I never want to leave my bed. Every time I try to get up and move I feel like all my energy is drained out of me and I need to just lay down again. But I've gone through everything in my phone, attempted to read, tried to put on Netflix. Though all I can think about is last night. Never have I ever gotten into a fight like that with Brad. We were drunk, I got so jealous over nothing, and he just cracked. All of my hateful taunting words have built up. I have successfully brought my last relationship into this one in the worst way possible. All I see is jealousy, all I say are jealous things, and all I can do is either hold it in and feel like shit or push it on my most wonderful boyfriend. "You're my princess, I would do anything to make you feel that way. You are the only thing I ever want. You never deserve to feel the way you do and I will do anything to fix it." And I am undeserving and unable to believe any of his words or actions. At this point I don't know what to do, or how to grow out of my problems. This relationship has shown me that it won't just take a really amazing person or deals with my bullshit, but something more within myself. Because if I don't I will just be passing this trait on to someone who only deserves the best because he is the best.

[andthenlifegoeson]

Me: *changes the toilet paper roll*

Me: I am the backbone of this household

[andthenlifegoeson]

ALSO

Broke the fuck out of my toe this morning. And now it hurts like a bitch no matter what I do 😭

[andthenlifegoeson]

First time I'm chilling drinking at a bar by myself...

Honestly not quite sure what to do with myself. Reasons as to why I'm writing this post.

[allthingseurope]

Amsterdam, Netherlands (by Anastasia)

[chekhov]

Did you know? Lesbians and male homosexuals would marry each other in Nazi Germany just to escape persecution? Queer history tho like I honestly am learning things everyday that shape my knowledge of what it means to be LGBT? Like did you know Malcolm X was bisexual? Did you know the Nazis persecuting homosexuals said they were protecting “traditional family values,” the same arguments used today by Republicans? Washington in the 1780s expelled several soldiers for engaging in consensual same-sex acts? FDR launched a plan in the 1920s where he forced young sailors to try and trap other sailors into sex? I think schools need to stop erasing queer history from social studies and queer literature from English classes. And also start teaching children to respect gay people at a young age, like grade five. That’s the only way I can see any change coming about…

[andthenlifegoeson]

Is it wrong for me to want you to be a little jealous?

[tamper]

[lynchpinofnonsense]