Slow It Down

Tanner Walker. 18. Trying to numb the pain in this new place I call home.

[aneternalemptiness]

It's actually quiet around here for once.

[sleepless-happiness]

Yeah I agree with you. The worst I watched was probably The Human Centipede. It scared me so much I struggled to eat for days! So disgusting. Oh, I was sure some we’re real! They looked quite accurate to me. Yeah, it was a good one, but I saw scarier than that, and I’m not talking about movies!

Yeah you’d definatly the one I’d want to team up with! You’d be good to have sponsors and stuff too! I read it in English class too, and multiple times after! You have great book taste, did you like the movie too ?

[aneternalemptiness]

The Human Centipede is so disgusting, no wonder you couldn't eat for days. I saw it once when I was twelve and I don't plan on ever watching it again. 

Not gonna lie, I probably would be. I'd be able to win over the ladies back home. Yeah, I have seen it. And don't laugh, okay, but I saw it opening night. 

[leftfaithless-blog]

I wonder i-if it's possible to pull y-your back out at sixteen.

[leftfaithless-blog]

Really? That’s really great, Tanner. I’m proud of you.

It’s fine, no harm done. Yes, yes, that would have been quite awful. 

[aneternalemptiness]

Hey, thanks Faith. It's been really fucking hard but.. I'm trying. 

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Well...

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Oh I’m sorry, Tan. I know Being sick sucks. What did you have?

[aneternalemptiness]

Just some sort of cold, or something, I don't know.

[imperfect-on-the-surface-deacti]

Well, I'm out...

[imperfect-on-the-surface-deacti]

Thanks, Tan! How’ve you been?

It’s good to have you back - how was your time away with Faith? 

[aneternalemptiness]

I've been alright, yeah. You?

It was pretty fun. Good to get away from this place, you know? 

[leftfaithless-blog]

I wonder i-if it's possible to pull y-your back out at sixteen.

[leftfaithless-blog]

Like better in what way? Well, just because I’m a worry wart doesn’t mean you have to think about that. But it looks like you were well taken care of, so that’s good. I’m really glad to hear that, Tan!

Hm, good choice. I approve.

[aneternalemptiness]

I've been uh.. Sober for a good amount of time, now, so.

But yeah, sorry I didn't tell you. I will next time, alright? And yeah, I'm glad she didn't poison me or anything. 

[aneternalemptiness]

It's actually quiet around here for once.

[sleepless-happiness]

That’s what I try to keep in mind, and ghost movies don’t scare me for this reason. But psycho killers movies makes me so nervous! You’re really sure that some aren’t based on true stories?

Yes then, if you have my back, I’m sure to survive! But I’m really good at being quiet and be invisible so that would work in my favor. Same for me, we would be great allies! You like the Hunger Games?

[aneternalemptiness]

Ghost movies are so unrealistic, it's pathetic. I'll admit, the psycho killer ones are a bit worse. Yeah, trust me, they are. You know that movie, A Haunting In Connecticut? Well I'm from Connecticut, and I can assure you it's bullshit. 

I'm good at combat and I can run fast and shit like that, so we'll make a good team. Believe it or not, I do. We read it in my freshman English class and it was the only book I actually liked. 

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Well...

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Aw you were sick? 

[aneternalemptiness]

Yeah, unfortunately. 

[aneternalemptiness]

It's actually quiet around here for once.

[curiositycankillthesoull-blog]

Blaze Carter. Nice to meet ya too. Been around here long?

[aneternalemptiness]

Since late March or early April, I think. Not too sure, I lost count. 

[aneternalemptiness]

1, 8, 9, 12, 24, 28, 30, 36, 39, 56, 66, 70, 72, 75, 81, 84, 85, 92, 94,

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Eh, probably. 

8. How often do you listen to music?

Every chance I get, pretty much.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Sweats.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?

Quite a few. 

24. What are you sitting on right now?

My bed. 

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

Nah, I’ve got a pretty good immune system.

30. Does anyone hate you?

Hah, probably. 

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

I told my dad I loved him back in May. 

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Why wouldn’t people be thinking of me all the time? 

56. Do you think you like someone?

Maybe Nope.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

Highly doubt it.

70. How do you look right now?

Fucking sexy. Motherfucker. 

72. Can you commit to one person?

Why commit when I can get as many girls as I want? 

75.  Did you wake up cranky?

Nahh. 

81. Last person you cried in front of?

I’m not a pussy; I don’t cry. 

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

Fuckin’ passing this one. 

85. Are you over your past?

I answered this one already, God. 

92. Is there someone you know with the name Michael?

Bitch, there might be. 

Kidding, one of my best friends from home. 

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?

No I was not and it was going fantastic. 

[aneternalemptiness]

5, 15, 25, 35, 45, 55, 65, 75, 85, 95, 100.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

Well since I’m not dating or talking to anyone that way, then no, there shouldn’t be. 

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Nahh, freedom of speech and all that shit. Besides, not everyone’s gonna like you.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

A few of these clingy as fuck girls who I hooked up with once back home have. But other than that, no. 

35. Did you have a dream last night?

Nope. I pretty much passed out last night. 

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? 

Of course. 

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Extremely.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?

Do I look like a fucking cross dresser to you?

75. Did you wake up cranky?

Surprisingly, I did not. 

85. Are you over your past?

I fucking wish.

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?

I didn’t like anyone in March, oops.

100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?

My friends back home Jayden, Ryder, Mike and Courtney. 

[leftfaithless-blog]

I wonder i-if it's possible to pull y-your back out at sixteen.

[leftfaithless-blog]

What? You should have told me, silly. I could have brought soup or something. Are you feeling any better? Major score. The shop in town is really good, their lemon ice cream is the best.

That much is quite clear!

[aneternalemptiness]

I dunno, I was doing better, you know.. And I didn't want to worry you, I guess. Sophie brought me soup though. Yeah, I'm feeling pretty good today, surprisingly.

Eh, lemon's okay. I'm more of a cookie dough kinda guy. 

[aneternalemptiness]

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Well...

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

I missed you too! I’m definitely better thanks. How’ve you been?

[aneternalemptiness]

That's good to hear, Leigh. I'm glad. 

Eh, I've been alright. Finally feeling a bit better today after being a bit under the weather recently. 

[leftfaithless-blog]

I wonder i-if it's possible to pull y-your back out at sixteen.

[leftfaithless-blog]

Well, you’ve been hiding away in that dorm of yours. Don’t worry, I promise we can go out for ice cream another time. Maybe after your next game!

Oh, yes, of course. Although I never knew you were talented in that regard.

[aneternalemptiness]

Hey, it's not my fault, okay? I just haven't been feeling very good lately. Yesss, ice cream. Score. 

Oh, of course I am. I'm the best at making weird faces, let me tell you. 

[aneternalemptiness]

It's actually quiet around here for once.

[curiositycankillthesoull-blog]

I feel that, dude. They’re so goddamn overprotective here. It’s like they think we’re all out to fucking die or something.

[aneternalemptiness]

They really need to calm the fuck down. Oh yeah, I'm Tanner. Good to meet ya. 

[aneternalemptiness]

It's actually quiet around here for once.

[sleepless-happiness]

Totally! I’m such a chicken when it comes to horror movies! I’d probably end up the first one to be killed! I’m sure you’d survive though! 

[aneternalemptiness]

I don't think they're all that bad. You just gotta remember that it's not real, you know? And they're always bullshitting when they say it's based on a true story.

I probably would survive, yeah. And you would too, since I'd have your back. This scenario kind of reminds me of the Hunger Games, not gonna lie. 

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Well...

[nothings-gonna-go-away-blog]

Tannn!

[aneternalemptiness]

Get over here, munchkin, I missed you. 

Y'alright?