Weird Angie

~ Angie | 18 | Leo ~ Emotional mess

[angela100008]

It’s Christmas Eve and I’m holding back tears. Not only was it cancelled due to covid the first time, apparently it’s my fault christmas dinner was cancelled at home. Because I don’t eat.

[wildsunshine]

[angela100008]

I want to be hit by a car

[angelsinart]

[angela100008]

Could the thing I just wrote in my notes app be considered a suicideee note? Probably

[angela100008]

My heart be hurting heavy

[traumathoughts]

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[thepersonalquotes]

[angela100008]

My chest physically hurts

I hate you

But I love you

I hate how they can still be friends with you

Am I wrong for getting mad at them

Why do you pretend that I was never in your life?

Why

[thepersonalquotes]

[lowxredxeyes]

You just want adventure for once in your miserable life

-inside for to long

[thepersonalquotes]

[thepersonalquotes]

[angela100008]

My scary reality

I’m scared of the future. I’ve always had this vision of me, as an adult, alone.

Alone, raising my kids by myself.

I don’t want to be alone.

[angela100008]

“Are you ok?”

Should I tell them the truth? What do I have to lose?

“No I’m not ok. I want to cry and scream. My heart is broken but I have no one to turn to. He was my best friend, I told him everything. But he’s gone now. And I’m confused, lost, and empty without him. Everything is bottled up inside me and comes out when everyone is asleep so I handle it alone. I loved him. But he walked away. So no, I’m not ok.”

“Oh”

[thedankmemes]