#toxic relationship

[plzzjustloveme]

One day I’ll get killed and it will be horrible. I know it’s coming I know it will happen, it will hurt so much and I’ll be in so much pain but I can’t stop it. It’s my fate. I’m scared I’ve even thought of taking my own life before anything can happen cause at least I’ll be in control then and it’ll get to rest peacefully but I’m too scared to actually go through with it. Maybe it’s because deep down I know that’s not how it’s supposed to happen.

All I can do now is wait and hope that they’ll at least give me some mercy, maybe they could at least hug me while I’m dying. I don’t like being alone after all

[crybabymilky]

I'm being really childish and avoid Pup but I'm really really scared. He hasn't spoken to me since our fight months ago, he wont ask to see me, he wont ask to talk to me. I know everyone is right and I should just dump him but I'm so scared.

He said he has no idea if he can love someone romantically, but I was the closest he's ever gotten. I really really love him, I felt so happy and so safe. I don't feel happy or safe anymore. I don't think he wants a girlfriend, I think he wants a pet. But he refuses to tell me anything, and now I've found out not only has he been doing drugs but it hasn't been for just a week, its been for months. He's been lying to me for months.

He hates physical touch, he can barely tolerate holding my hands. And now I think of that time he just suddenly made out with me and I'm terrified. If i hadn't of froze up, if I hadn't kept turning my face away, what was going to happen? Was he sober? He'd already lied about drinking in my house that day. He'd already lied about communicating with me. What if he hurt me? What if he was stoned or drunk?

He could have hurt me.

I could have hurt him if I didn't know and let it keep going.

I hate myself for not knowing anything. What kind of girlfriend is so untrustworthy her boyfriend can't tell her he's struggling? I have to force it out of him, I have to beg and threaten. But he tells my cousin so easily.

He's always had a crush my cousin. I'm so fucking stupid. What do I even do now?

[tearyx]

Fast 365 Tage geschafft, fast ein Jahr ohne Kontakt zueinander und jetzt? Jetzt stehen wir genau dort, wo wir vor 6 Jahren angefangen haben.

Shit.

[angelzgirlll]

„Pretty girls like you need to watch out for men like me“

[sadseahag]

I have so much to grieve.

I’m not angry anymore.

I’m not sad anymore.

I’m scared of the future.

But in comparison to the 15 years with you-I finally ended….

I’m excited for my healing more than the fear of the unknown.

[kissmetoruins]

G texted me he wants me back... Idk if he's being genuine or not I'm scared.

[angeldoghakan]

I hate love.