Something i think people dont get about 3ds -
So i finished a 65 hour fast yesterday, because I started to get really bad f00d noise. I broke it with some konjac noodles and a watered down curry sauce my brother made. In total it was approx 60 cals. After, i decided to purge because even though it was really low cals, I didn’t want f00d in my system, after feeling so cleansed from the f@st. Afterwards, my brain just started spiralling and i binged and purged three separate times. It genuinely felt like an out of body experience. However, even though i was successful in purging, and got minimal cals from my binge, I still felt like i had failed the day. Because, what i think people dont get, is that it’s not only about wl for us. For me, and for so many others in this community, it’s about having a semblance of control, in a world where we dont have any control over what happens. So, for me, it wasn’t the cals i was upset about, it’s that i lost control of the one thing i can control, and binged. Sometimes, i b/p, and im fine, because i had planned it ahead of time. When it happens out of the blue though, it just makes me feel disgusted with myself.
