so sleepy

22

[kosmogrl]

who wants to be my friend forever and collect little trinkets with me

[myboringlifeat21]

Female friendships in your 20's

UGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm going through a development in my life (or at least I'm trying to) where I reflect on my life and how I can strive to make it better because I am unhappy. this includes decentring those who clearly don't value me the way I value them and instead of putting that energy into someone who doesn't reciprocate it, I can put it into a relationship with myself and my self worth. I HATE confrontation so I've slowly been distancing myself from those people not cutting off all ties just putting my mental health first (I am aware I sound like a complete dickhead) and I don't mean it in a horrible way I'm still friendly and polite I'm just not going to drop everything for people who don't do the same for me anymore. I no longer want to be a door mat in other words. However I have been I guessed "called out" I don't really know what else to call it (or maybe "confronted" is a better word to use) of how I'm acting differently so I have just decided to be honest, not hostile or accusing. Just saying how I've been feeling for the past year. I don't know if this will be turned into a fight which is not what I want at all but I will be honest I've communicated that I'm not trying to upset anyone and my reasons behind what I'm doing and I've not been mean in my explanations but I still feel like a jerk for doing so. I just can't spend every other week in tears anymore for being the last to know or balled on or being seen a weak link or wounded animal. I'm sick of being picked up and dropped whenever is convenient for others while I'm expected to bend over backwards at a moments notice. Whatever will happen will happen and if this is the end of the friendship then that will be okay because life moves, on people out grow one another and there is no one to blame for that.

[themuppetmasterencyclopedia]

[daily-spooky]

[angeleyes003]

The shortness of life

so many of us go to bed each night cuddled up cozy with the entitlement of seeing the sunrise the next moring

but its never promised

it's never certain

we all live with a strict set of rules each of us make for our selves whether it be food we decided we can't eat or clothes that we decided make us look uncool

a useless set of rules that make us unable to live life to the fullest

to truly be happy with what little time we could have left

because tomorrow is never promised

its never certain

so eat that little extra slice of cake and enjoy it

wear those sandles with ur favourite pair of socks

don't make ur self small so others around u can stand tall

put ur self out there because we never know when we will say our last hello or goodbye we never know when we will share our last kiss or dance our last dance

because tomorrow is never promised

its never certain

it's a gift given with every sun rise we wake up to so live as if today is our last because it very well could be