Hello hello all!!! I've decided to start a blog! I think a lot, without any sort of outlet for my feelings (aside from my priv twt, but that's got my friends on it so it's not the same) and I want to create something completely anonymous and disconnected from my personal life to document my feelings and experiences. Essentially, an anonymous public online diary. Borders made by @r4z0rbl4dez everyone say thankies!
I'm hoping that this will be good practice for working towards the memoir that I hope to eventually publish.
I hope that you will stick with me!
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Basic Info !
Name: Angel
Pronouns: they/she/he/star
Age: over 21!
Gender: it's complicated!!!
Ethnicity: Half Vietnamese/Half American
Nationality: American
Relationship status: pathetically single, if ur near my age pls flirt with me I like the attention
Identity in three words: Angelic Idol Prince ᓚ₍⑅^..^₎ ⋆˙⟡ OR Angel Puppy Cat
Likes: My friends, pink and blue, oshikatsu, sleeping, writing, idols, J-fashion, dancing, singing, sewing, astronomy, cosplaying, dogs, jellyfish, tonetags, lists, and more!
Dislikes: working, censorship, fish as food, fast fashion, homework, strangers, small talk, strong smells, going outside, the weather, the American Healthcare system, fake people, and more!
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Things to know !
- I have Type 1 Narcolepsy Insomnia, POTS, OCD, BPD, ARFID, and agoraphobia. These things effect my daily life and if you don't want to read someone talking about the ways in which they struggle please don't interact with me! Please just scroll and leave me alone!
- I speak in third person sometimes, if you don't like it just scroll and leave me alone!
- I can be really sensitive, especially when it comes to protecting the media I like. Please don't be rude or ad hominem towards them. If you don't like what I have to say! Please! Just! Scroll! And! Leave! Me! Alone!
- I have a very low tolerance for bullshit so do not test my patience.
- If you find this account and happen to know me irl, please don't say anything to me. This is supposed to be me speaking into the void, so let me. Read it if you wish; you may hear things you don't like, so just keep that in mind.
- I am a kaigai idol! So you might see me posting about performance stuff, so look forward to those!
- I am a Lolita and Tenshi Jirai! I Have been wearing these fashions for about 4 and 3 years respectively so I have pretty strong opinions about them and the practices so please be respectful and maybe we can have a conversation about it!
- I LOVE MUSIC!!!!
Music is incredibly important to me and so are the artists I like. I will probably post about music a lot so take note of that!
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DNI IF THE FOLLOWING APPLIES TO YOU !!!
- basic criteria
- This is not a strict dni, but please be mindful when interacting with my posts if you are a minor. Mainly because I will sometimes talk about nsfw topics, so just mind your manners!! Love and care!
- You support censorship.
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Interests !
- Multi-media projects (media that have animes/mangas, animes/games, etc): Love Live!, IDOLY PRIDE (aipura), Blue Archive, Talentless Nana, Happy Sugar Life, Nekopara
- Animes: Sleepy Princess in the Demon Castle, Magical Girl Raising Project, A Whisker Away, Jellyfish Can't Swim in the Night, Bloom Into You
- Non anime shows: The Rookie, Octonauts, Paw Patrol, Ever After High, Steven Universe
- Games: Paperlily
- Manga: Even the Introverted Gals Wanna Get Out There!, Morning Glory and Kase-san, Beauty and the Beast Girl
- Music Artists: All Love Live! units, All Aipura units, Selfish, CARAMEL CANDiD, Sayaka Kanda, I'mew, AOAO, =LOVE, Yorushika, TRUSTRICK, Pixel Ribbon, MEOWMEW, miumio, i-COL, twinpale, rokudenashi, Aitsuki Nakuru, Candye Syrup, and so many more!!
- character kins: You Watanabe, Shion Sasaki, Rena Minami, Shizuku Hyodo, Nana Hiiragi, Nemurin, Satou Matsuzaka, Mana Nagase, Firefly (HSR), Robin (HSR),The Wandering Witch Elaina, Princess Syalis, Miyo Sasaki, Haruka Kiritani, Saki Tenma, Cyan, and more!!! I have an excel sheet for them heh.
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Tags !
Diary posting: #angelic idol diary
J-pop recs: #jpop recs by - Angel ᓚ₍⑅^..^₎ ⋆˙⟡
Take a look at my carrd to learn more about me!
hi angellll
I know i haven't sent an ask in a really really long time (sorry ><) but if youre willing to offer it, i was wondering if i could have some advice...
ive just been feeling very apathetic recently, and after a bad experience with my partner of 3 months yesterday, i feel as though i want to break up. but, because i'm afab, i'm also bleeding bc im on my period, so it might just be menstrual impulses. however, ive also been milling it over for a little while before this...as of the current, i feel very much like im trying to crawl out of my own skin >w<
i dunno if i should break up with them, but my brain is 100% telling me i should. i also think waiting it out is an option, but i feel like thats what ive been doing the entire relationship 💔 they get these fits of passive aggressiveness towards me and i highkey dont know how much longer im willing to deal with them. like, yesterday, when we were hanging out, i was playing some 'unsettling' music and i think they got mad at me for that. imo, its kind of a dumb thing to be mad at...
all the best, 🎭
OMGGG HAIIII I'VE MISSED U ANON!!! I am always open to giving everyone advice! Also hmm I'm sorry you're going through that anon thats such a tricky situation :( what I would do is I would try just talking to them about my feelings first! Tell them what they do and how it makes you feel, and then what you would like from them in the future. If they aren't willing to listen to you or try and make changes than you should probably leave that relationship no doubt. You can also tell them that you need direct communication! I think passive aggressiveness is some people's attempt to communicate and thats okay we just need to tell them when that communication doesn't work for us and we need them to communicate differently. At the very least wait until your period is over to see how you feel. If after you do all this you feel the same then you should probably leave them :( there's no point staying in a relationship that isn't bringing you happiness or joy. Good luck anon I love you!
I might get flamed for this lowkey but idc because it really bothers me when people larp bring an idol. It rly irritate me because like you cannot be an idol if you've never performed to real people in real life in real time (whether irl or online). Thats the foundation of being an idol and if you haven't done that yet you're not a true idol. If you're an idol who hasn't preforms but you are trying to perform you're a pre-debut idol. People have begun to use and treat "idol" almost like its a subcul identity when it's not and it really bothers me as an actual idol who actually performs. I noticed that its a big issue everywhere. There's also a big amt of people who treat cosidols and non-cosidols like they're the same when they aren't. And there are also people who think you can call yourself an idol if all you do is dance and you don't sing. If you just dance and don't sing you're an odoreite not an idol. We've romanticized/trend-ified being an idol and I'm so over it because it feels so demeaning/discrediting to the actual work that I actually do as an idol.
Ways to avoid falling into limerence with someone I started talking to like a week ago? AAAAAAAAAAAA I'm very attracted to them I feel but also I'm WORRIED cause I'm already falling into that feeling of like I'm vibrating in my own skin and wanting to obsess over their every move and its like BITCH I ONLY JUST GOT HERE???
Update I realized btw that this person has yet to text me first...what does everyone think? Should angel not text them to see if they'll text me? Angel wants to date someone who would be interested in them and initiate engaging with them so Angel wants this person to do that, but also Angel doesn't like holding back their feelings and desires what should I do??? 😵💫
sometimes when you eat an apple there might be a worm in it or maybe its sour or maybe its sweet you never really know how apples are until you try the different types of apples after all just because a certain apple is bad doesnt mean the other ones are
Angel has a performance this Saturday and is so SO SO SCARED!!! It's his first solo performance and he is going to be all alone since none of his friends will be at the event. Would really appreciate it if people could give Angel some attention and tell him that it's not the end of the world if he messes up and fumbles bad...but that is what it feels like rn. Angel feels like if he fumbles bad he needs to quit being an idol and never show his face ever again...he could really use some encouragement and kind words...
This person I've been flirting with could pass as cishet which is SO SCARY because I DON'T pass as cishet so I worry about what position that would put in potentially but!!! We're just flirting lightheartedly rn!!! So it doesnt matter!!! Angel is just going to have fun and enjoy the vibes!
Angel has a performance this Saturday and is so SO SO SCARED!!! It's his first solo performance and he is going to be all alone since none of his friends will be at the event. Would really appreciate it if people could give Angel some attention and tell him that it's not the end of the world if he messes up and fumbles bad...but that is what it feels like rn. Angel feels like if he fumbles bad he needs to quit being an idol and never show his face ever again...he could really use some encouragement and kind words...
