/he is sitting at the kitchen table trying to clean the wound on his face./
@angelina-acomb-ghost you around?
Yeah, that would be an example for sure. *Softly* Why are you still here? Even when you don't want to be?
You’re honestly asking me that? /he looks away./ The answer is I don’t know.
There must be a reason.
I don’t know. Cowardice, I guess.
You are not and never have been a coward, Mark Hoffman.
That’s a load and we both know it, Ang.
Don't tell me what I know. You're the bravest man I've known.
I’m not. Stop sayin’ I am.
I will not.
Then tell me you’re theory then.
You have never once shied away from doing what you thought was right or necessary because you didn't like it or it scared you. You suffered and suffer more than any man should, and you still are here. You make the choice every day. The hard choice. You are incredibly brave, BB.
Angelina, stop painting the things I chose to do like they are selfless acts.
But they are. That's what you don't see.
Then explain why you think that to me. I can tell you why it’s not.
I already told you. You choose not to believe.
/he sighs./ Yeah, I know. I just can’t.
Why do you think that you have to be so much more control and perfect than anyone else? Why is it not okay for you to sometimes mess up even if it's messing up badly?
/silent at her questions./ It’s just not.
That isn't an answer.
/scowls then finally mutters./ Because when I fuck up people end up dead. Including you.
It isn't your fault.
/silent for a moment./
I can’t let it go. That it’s my fault.
Is it my fault that you drink? Or that Seth hurt me? My death made you depressed. I made him angry. So it's my fault?
No. It’s not your fault. I just said it was my own damn fault.
Bit you're wrong. It isn't your fault. It's Seth's.
/he looks down, he knows arguing is useless./
Mark. Try to care about your self even 5% as much as you care about me.
I don’t even like me.
I know, B. I know.
/sits silently, his shoulders tensing up more./
You’re asking a lot here.
I know. *Softly* It's because I love you.
You’re still asking a lot that I don’t think I can do.
Will you try?
I don’t know how.
Start with believing what people tell you.
There’s a lot of bad that people tell me.
People who care about you?