lyra

[angryangstylyra]

i lied

lol i moved on very fast (it was never that serious)

[angryangstylyra]

its like

:)

i don't know anymore lul it's a bit more than intrigue for sure

but i'm not telling her that

shit i think he thinks i'm gay

@morrieo

permission to judge

[angryangstylyra]

condescension

why does he feel the need?

"you said it was easy? so you made a lot of dumb mistakes that'll show later?"

"what does that mean?"

"don't you feel ashamed?"

"you used to be so much better."

"why can't you be like her?"

[angryangstylyra]

family animal

according to my sister:

mom -> deer or crow

dad -> bobcat

brother -> bunny

herself -> coyote

me -> dove

according to me:

mom -> deer or crow

dad -> hippopotamus

brother -> skunk or hawk

sister -> elephant

me -> starling

[angryangstylyra]

what the fuck is james galway on

what is this and how

i need to harness the spirit of myself from first grade to learn this again

how did i do it the first time?? idk??

[angryangstylyra]

sartre existentialism

“Those who appeal to the wisdom of the people - which is a sad wisdom - find ours sadder still. Indeed their excessive protests make me suspect that what is annoying them is not so much our pessimism, but, much more likely, our optimism. For at bottom, what is alarming in the doctrine that I am about to try to explain to you - is it not?”

Why do we change ourselves to align with the expectations of people we don't care about?

[angryangstylyra]

1. so done

I feel like I'm going to die each day I do the same thing over again. I feel, I do anyway. I trust, I burn; I wish it could all be defined by a single word everyone understands without a possibility of misinterpretation. I want to escape the monotony of this every day. I wake up, go to school, go home, do homework, and go to sleep. There is no part of me that wants to keep doing this but I really don't know what would happen if I didn't. Every Monday I wish I could live my life like it was yesterday, but the day continues to progress like my spiraling health doesn't exist.