The New Berlin Wall

Hedwig   singer/songwriter/rock goddess of Hedwig and the Angry Inch - taking over the world one blow job at a time indie rp blog

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wickedlittlegnosis:

Tommy squeezed in closer to Hansel. He didn’t know how sex would prove it. He wanted her to believe him. How could he believe someone who hurt him twice? He knew he didn’t deserve a third chance. He just was in love with Hansel/ Hedwig and he couldn’t explain it.

He grabbed Hedwig’s leg and lifted her thigh to his hip. He wanted her thigh to rest on his hip bone. It made it easier to slip inside her body when the time was right. He moaned at the make love to me. “I love you.” He whispered. He meant it this time, not lik the one time he ran out on her. He actually did mean it then too, but this was different. He wasn’t afraid.

Hansel didn't think he could ever get enough of just touching Tommy.  He'd spent too many years obsessed with him, that him being here, being real under his fingertips didn't quite feel real.  Because it had been an obsession all those years.  The love he'd had transformed into something wild and destructive, and it had eaten parts of his heart up whole.  And Hansel had been sure he would never get those parts back.

But having Tommy here now...it felt like he was more whole that he had been in a very long time.  Perhaps more than he had been ever, because here he was, stripped down and Tommy was still looking at him with that feeling in his eyes.  Still saying I love you.  He let Tommy maneuver his body how he wanted and surged his body up to meet his, lips parted around a small moan.  "I love you too," he said before he could stop it, the words spilling from him before he could keep it in.

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wickedlittlegnosis:

“Yeah- well, I am nevous because it YOU. And YOU are you. I messed up with you and I don’t deserve you.” He sighed. He was saying you too much. “My love?” He wrinkled his nose as he teased her wording. “You’re so romantic and I’m so.. this.” He pointed to himself. He smiled as he looked into Hansel’s eyes. “Sex is the most human thing a person can do with another person, and here I am at a loss. I want to please you.”

Hansel looked up at him with a small fond smile and pushed some of his hair behind his ear.  "Oh honey," he said laughing a little.  "You really don't deserve me, but when have I ever cared about something like that."  He kissed him gently on the lips.  "I want you.  I've wanted you for so long, Tommy.  I've had time to think about it."  He kissed him again, reassuringly.  "The fact that you haven't run away yet pleases me.  You'll do just fine."  Hansel kicked his legs open a little wider, invitingly.  "Please."

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wickedlittlegnosis:

Tommy looked down at the tube and nodded. “Yeah duh,it’s like lotion, right?” He laughed. He popped open the bottle, and squirted out a handful of lube. He took a deep shaky breath. He never thought tonight he would be having sex with Hansel. It went from horrible night of depression to this. Life was so unexpecting sometimes. He lapped up his cock, looking into Hansel’s eyes. “This is our first time.” He said. “And I won’ lie. I’m nervous.”

Hansel felt his eyes pinch shut and let out a small laugh.  "It has a different consistency and you're not going to be rubbing it where you rub lotion, honey," he said with a smile, opening his eyes and winking up at him.  "Don't be nervous, my love," Hansel said softly, reaching his hand up and brushing his fingers over Tommy's cheek.  "It will be perfect.  Because it's you.  It's finally you."

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wickedlittlegnosis:

“ I am not, Hansel. I mean it.” He put his handosn his hips and moaned as his legs were tangled around his body. He held him tight and pressed against his body. “Will sex prove it? I think more than sex will prove it. Like when Adam and Eve..” He cut himself off. He knew Hedwig got tired of his bible references. “Nevermind.” He pushed against him and laid on top of him on the bed.” We need lube.. condoms?”

Hansel shuddered and rocked desperately against Tommy, feeling the hardness against his thigh and wanting so  much more of it.  They had never done this, not face to face, and it was so dizzying that Hansel was slightly afraid he might pass out.  "No, keep going," he said softly.  "It's been too long since you drove me crazy with your bible talk."  He smiled and sucked at Tommy's lower lip.  "There's some stuck under the mattress somewhere," Hansel said, fishing below until he pulled some out.  He handed them to Tommy with a grin. "You know what you're doing with these?"

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wickedlittlegnosis:

Tommy listen to his smooth voice. He liked his voice. An octave deeper than Hedwigs, but still so relaxing. He pressed his groins against his. He wanted him badly.He didn’t mind this slow pace love making. That’s what it was, wasn’t it? Love making. Being one. Blood in eyes and face. Maybe no literally blood in eyes and face, but close enough with everything else they had faced. Being torn apart from Hansel all this time, made him realize there was a deep part of his soul missin.

That part was Hansel. No matter how many times he went to therapy, or church or was born again. He still thought of Hansel. Of what he touched that day. It woke him up. Hedwig really was a male, and a part of him was really into that. The rest was satans work. Taking his music. Becoming someone because of it. He never meant for it to go that far. “Hansel. I.. I am pretty certain I love you and.. I can love the front of you.”

Hansel, both versions of him, the young boy stumbling along in East Germany and the broken woman trying to make a life, had been hurt so much, too much to really trust.  It had taken trust to strip down this much, but it was a different kind of trust to open his heart, and Hansel wasn't sure he'd ever be ready for that. Or if he'd ever truly trust that Tommy wasn't out to hurt him again.

"Don't say it if you don't mean it, honey," he said softly, his lips brushing against Tommy's ear.  "Please don't say it if you don't mean it."  He nipped lightly at Tommy's earlobe and lifted a leg up to wrap around Tommy's hip, tugging them tighter together.  "Make love to me," he murmured a moment later, rocking against him.  "Prove it to me."

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bowtiesandcoffeelove:

On August 13th, 1961, a wall was erected down the middle of the city of Berlin. The world was divided by a cold war and the Berlin Wall was the most hated symbol of that divide Reviled. Graffitied. Spit upon. We thought the wall would stand forever, and now that it’s gone, we don’t know who we are anymore. Ladies and Gentlemen, Hedwig is like that wall, standing before you in the divide between East and West, Slavery and Freedom, Man and Woman, Top and Bottom. And you can try to tear her down, but before you do, you must remember one thing.

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wickedlittlegnosis:

Tommy closed his eyes. He felt like he was floating towards the bed. He sat on the bed and turned his knees towards Hansel. He nodded. “Sorry, it took so long.” He put his hand on his cheek and lean in to kiss him deeply. He liked kssing Hansel. He started to kiss him harder, like the time in the trailer home where it was a lot of touching, grabbing and pulling.

He grabbed Hansel’s hand and placed it on his hard cock. He pushed into his hand and moved forward, as he used his chest and arm on the boy and laid on top of him to haveget more intimate. He kissed from his lips down his neck.

"Maybe neither of us were ready then," Hansel said, soft and almost broken as he slid his fingers over Tommy's cheek.  Maybe he had known, all the way back then, that they were soulmates.  That they were each other's other half.  But the stars hadn't aligned yet and neither of them had grown enough on their own to be worthy of it.  The power of connection, the power of fusion.  Hansel moaned, desperation growing as Tommy kissed him harder.  

Hansel collapsed back onto the mattress, eagerly pulling Tommy over him, letting their bodies slide together like they never had before.  "Oh Tommy," he moaned gratefully, his fingers sliding into Tommy's hair and tugging gently at Tommy mouthed at his neck.  His free hand was back around Tommy's cock, slowly fondling it now, not wanting this to end too quickly.  

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wickedlittlegnosis:

Tommy shivered with need as Hansel touched him. He usually squirmed away with the touch, but not this time. He eagerly pressed himself harder against his hands. Tommy formed his free hand along Hansel’s inch. It was different. a little scary at first. IT wasn’t what one would expect.

Tommy bit his lower lip before pulling away and looking into his eyes. Deep breathing. “Hansel. I’m sorry for being such an all american A hole to you.” He said with a sad shake of his head from side to side, in disbelief of his unmorals. “I feel free now. From all that shit. With you.. You know.” He moaned softly, as his cock was still being milked and tugged. “I.. umm “He gulped. “Bed.. yeah?”

Hansel let out a soft moan, surprised that Tommy was so willing, so eager.  He'd always made it a sort of game before, pulling away, dancing away from the touches like he was afraid to want them.  Or at least Hedwig had always thought it was a game.    He was getting something out of it this time too- Tommy hand on him, against him and it may not be enough to get him off, but it felt like it was right now, just because it was Tommy touching him.

"Shhh, shh," Hansel murmured, stroking Tommy's cheek with his free hand.  "I don't care right now, I don't care."  He kissed Tommy's lips and then his neck, sucking lightly at the skin.  "Yes, I...right over here I have a mattress," he said, leading Tommy over to the side of the dressing room he'd made up into a little crash pad. "Just be with me.  Just kiss me," he said, kissing Tommy again.  "It's all I ever wanted from you."

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andersonbrps:

“What does my day look like, Yitzhak? I believe I have a number of appointments and an even greater number of disappointments. What time is my first disappointment?”

                                                      - inspired by  theoriginofhedwig -

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kay-writes-things:

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That’s all I’ve ever wanted to do. It’s still all I really want to do is be on Broadway. I love doing it; it was the only professional goal I had for a long time was to be in a Broadway show. When I get to do it, it makes me the happiest.

-Andrew Rannells

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It’s a really satisfying and fun show to get to do, ‘cause once it starts, you’re the engine that’s driving that for 100 minutes

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wickedlittlegnosis:

Tommy moaned deeply. He slid his right hand down to the top of Hansel’s pants. He slowly slid his hand behind the elastic part of his pants and cupped his inch. He didn’t jump back this time. He just allowed his hand to get use to the feeling of the inch against his warm palm. He pushed his buldge against Hansel. “touch me.” He breathed against his mouth, breathing into his mouth.

He reached down with his free hand and unbutton his pants to have room for his cock to breath and move around. He pushed his hips forward waiting for hansel to touch him back. Hansel had blown him before, had gave him hand jobs in the baths and showers. It wasn’t new to Hedwig, but this time it was different. Due to his turn on being from kissing Hansel.

Hansel was shocked at the sudden brush of Tommy's hannd against his waistband.  Years ago, a version of himself had forced that hand inside, desperate for him to know, to understand to not care to still feel...  A whole host of things that ended up being impossible.  But now that hand was here of it's own accord, sliding against him with none of that fear.  Hansel shuddered and pressed foward into it, his eyelids fluttering.  

He didn't trust words, not at the moment, and just followed Tommy's instructions.  Hansel reached down and pressed his fingers into Tommy's pants, peeling away the fabric and curling around his cock.  His hand still remembered it, the weight and feel of it, how it had tasted.  Still remembered the right way to touch too.  Hansel teased around the head of Tommy's cock like Hedwig used to, rediscovering everything he'd known before.

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wickedlittlegnosis:

“I won’t. You don’t either.” He spoke softly. “And shut up. I was like 12.” He teased about the running away. He ran his hands down Hansel’s back. He placed them on his lower back. He closed his eyes and kissed Hansel back. He felt that rush of kissing deeply and with urgency like back in the day when they first kissed. He sucked in a deep breath of air, wanting so badly to just dive into it all.

Tommy tried to remember why he ran away. Why touching Hansel’s privates made him run. It wasn’t so much that, as much as it was his father’s voice loud in his head telling him his reaction to the kiss was bad and against Gods laws. He just didn’t confess the reason he ran was him running form his micromanaging fucking father. Tommy just wanted to know shit, and Adam was there encouraging him. He never wanted to admit how much Hedwig turned him on, but right now? He could careless what anyone thought.

Hansel let out a small laugh, flush deepening.  He forgot sometimes how young Tommy had been back then, had forgotten to take it into account when he thought of those times.  He had always focused on the pain.  Or Hedwig had.  She had grudges to keep, but he didn't.  It was easy to put them in a box here, to keep them far away.

Hansel pushed all those thoughts away, and let himself focus on their lips, the junction of their bodies at that one point.  As much as Hedwig had tried to force it before, Hansel couldn't help but think this was that moment, that moment of joining that he'd been waiting for all his life.  Both of them stripped down to their bare bones, broken and bleeding and raw.  It hurt, and maybe it was supposed to hurt.  Maybe that's why the story went on with blood streaming down faces.  Because pain was part of the equation.  

And maybe it didn't matter right now, because Hansel was feeling something that felt like love for the first time in his life.  He clutched Tommy tighter and deepened the kiss, licking into his mouth and tasting the mint of his toothpaste.