Henlo~ After when Izumi locks Makoto (yuu-kun) in a room and gets caught afterwards and his s/o who's in a different school hears about it and breaks down into tears while lecturing Izumi. Can I get a lil bit of angst but fluff in the near end for that plotline? haha
"Then what!? What am I supposed to do- how do you expect me react? What- you want me to understand what you did? How you--” the words choke down in your throat. Saying it out loud feels too real and you don’t think it does well to your sanity when you admit it out loud.
You can feel your face flaring up in anger, frustrated at the ugly reality of your predicament facing off against someone you saw highly of. Someone you trusted, adored, loved only to be painted in the ugly markings of greed and desperation.
In front of you, Izumi is silent. Face carefully void of emotions and it frustrates you further when you realize that’s the look of someone closing off from you. It feels as though you’re coming back to base one when you tried so hard to climb the steps closer to his heart only to come crashing down when he closes that door you’re worked so hard to open.
You can’t read him. Not after all the times you’ve spent carefully understanding his emotions, how his facial expression works and the miniscule flickers of emotions in his eyes. You’ve put so much time and so much care into reading his character, all your confidence in understanding him shreds to pieces when he doesn’t so much as spare a glance at you after all the anger and lectures you’re poured on him since meeting.
“How would you have felt? Locked up like that- it must have been terrifying and whatever trust he’s had in you is gone after what you did.” Your words are spat like molten lava, burning into skin and you can’t stop your words from hurting him when now, you only care to see a bit of emotion in him. Any bit of emotion is fine-- hurt, anger, frustrations- you don’t care if he yells at you or direct his anger towards you but you need something not this. Not this barrier he’s surrounded himself in far away from where you can reach him.
Your throat closes up, finding it difficult to speak anymore as your fingers tremble. It’s getting harder to breathe with the painful squeeze in your chest. “Izumi,” you choke, blinking harshly when his figure distorts in your vision. “Izumi I love you, I adore you, and I know you’re hurting but I can’t help if you don’t tell me. I’m so confident when it comes to understanding you but it feels like you’re so far away from me now. I can’t reach you like this and that hurts.”
Your vision obscures with the amount of tears falling down your face. Your throat closes further and further it’s difficult to speak and your chest constricts tighter and tighter it’s getting harder to breath. You’re a blubbering mess now, shaking and crying. You can hear yourself ranting, spilling words like a flood but you don’t know what you’re saying anymore.
“Stop. Just...” It was as if the universe listened to that one command. No sound registers in your ears; not the sound of rustling trees, not the sound of chattering animals; nothing. It’s as if everything stilled and there’s nothing and everything existing in the same moment as you quiet down along with the wind, small hiccups leaving your lips.
Your vision is still blurred with your tears but you can see the way Izumi’s eyes are glossy, biting down on his lip and-- your breath hitches. You’ve... never seen that expression on him before.
It’s as if witnessing the destruction of a beloved home, the passing of a dear one-- it spills and cries out so much sadness you’re not used to seeing on a beautiful face.
Izumi’s glosses ever, tears trickling down his cheek when he blinks and you can see the way he bite down harder on his lip. You’re not sure when he took your hands in his but his fingers are cold, the warmth escaping his fingertips as he squeezes your hands tightly.
Despite the coldness of his skin, it doesn’t fail to spread warmth against your cheeks when he brushes your tears away and you lean towards his touch instinctively. His palm is cold when he cups your cheeks. It’s silent all the while Izumi brushes the stray tears still escaping your eyes and you study the hurt on his face. It’s a new expression. You don’t like seeing it.
Seemingly done with his task, Izumi trails his hand down to hold your hand again. His eyes stare deep into yours, locked together with no distraction. Your gazes don’t break when Izumi leans down, faced eye to eye until he gets lower and lower and your staring down at him as he tilts his hand down, pressing his forehead against the back of your hands.
Izumi kneels on the ground, silent all the while he holds on to you tightly. “What I did isn’t right,” he starts, “that much is obvious. I can’t ask for forgiveness. Not from Yuu-kun or his friends and not from you.”
A shaky breath passes his lips before he looks up at you, eyes bloodshot and staring at his salvation. “I’ve been selfish.. no. I am selfish. It’s part of my nature to be. I can’t change that. It’s the reason why so much people left me.” A small chuckle leaves his lips. “It hurts everytime but..” Izumi bites his lip, eyes tearing up slightly. “It hurts a lot more to see you cry, apparently. You’ve been too patient with me. So-”
You slap a hand against his mouth, startling the grey-haired and his brows furrow when you glare at him. “Shut up. Don’t talk as if you’re breaking up with me. You’re really selfish you know that? But well, so am I! I’m not letting you go just because of some major fuck up when you’re clearly willing to change.” Crouching down, you find yourself eye level with crystal eyes once again. “Acknowledging your weakness is the first step of change, Izumi. I want to be there to help you.”
Your demands are met with a disbelieving laugh and you can see the visible way Izumi’s shoulders relax. “Right,” he agrees wholeheartedly, “Anything you want.” This time, when he cups your face gently and pulls you closer to him, his seeps warmth into your being and closing your eyes, you can’t help but think, things will get better.
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