I watched my two sisters eating the living hell out of the beefsteak on their plates. While me being an introvert child in the family is holding a phone filming every funny acts that their doing. Their habit was totally so unmanerred and their high class etiquettes were gone really bad. As Violet Carbonelle my older sister is munching her beefsteak like a pig, Lavender Carbonelle my second older sister on the other hand was beating her by eating like a monkey with both hands. She eats the last piece of beefsteak and said finish, “I win! Viol you lose bwaahahaha such a loser.”“In your face Lav your just lucky today even though you won, It just proves you’re a monkey that eats like a lion.” wiping the mess of beefsteak on her face.
Lavender rolled her eyes at her. “Shut up Viol.” Violet smirked at her. “You know what they say, you are what you eat.” Lavender looked pissed. “Look whose talk-”
I cut off the rest of their conversation as I clicked the stop button and slam myself in the couch in the living room. Spreading my feet in the comfy seat, I looked over the beefsteak eating contest laughing at my two sisters faces .Lavender is the immature one of our siblings we are actually five and I’m the youngest of them all. My other guy sibling's names are Andrew and Lucas Carbonelle they are a lot more playful in their own circle of friends than with us, having a family bonding together. So back to Lavender she seems the silliest of us but everyone knows not to get on her bad side. Her bad side proves that she is indeed a monster.
“So baby sis, how’s life being a Quider’s wife.”
“Not so good Sister Lavender.”
“You’re not yet in love with that gorgeously handsome guy.”
“No Sister Violet I will not fall for that jerk.”
“His personalities are annoying.”
“I don’t believe you baby sis because the way you look at him there’s a spark in your eyes .Such an indenial Queen.”
I don’t have the looks of a teenager Andrea brilliantes or the attitude of a sweet little girl. Andrew and Lucas describe me as deadly when you get to know me, Very .To the outside of my comfort zone people say I’m shy and quiet. Violet and my best friend Cassie Quider would give them the ‘Are you seriously crazy look?’ Look. I’m loud? Depends on which I have my close friends and families. But I’m quiet when I’m with other people I barely know .I’ll just curled up in my room read a good book .In short ,I’m plain and boring me. I’m a girl with long curl hair that needs to be cut and layered, has no fashion sense in wearing clothes and doesn’t like hanging out with people. When I first found my best friend in my high school days because she wasn’t like the other girls who are too complainants and can’t stop talking gossip to other peoples lives. I look towards the heaven and yelled to god my ‘thank you’. That resulted to my living nightmare.
Three Months ago during the last day of our class .Cassies’s roommate Girlie Savidra invited as to go to the bar. Most of my classmates would be there as a gathering .She was so excited to go to the bar because Its our first time .I've never been there before ever in my whole existence in this world. So Cassie and I went to the bar together with Girlie .We are having fun at first ,but after a few hours because of my drunken state the bar became too crowded for my vision. As I look to the other side my classmates as will are so drunk that their dancing wildly and crazily. “Cass we need to go were drunk .We are not safe her. I need to sleep, my vision are getting blur and blurry.” But Cassie is not listening so I start walking finding a way to get out of this bar .But my vision is getting blurry and blurry every seconds that I actually bumped someone. I was glad someone catches me before I fall deeply face to face on the floor because of my clumsiness. “Thank you, Sir. You can now let go of me I can handl-”but before I can finish my word the stranger dragged me to the exit of the bar and never letting go of my hand. As we walk, he drags me to his car. “Where are we going? Why are you dragging me in your car?” “Shut up Marinie!”
When my phone rang, it indicates an alarmed sound of my waking clock. A man was the first to rouse. Turning sideways, I realized that I had fallen asleep in a man’s arms! After about three seconds, the event of the previous night started coming back to me. Thunderstruck, I hurriedly jump off the bed and run towards the toilet in a panic. “Oh my god, what happened to me?” As I saw myself naked in the bathroom’s mirror. I hurriedly grab a robe to cover my nakedness and start counting one to ten to ease my fast heartbeat and start opening the door. "Ok Mr. I doesn’t know the name. Who dragged me to my own house .What really happen? And why am I naked in this bedroom of mine?”I was talking to him in a calm tone. “You’re not panicking? Such an amazing woman I must say---.”
Before the guy can start talking the whole event that had happen to us when I’m sleeping. There is someone opening the door that reveals my parents shock as I was."What happen in here?"My dad serious voice as he speaks occupied the room while looking at the both of us."Why are the both of you are not properly with clothes? Jolly get dress properly now and start explaining, what you just did with a guy wearing a boxer?"Mommy's hint of disappointment is evident to her tone and face. What have I done to my contentedly peaceful life? As my parents were gone I looked to the guy's face with furrowed eye brows and scan my room.It’s a mess the bedsheet had a small bright red stain. Female and male clothes are scruffy on the floor behind the bed. I had too much alcohol the night before, which caused me a splitting headache.But this did not hinder my thoughts process.In just about a second, I figured out what had happen between the two of us.
It is not a dream! I’m not dreaming!
But the big question is why did the guy knows my home address? I have no other friends except Cassie she is the one who knows my address.I told her my address because she is my bestfriend. My face darkened as I clenched my hand ready to punched the guy's face, who’s in front of me, but I refrained myself from doing it because it is useless .So I yanked my closet open, grab a decent dress and also an internal girls stuff and marched toward the bathroom with a mask of angered face. As I slammed the bathroom's door I shout at him the line 'I am not yet done with you.'
Now I’m walking on the stairs of our two-story mansion down to the first floor where the Office room is located I knocked three times before I open and entered that room .before I can sit down I can see different faces in the room a middle age handsome man, a young handsome man and the king beast who is gorgeously handsome that gives me a headache this morning and also my father Robert who is in his office table and my mom Claire who is beside him.
"Here she is, so it’s stilled now."
"Yes of course Robert. My niece Aaron was willing to take responsibilities for what happen to them. He is willing to marry Jolly. I can say his willing to settle down NOW."
"What! I taught I’m the one who would marry her in the future, because we are fix to be together in the beginning.MommyLa told me that even she is not yet born she will be my wife that’s the tradition of a Carbonelle and a Quider families lineage."
"Yes it is true Adrian, but what happen right now will change. You are free to choose who you want to marry in the Carbonelle's female daughters except my daughter Jolly."
"Mom what’s happening? Who's marrying whom as a tradition?"
"Claire aren’t your daughter suppose to know the tradition of the two families?”
"I’m not marrying anyone in this room. And it’s final."
"JOLLY MARINIE who give you the permission to decline the Quider family. That’s the tradition, only the boys of the Carbonelle and Quider will choose who they want to marry. So settle down and filter your mouth."
“But ….Daddy!" I look at my dad and said my disgust but refrain because of his serious face,facing at me. I look at the side and pleas mom."Mommy please."but failed.
They did not tell me of this tradition thing In Just a day,I became a Mrs. Quider. A wife’s man I barely know with the help of our family lawyer.
As I got home from my parents house I see an Adonis waiting for me in the open front door of our house I let my eyes adjust to the sunlight as I stared at my husband Aaron who's holding the door knob. “Was it fun being with your sisters and not being by my side?” His brown eyes bore into my black ones and I couldn’t speak as I looked into them .They were filled with so many emotion, more feelings are evident as I looked at his face. He was not familiar to me but something inside me said that I know him . His dark hair fell into his eyes and he blew at the strands to move them away from his face. His hair was a messy bed head. His breath smelled like mint and I had to admit when I looked at him he was handsome –no scratch that he was hot and an extremely gorgeously handsome man and it wasn’t something I could not ignore.
“I…am … so .. Happy when I’m with them. ” ‘I’m sorry’ the words that I want to say towards him but no I would not say it loud, I’m not going to be a softhearted towards him, because of him my life change .
“Next time, be a responsible wife to call me if you’re not coming home. I’m worried sick finding you.”
I ignore him.I walk toward the stairs to our room. Put aside the things and hurriedly jump to bed without changing my clothes. I’m tired of all the shits that I had been through with him I have been married with him for about three months. However, it was not a marriage fall of love and our families was aware of that.After we had married, we had effectively avoided each other with tacit understanding.Once we were out of the house automatically we regarded one another as a stranger. But now he just broke a cold treatment with me. How will I react? Just the thought of it made me shudder in fear and panic. I heard a vaguely footsteps coming closer from the room. I act asleep as the door open.
"I know you’re not yet sleeping.Can we talk? A serious talked." "What is it?"
"Can we settle our problem.Can you stop pretending that I don't exist? I’m tired of pretending that Your not my wife, just please can you treat me as your husband or just your friend. Let’s try to be a normal married couple we should act as matured individuals please, I beg you."He plead "Mr. Aaron Jee Quider, I never knew you had the ability to take advantage of me, how could you climb into my bed when I was drunk.You pretend too. Acting like we did something sexual that night! If I remember correctly on our night as a married couple, like a lofty man,the first sentence you said was not to show affection and kindness to you!Now what?Just three months being married to me and you can't contain my cold treatment towards you?"Aaron was silent so I spoke again. "Or have you always wanted to be my husband so you can prove to your self that you’re not in love with me and you'll never will." The moment I said that I burst into laughter before I counted two then my laugh disappeared.I glared sharply at him and said."Will Mr. Quider you are trying to play with my emotion, right? So you want to play with me huh? Alright, I’ll make sure you'll lose and I will break you bit by bit!" I ended it with a cruel tone.
"You want to know the truth. Why I’m being like this? Okay. Fine I’ll tell you my story."
An eight years old kid name Aaron who lay down to a Bermuda grass while playing his toy cars, hurriedly stand up."Mommy I'm here!" shouting to her mother while waving his little hands so his mother can see him.
His Mother smiled at him and come closer to where he is playing."The sun’s rays are so hot Baby. Why? Where you playing in this itchy Bermuda grass with your toys?" "I can't play with my car toys in there, Mom. I'm scared of the dark, there’s no Light in that house mom, it’s like a haunted house it’s creepy." She swiftly sweeps the dirt from the back of the kid's clothes."My baby is becoming impatient are we? Our maids and the things are not yet in here.There are still in manila. Your dad doesn’t have time to bring the things and also ManangLoding and April here in Oroquieta city baby. So be patient and please understand your daddy, alright baby." His Mother's voice is so nice to hear to the delectable little ears of Aaron it has a gentle and sweet tone the way the words spill out to her mouth it’s so sweet to hear. Unlike his father’s voice who has always wear a serious and angrily hard tone. Who always have an authority or demand voice. Aaron is totally scared of his father but his father’s attitudes towards him are kind and soft.Whenever his father returns home from work he would play toy cars with him. However his father is not constantly coming home at all times and sometimes he comes home after a year or a half because he is a soldier. His mom wipes away the sweat from his forehead down to his back. “Let’s eat! I cooked your favorite food, fried chicken!"
“Mommy, when will daddy come home?"He innocently questioned his mom.
“And Mommy, why did we move here in Oroquieta city?”
My mother holds my hand as we walk together returning from our new called house, that’s looked like a cottage. It’s so small unlike in manila that we have a mansion. We are in front of a man made mini forest now and it looks like a hide out to me.
“My baby Aaron doesn’t like it here? Do you? Your cousins are living in here. You well love it here that’s a promise, now you are not alone playing with your toy cars because your cousins are here they can be your playmate.”Little Aaron’s mouth blows air. “It’s different from manila.” "Very, because This place is more beautiful, peaceful, and has fresh air, Aaron don’t worry we will come back to manila if the time will come that your father’s works are fine and well done. But for now we need to be here for safety purposes.” He nods his head as he agrees.
“Mommy where is daddy now?” mom stilled and then smiled at me. “He’s somewhere saving people’s lives. Your dad is a superhero!” Aaron smiled. “Mommy, someday when I grow up can I be a superhero too?” She messed my hair. “Yes of course baby you can be the kindness superhero like daddy.”“Kindness?”
“Softhearted,caring and lovable.” Mom hugs him. “You can be a hero now, actually. You can help people and that makes you a hero.”“Without guns? I want a gun, mommy.” “If you’re old enough.You can have a gun. But for now just help who needs your help. For example if I need your help in carrying a basket full of foods in the market, if you’re playing with your cousins make sure they are safe so they would not be hurt, if there is an older person who is passing by in a highway who needs help you will be their helping guide. Okay baby.” He nods.
Aaron was born a hero. Even if his mother would not say something to help others, he will help and help who are in needs of help.
“Aaron!!!” His cousins are Levi and Jan who’s shouting his name for help. “Why?” he turned in their direction while he is playing basketball with Arniel and Kobe. His cousin Kobe hurriedly stole the ball from his hand and shoot, again he loses the game twice. “Adrian was trap, chasing the cat from a tree he can’t climb down because of the dogs surrounding the tree where the cat is. Adrian is scarred of the dogs. ” Jan who had the same age as him was telling all what had happened and now breathing heavily because of running. “He is crying. He’s helpless in there.” “Where?” panicked strike in his heart as the thought that his little cousin is in a big trouble. His cousin needs him.“There! There!” a running Levi pointed out where Adrian’s location is.
Outside of the house’s of Kobe. They all run and seen the helpless Adrian crying while hiding in the branch of a tree while the dogs are barking angrily at him. “Help me please! Someone help me!”Adrian while crying and shouting at the top of his lungs. “How can we help him, Aaron? The dogs are so huge!” Arniel said. Aaron bravely walks towards the dogs. “Aaron! Be careful of a dog’s bite it hurts so badly!”
Levi said to him stopping him from moving forward. He stop and shout at Adrian to let go of the cat that his holding.
His not scared of the dog’s bites. As long as Adrian is safe he will endure the pain if ever he will be bitten by the dogs. “Aaron can do it, god is within him.” “ADRIAN !” I called him as soon as he let go of the cat his holding “Run from the gate now.” As we run together hand in hand from the gate, where my cousins are waiting I pray to god my braveness and thanking him for our safety and my wisdom. As my cousins are cheering my braveness to save Adrian they shouted ‘you’re our hero’.
I felt proud. I’m a hero!
“That day I felt proud of myself Marinie because I became a hero, I told my mom about what happen and she is so proud of me but she also told me to beware of my action. She said I am becoming like my father.”
"GO ON TELL ME EVERYTHING."
“Your daddy hurriedly grabs the gun son to the enemy, I kick their feet and smash their face then I punch and punch and punch!, They landed on the floor and I hurriedly grab the last man and said you’re under arrest and you’re not getting away from all the crimes that you did.” My eyes look wide and wider I was amazed of my daddy’s story, my dad is brave! I WANT TO BE LIKE HIM!
“What had happened next dad?” Now that he’s nine years old, he is willing to listen to all he’s father’s combat stories about being a soldier.
“Bad will never wins against the good, “after his father finish all his stories thats full of smashing, punching, kicking and gun firing. Thank god he’s father is still alive and kicking!
I was amazed and I believed my father's capabilities when I was young about his dedications for his work .but eventually even I'm happy of the action moves and fighting skills about my father’s work my mom will contradict his works.
“What if you get shot? What if you never stole the gun from your enemy? You will be shot in the body several times by your enemies without you knowing and fighting it.” He accidentally heard all the sermons of his mother towards his father that day.
"Bettina, That’s in the past now. It did not happen alright? I’m in front of you now talking, arguing and alive” his father answered while holding his teary eye mother's hand. "I’m worried at you Art when never you’re on your mission.
"This is my work, before we knew each other. This is my job and as a soldier I need to protect our country's people."
As I walk outside of the room. I immediately hide back inside of the backdoor of my room when I heard my mother started crying.
"You’re always not around Art, Aaron was always asking where are you? He grow up not having a father by his side because your busy . I can't tell him that we are here in this situation because of you .Hiding like a thief because we are threaten to be killed by your enemies.” mom pushes dad a side. “Art, I’m tired, tired of this mess .Since I’m pregnant with Aaron, I’m all ways hiding. Scared to be caught because of your stupid job .Mom was right I should have not married you in the first place!”I heard dads gasp. "BETTINA, what are you talking about? Before we get married I already settle it with you - "
"Yes, Art you already cleared it to my face that we are not your first priority. Never will be your first priority because we are just your family I understand clearly even though your not their when I give birth to Aaron, I did understand you even it’s so difficult in my part because I need you that time ,I need my husband beside me caring and supporting me, but you’re not there."
"Why do you have to castigate me now? Bettina? Aaron is now nine years old why do you have to dig the past that was nine years ago."
"No Art it wasn’t nine years ago that you lack. Ever since you married me I never ever feel that I have a husband, that I am married. I made the biggest mistake of my life marrying you! , you are always so good at promising. I should have done the right thing. I should have not married you when you impregnate me.”
"Stop you don’t mean that! Right? We love each other."
"I don’t know anymore I love you still Art, but I can’t no longer contain myself being scared every day. Doubting when never you’re always away. I don’t know when you will come back alive or dead. I don’t want to endure the pain anymore when never I wanted you, needed you by my side." I wanted to cover my ears because of their shouts, while fighting each other. I never understand anything at all that they arguing.
I pecked at them then I saw dad hugging mom so tight.
"I love you so much Bettina and I love Aaron too."
"If you love us please leave your job alone! I want a peaceful life for you and for my son."
"No I will not leave my job Bettina many Filipino people need a soldier like me.”
“How come you always priorities others more than your family? You are the one who we need Art, Aaron needs you! Please Art! You have already served enough being a soldier to all the people in this nation., Please I beg you to be selfish enough and choose us just for once in your life." Aaron doesn’t know if his father answered it .He just saw them hugging while his mom was crying really hard. The next day, his father’s gone again to save other people’s lives.
Aaron was twelve years old when his father’s rank in the army elevated. Until he became a major general they are present in his father’s ceremony. There is a pin that his mother put in his father’s uniform then everyone clap and I salute my father. "One day, you’ll be the hero Aaron.” He said while messing my hair.
There was no new in his family’s set up. He was eighteen when he enrolled a university in manila for a criminology course in college he tried his best to have a higher grade in the first semester because he was inspired and he did have a high grade. After the whole semester was done he was really excited to go home to his mom to tell the good news and his mom will give birth soon in this month. The month of February he will have a baby sister.
“Mom, did dad called you?” I asked mom while I was busy peeling a green mango for her. Next week is her due date.
"Yes son he called yesterday, he’ll try to be with me when I give birth to your baby sister.” Mom’s nose crease. “But I will no longer hope it’s just a promise that he’ll break."
"Mom, don’t say that, dad will be with us, he is trying his best to be with us alright, so he will be here when you give birth. So cheer up mom.” as I console my mother and defend my father.
Mom did not say a single word .she just eat the green mango that I had peeled." Mom what’s the name of my baby sister?” Mom held her tummy. Your dad like the name Cassandra, while me I want Amelia.” I laugh “My baby sister’s name stinks! I like Cassandra than Amelia, mom.” he teased his mother. "Aaron! My disgraceful child!”Mom laugh at my joke and said “I love that name don’t murder it.”
I nod at her "Then Amelia Cassandra Quider is the name .Ah it’s perfect for a royal princess, Mom! That sister of mine is imported .She’s a god send from us."
We laughed at what I said and my mom pinch my ear. “’I’m glad you’re here my big baby you make your mother happy you are my hero who save me from my loneliness.” "Oh God! My mom is such a drama queen.” Mom laughed again and hugged me. "My big baby doesn’t want some loving! Come here and I’ll give you a kiss.” “Mom!” I called her then averted my face so she can’t kiss my cheek. She laughed and mess my hair.
Our laughed continue as we make jokes when we heard loud gunshots. Mom scream “What is it Aaron?” as she saw me looking in the window.
Suddenly I held my left shoulder as I saw my flowing blood, I was shot. I yelled loud because of the pain and hurriedly lay down on floor .
"Mom,be safe lay down!” I yelled and acted like I don’t mind the pain in my shoulder. My mom shivers while hiding under the table as I am trying crawl to her side. 'Dad!dad! Help us ' his trying to shout for Dad’s help in his mind. Where are you? What happen? how come someone wants to harm my family? Where are you dad we need you!
I cried as I got shot on my back .Mom cried too as she saw me in pain. “Mom …” I cried as I felt that my body is numb and the pain was invading my whole body with fire that can burn my skin, and I got shot in my leg again. “Aaron!” A horrible cry was evident on his mother’s face as she saw me in pain. The gunshots did not stop from falling in our house like a rain."Aaron, son!” I look at my mom who called my name but my vision was blurred because of the pain that inflicted my body. Mom needs me I need to stay Awake and alive she needs me and my baby sister needs me! "Mom, don’t move your safe in there just stay there, I’m alright” I shouted at her when she started to move under the table to save me.
Mom held her stomach while trying to hold my hand to drag me in her side. "Son! " She leaves her hiding place so she can save me to be under the table made of a narra tree. I scream and cried as I saw my mom got shot in her chest. “Mom!!" my loud voice echo in all the corners of the house as I shout while looking at my mom who is now trying to breath evenly and she got shot in the back too . And the entire place becomes dark.
As I woke up my whole body was in pain. I was lying on the hospital bed, as it register to my head that I’m alive! All that was happen to him sudden flash in his mind “where is my mom? What happen? Where is my baby sister?” My relatives gasp as I sit on the hospital bed .they tried to calmed me and called a doctor to diagnose me. “Where is my mom? Is she okey? Is my baby sister okay too? Are they already safe?” He heard all his aunt’s cried .his now breathing really hard. He was anxious. “What happen?” “Your mom gives birth, Aaron! Your sister is safe she was in the incubator.” “So where is my mom? Is she okay? Is my dad here? Did he know what happen?” “Aaron, your mom …she’s gone …. Bettina is gone..She chooses to first save the baby than herself. She died after giving birth two days ago.”
The doctor said to minimize my movement so my wound won’t be open, but it did not stop me to run at my mom who was now lying in the coffin. My world collapse as I hold the coffin and look at my mom’s face. “Mom..mom, don’t go mom please wake up ,mom please I beg you please wake up!” “Aaron, that’s enough!”. “Mom! Mommy!” I never felt so helpless and broken before. How come it turns out like this? Why did my mom died? “Mom! Cassandra will grow without a loving mother, you don’t want that mom, right? Mom, why did you leave me? Mom!” I was crying like a kid begging mom to wake up. She’s alive this is not true it is just a dream my mom is alive. “Mom!Mom!” I have nothing to say I am angry at myself, in pain and empty from all that had happen in my life it was a tragedy .My beloved mother was gone .I didn’t even have the chance to say goodbye . I did not protect my Mom! I’m not a hero! Mom I’m so sorry. I said it again and again. I feel the pained that will soon crush my heart into tiny little pieces. “Mom, I love you mommy” everything’s too late.
It’s the fifth day of his mother’s wake .He did not do any thing but to guard his mom and never even sleep ever since he left the hospital. The person who’s behind his mother’s death was imprison he was an enemy of his father. His father is the one who give justice to his mother’s death but he those not mind at all because his great so called father will not be home comforting him. Even if he doesn’t go home he don’t care anymore. “Aaron, you need to rest! Cassie is in their sleeping in your room if you like to sleep beside your baby sister. She’s there.” His relatives called Cassie as a nick name of his baby sister. He shakes his head as a sign he don’t want to go. As he saw his father he said “You have no right to be here!” they’re standing on the entrance door was his father. “Son, I need to see your mom, I need to. Please. You need me as a father now, Aaron.” “I don’t need you” he coldly said, “Son.” “I thought you protect and save people, dad.”“ But where are you when we need you when I and mom were in danger? You’re the one to be blame of my mother’s death. Mom was gone because of you! If you just chose to live that damn job of yours we should not be in danger! She should not be died by now! She will not choose who would be save first! If you just hurriedly come home, mom would still be alive today!” His father cried in front of them in front of all the people from his mother’s wake. Aaron held his tears and acted like a stone. “Mom endures all the pain and waited all of your time that you can give just for her, even if she is in pain because of her being pregnant without you, she always takes care of me and always understands you. You wanted to be a hero! A saint! To everyone! Congrats, dad! You have save everyone’s lives except my mom’s life!” “Aaron.” “Have you seen that? Mommy is in there! She’s sleeping peacefully and never ever will wake up .How can you start doing your promises now! When the women you have promise to be with her, Died! If you wanted to be a hero YOU SHOULD PRIORITIZE YOUR FAMILY FIRST! You should stop being my dad because ever since I grow up you’ll never ever act like my father at all. I.HATE.YOU.” he’s father gasp and the pain are evident in his eyes as I spoke every word. His father tried to reach him but failed as I walked away. His dad is angry at him and his angry with his dad too. Seemed fair enough .He hated his father to the core. He is not a hero .Not anymore for him. My heart is a stone for my father. I promise my self that I will not be like him .never ever be like him.he’ll be wiser .if ever he had a wife he will love her and filled her with all the attention that he have, he’s wife will not be like his mother . He promises that to his self. But he was oblivious that he was becoming like his father.
My tears fall as I heard his story the pain was evident in his eyes too .I saw his eyes are sorely red with tears I was a bad person towards him he was holding back his past so that’s why he was being like this an loaf, unemotional cold man on the outside but was a broken soul on the inside “I’m sorry I didn’t know” I hug him tight and said the word that I wanted to tell him since I become his wife “I cared for you. So if you feel like you wanted to cry and wanted to talk again, I’ll listen.”
