[annaotherworld]

Thank you summer for giving me depression and triggering my eating disorder. All people are so skinny and having the time of their lives and I just feel ugly and sad.

[annaotherworld]

[thefrizzkid-deactivated20220425]

You don’t have to get a “bikini body.” You already have one. 🌻🌻🌻🌻

[annaotherworld]

So true!

[annaotherworld]

Dear body,

I've treated you very badly in the last few years, hated you, repelled you, hurt you and wanted to change you by all means. Driven by my hatred, I have completely forgotten what you actually do for me. You always get me safely through the day. Thanks to you I can feel, taste, talk and hear. You let me experience emotions, even if they sometimes scare me. Only you enable me to live, to exist. Even if I have a worse relationship with you at the moment, I try to treat you well every day and I won't stop with that. At some point I want to value you as much as you deserve, because you are my home.

[annaotherworld]

30 minutes ago: I bought delicious groceries and planned what I would like to cook. I didn't give the eating disorder a change

Now: The eating disorder wants me to never eat anything again and to get as thin as possible.

Eating disorders are so fun ...

[annaotherworld]

[tumbleblindly]

[annaotherworld]

[annaotherworld]

I hate it when people talk about how little they ate. I always see it as a competition and feel bad when I eat more than the other person did.

[annaotherworld]

[annaotherworld]

that's how i feel every day and can i say how awesome and funny this Marjorie Dursley balloon is?😂

[studentlifeproblems]

[annaotherworld]

[annaotherworld]

My roommate always eats huge amounts of food at night, even what doesn't belong to him. At the same time he fasts intermittently and counts calories. The other roommates think it's great that he does something for his fitness and are now even starting to do it. The whole thing triggers me sooo much. I really don't like going to the kitchen anymore

[annaotherworld]

[annaotherworld]

I often think that my eating disorder is not real. Yesterday I ordered food with my boyfriend and it was really difficult for me to eat it. So difficult that I couldn't finish it. Such situations increasingly remind me that the eating disorder is real and that I am not just pretending to have one. When I eat something I always feel like I'm doing something forbidden and that's why I don't enjoy going out to eat or ordering food. It makes me sad and I'm mad at myself that I can't do this.

[annaotherworld]

i can't sleep so i need distraction

1) 69.7 kg

2) 54kg

3) I don't know exactly, it is definitely a restrictive type. But I would rather say ednos, because I'm not sure

4) That is hard to say. it started when I was 12 or 13 that I didn't eat in front of others. At the age of 16 I realized that I had an eating disorder. I'm 20 now, so it's been around 4 years that I've been consciously stuck in the eating disorder

5) I don't have a favorite ed song. But The Smith song This Night Has Opened My Eyes reminds me of the eating disorder. At that time I did a lot of sport and always listened to the song

6) No

7) i don't like black coffee

8) I like tea, but only very specific flavors

9) I am a vegetarian but eat vegan as much as possible

10) My favorite safe foods are pasta, rice cakes, and soy yogurt

11)Definitely fast food, oil and generally anything that is not home-cooked

12) A few people know about it, but I'm no longer in contact with them. I recently told my boyfriend about my eating disorder

13) you don't need a bikini body if you don't go to the beach 🌚

14) no, I'm studying at a university

15) I am 20 years old

16) my dress size is 38-40

17) nope

18) I wouldn't count myself among them. But I have the attitude that I can love everyone. So far I only have experience with male people.