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My brain feels like it’s bouncing around in my skull today

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Is it… wrong of me to encourage Keaton to find a part time job in addition to his full time? The reason being- we need to start paying off these student loans, and his are double what mine are. It’s a scary amount, and I’m motivated to pay them off as fast as humanely possible.

Also- I’m not just asking him to without doing it myself! I have always, in the last 4 years, done extra outside of my full time teaching/student responsibilities. Subbing, working at the library, and now in the fall I will be a full time lecturer at one university, an adjunct elsewhere, and doing my library job. But I realize that just because I want to do all of those things and maximize my income, that pace is not for everyone.

He has agreed he should get a part time job, but I just worry as the driving force behind busting ass to pay these off ASAP, he will be resentful or something. I just wish he wanted to/cared about paying them off as much as I do.

[marzipanandminutiae]

every conversation Natalie has with another woman in Yesteryear

other woman: oh hi!

Natalie, mentally: that little bitch cunt whore- sorry God -was so jealous of me I could smell it on her like her toxic chemical perfume. I was also wearing perfume, but Better because Reasons. I bet she was going to go home and tell everyone she saw me and what a fake I was, and then think of me while her husband fucked her awkwardly and the only way she could get off was imagining how my breasts look in my sundress. but she's going to buy my branded stand mixer in secret and fantasize about me giving her a back massage while we bake a cake together in my perfect farmhouse kitchen, so I win. slut tramp harpy did I already say bitch? because Bitch. sorry, God

Natalie, aloud: hi! how are you doing?

[anneoxford]

No one’s fault but my own, but I guess I assumed I had 6 months after graduation on all of my loans. I logged in this week to see my first payment of 680 is due in July; I won’t get my first paycheck from the college until the end of August 😭

[anneoxford]

I don’t know if this outfit is appropriate for a 32 year old, but it is hotter than hell out.

[anneoxford]

I do like feel good stories- like Fredrik Backman -but I am finding Theo of Golden rather boring. Maybe because everything goes along perfectly, Theo is a pretty one dimensional character- idk. Backman’s book I feel have more nuance, I tend to care about the characters a lot, that sort of thing. I feel like in ToG I would not care about what happens to any character one way or another.

[anneoxford]

Thinking about doing our honeymoon next summer (lol) around our two year wedding anniversary.

I’m torn because I don’t want to do something that id absolutely want to bring Scarlett along for. So like- exploring a new country, etc. It’s going to be something very relaxation oriented- probably a beach, possibly all inclusive….? Though I don’t love that because I enjoy food, and there are always bad reviews about the food….

Somewhere tropical, great snorkeling, where we can lay on a beach or by the pool and read and talk and nap for a week. Not somewhere in the US because we have been to all of those places (except Hawaii- but I wouldn’t want to go to Hawaii and just sit on a beach).

[anneoxford]

Now I’m thinking- do we really need a honeymoon? Lol/ everywhere I think about, I’m like ohhh I’d really want Scarlett to see/experience that too. I mean- we only have 5 summers left of her as a child (sob)- we can honeymoon when she goes off to college???

[anneoxford]

Closed at the library tonight and now I’m having the post closing jitters. Was someone still in there? Did I check everywhere to make sure they left?

[anneoxford]

Thinking about doing our honeymoon next summer (lol) around our two year wedding anniversary.

I’m torn because I don’t want to do something that id absolutely want to bring Scarlett along for. So like- exploring a new country, etc. It’s going to be something very relaxation oriented- probably a beach, possibly all inclusive….? Though I don’t love that because I enjoy food, and there are always bad reviews about the food….

Somewhere tropical, great snorkeling, where we can lay on a beach or by the pool and read and talk and nap for a week. Not somewhere in the US because we have been to all of those places (except Hawaii- but I wouldn’t want to go to Hawaii and just sit on a beach).

[anneoxford]

While I am a little sad to have turned down the job offer, I fully believe it was the right choice. I couldn’t see my family living in the town long term, and it didn’t feel right to uproot Scarlett from an amazing school district and community for something that would likely be very temporary.

Honestly, between the lecturing position at my prior college, adjuncting for the local community college, and keeping my part time job at the library, I’ll be making close to the same amount of money. Does it suck to cobble together multiple jobs, yes, but the lecturer position comes with benefits, so I’m happy enough. I’ll write this year, try to get one or two articles under review, and try again next year for a more desirable job and location.

I feel positive about things, and I don’t feel like I made some big mistake, so it was the right choice.

[anneoxford]

I don’t regret the trip either- we crossed another national park off our list (Badlands), amazing state park (Custer), and national monument (Mount Rushmore)

[anneoxford]

While I am a little sad to have turned down the job offer, I fully believe it was the right choice. I couldn’t see my family living in the town long term, and it didn’t feel right to uproot Scarlett from an amazing school district and community for something that would likely be very temporary.

Honestly, between the lecturing position at my prior college, adjuncting for the local community college, and keeping my part time job at the library, I’ll be making close to the same amount of money. Does it suck to cobble together multiple jobs, yes, but the lecturer position comes with benefits, so I’m happy enough. I’ll write this year, try to get one or two articles under review, and try again next year for a more desirable job and location.

I feel positive about things, and I don’t feel like I made some big mistake, so it was the right choice.

[anneoxford]

Well, we visited South Dakota and it was beautiful. In the end though, I turned down the tenure track job. It felt like the right decision, even though I am a little sad/scared about it. Fingers crossed that more opportunities come up.

[anneoxford]

Would you move halfway across the country for what seems to be an ideal job that you can’t currently get where you live? Also- to a very conservative state albeit a more progressive college town?

[anneoxford]

I have a funny/bad feeling about the whole thing honestly. Since it’s summer, they did second interviews virtually rather than in person, like they normally would. Okay fine, but I guess I thought that if they offered me a job, they might support/cover a campus visit before asking me to decide. According to others, it’s not really common for a tenure track position to ask you to agree, sight unseen. They have kind of hemmed and hawed about the request and finally said they would reimburse me in the summer calling it “moving expenses,” but it seems I’d only be reimbursed if I take the job? They’ve tried to accommodate me in other ways- like what if I can do the first semester remotely? But I don’t know- the confusion and hesitation with the site visit have me not feeling confident about taking the job.

[anneoxford]

Would you move halfway across the country for what seems to be an ideal job that you can’t currently get where you live? Also- to a very conservative state albeit a more progressive college town?

[anneoxford]

I had a THREE hour second interview at a university last week (30 mins was a teaching demonstration). I’ll be honest, when it was over, I thought for sure they’d offer me the job. They mentioned so many times “you hit the nail on the head when you did x in your demonstration…” or “you’d be a wonderful advocate for x program here…”

But it’s been a week, and I have not heard anything. So now I’m assuming they offered the job to someone else, and they’re waiting to see if they accept or not.

[anneoxford]

UPDATE- they emailed to ask if I have time to talk on the phone later today. Would they want to reject me via phone or would they just reject me via email???? I have to wait and see????? I want to know nowwww

[anneoxford]

I mean he said he’d “love” to schedule a time to talk today and he “looks forward to talking” sooo would he look forward to rejecting me????

[anneoxford]

They offered me the job.

[anneoxford]

I had a THREE hour second interview at a university last week (30 mins was a teaching demonstration). I’ll be honest, when it was over, I thought for sure they’d offer me the job. They mentioned so many times “you hit the nail on the head when you did x in your demonstration…” or “you’d be a wonderful advocate for x program here…”

But it’s been a week, and I have not heard anything. So now I’m assuming they offered the job to someone else, and they’re waiting to see if they accept or not.

[anneoxford]

UPDATE- they emailed to ask if I have time to talk on the phone later today. Would they want to reject me via phone or would they just reject me via email???? I have to wait and see????? I want to know nowwww

[anneoxford]

I mean he said he’d “love” to schedule a time to talk today and he “looks forward to talking” sooo would he look forward to rejecting me????

[anneoxford]

I had a THREE hour second interview at a university last week (30 mins was a teaching demonstration). I’ll be honest, when it was over, I thought for sure they’d offer me the job. They mentioned so many times “you hit the nail on the head when you did x in your demonstration…” or “you’d be a wonderful advocate for x program here…”

But it’s been a week, and I have not heard anything. So now I’m assuming they offered the job to someone else, and they’re waiting to see if they accept or not.

[anneoxford]

UPDATE- they emailed to ask if I have time to talk on the phone later today. Would they want to reject me via phone or would they just reject me via email???? I have to wait and see????? I want to know nowwww