Not All Who Wander Are Lost

Introvert. Eternally 7 with BTS. Will always be forever grateful & thankful to BTS for teaching me how to love myself again 💜 '90s | Summer Sweetheart | Soulful Wanderer | Singer | Dancer | Lover | Your Angel |  034 | 6100

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Wishing everyone a Merry Merry Christmas 🎄 Spread love and kindness ❤ From my family to yours 😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/B6e1twYpnE-hkgLdPRlFNNbTCn9EGlLjvvTvCU0/?igshid=11jdnuqrjg5cr

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Don’t get me wrong, I miss you. I miss waking up and immediately checking my phone for a message. I miss waiting all week just for a Friday night of kisses and deep talks. I miss the feeling I got all the years to come. I miss the butterflies that flew wild when someone mentioned your name. But then I remember all the things I don’t miss. I don’t miss feeling sad all day when I didn’t receive a single text. I don’t miss all the fights and being ignored for days at a time. I don’t miss being the second to all the things that I brought your sobriety to an end. I don’t miss feeling like I barely mattered when you were the only thing that began to matter. So yes, sometimes I miss you but then I remember how better off I am because a relationship like ours was so toxic; the kind that made some people jump off bridges and swallow a month’s supply of pills. I miss you, but our love was never the kind I wanted and I’ll be okay without you.

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The irony of missing you.

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Fix Yourself First

I used to think that I can love someone while I’m still broken and healing. I used to believe that I can love someone without loving myself first. I used to believe that.

But loving someone doesn’t work that way. If you’re still broken and shattered, fix yourself. You can never rely on someone to fix you. You’ll only break more. On the process of trying to make them fix you, you’ll ruin them. And it’s the same if you try to fix someone who’s still broken. You’ll ruin yourself.

We were so blinded by the thought of being fixed by someone and with that someone being our ‘the one’. You have to do it yourself. Don’t depend your happiness on someone because you can never be sure if they will be there with you temporarily or permanently. You should be responsible for your own happiness.

Learn what you need. What you deserve. Know your worth. That way, you won’t have to chase and beg people to stay in your life. Being with someone doesn’t mean that the person will fill the emptiness in you, you should be complete when you find that someone. Completely aware of what you want. Completely sane to all the roller coaster ride of emotions you’re about to face. You should be complete to love that person wholeheartedly and passionately.

Fix yourself. Love yourself, so you’ll be able to love right.

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Thank You For Not Choosing To Stay

That night, when I asked you to leave, at the back of my head, I said, “Please, don’t let me go.”

And the world agreed with what my heart wanted, and it shouted your name.

But still, you left.

I had to agree and surrender.

Thank you for not choosing to stay. Cause I know, if you didn’t leave, I’ll never let you go.

Thank you for not choosing to stay. It became easier for me to accept everything.

When everything seemed right and normal even when at the beginning, it was already wrong.

Thank you for not choosing to stay. You made the right choice.

Finally, we chose something right for us.

No regrets after all, for God has shown me that everything happens for a reason.

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Happy Easter Sunday everyone! 🐰 I don't look happy though in this picture 😂😂😂 https://www.instagram.com/p/BwgZtLfhaWZEhyXq8nw-fcGfD4DDvBmR8W-l_U0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=arrfzndzdulc

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Slay like a queen ❤ https://www.instagram.com/p/Bv7r0mPDcH0qTQNUigxzi69KgbiX1upBrSLMRM0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1l71aehwx0u0c

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Happy 2019 🎊 https://www.instagram.com/p/BsE4A3jD93iQMZqvogMTtnIjwkvJAoWqxc3M4g0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1t2urgc8sf5pm

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Wishing everyone a Merry Merry Christmas! From my family to yours! ❤ Insert @raymundcuadra. Missing you here in PH. Sending you all the love from PH and QATAR. #Scuad #CuadSquad https://www.instagram.com/p/BrzwSVTj35dTGk65bbyIaP1KNANZYWlnuQw6FM0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=jv8ed97smk38

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Dear Me, I'm so sorry that you had to cry nights for people that didn't care about you. I'm so sorry that you had to chase people who didn't love you back. I'm so sorry for letting you down constant of times when all you wanted was to heal, when all you needed was a break from everything. I'm so sorry that I didn't love you. I'm so sorry that I didn't learn how to love you. I'm so sorry that I didn't accept you. I'm so sorry that I didn't have enough courage to fall in love with all of you. https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq1ffzjAQL_5c4Iy08D1bQmGXxBKIrdDzhnbA40/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=40s689bg03or

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And I've learned a lot of things this year but the most important thing I've learned is, that with every harsh good-bye comes a beautiful awakening. That every door that closes, there's another one opening soon after. And that whenever you help someone and genuinely mean it, the universe crowns you and grants you the spiritual growth you need ❤ https://www.instagram.com/p/BqjkR4Ujd1HucbwKmbOYtKtAx9YUvacnrbv0qc0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xbxs0zw3tr61

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And I will love you for a thousand years #FourCenturyOldBaleteTree (at 4-Century Old Balete Tree, Canlaon City) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo5zybOFqA9pNnaK7yTrvdr-cbifSfrnBwJgfc0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=bzupz8l6wz2d

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Happy Happy Birthday my terrible two 🎉🎂🎁. To my bunso, manang Mariel being my eldest and manang Andi being my middle child. On the day you were born, our family and my heart grew in size and love. Your little hands and your little feet carried you into my affections and the best parts of your life. As you grow, I have loved every moment I spent with you. You make me laugh, taught me about life, and makes every day just a little better. I've never loved anyone so much and MY FAVORITE JOB IN LIFE IS BEING YOUR AUNT. On that day that you were born, you melted my heart. I never knew I could love someone so quickly and easily until I met you. On my cloudiest days in life, you are a beautiful rainbow. Thank you for always bringing light, laughter, and love into my life May your birthday be full as much amazement and joy as you bring me. Tita P loves you from infinity and beyond. I LOVE YOU ABYpot and I MISS YOU a gazillion times 😘😘😘😍😍😍 https://www.instagram.com/p/BomRqUNldnrZJ0t7PDOSdcmIZujnr_B_Kd2Kiw0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=17pbz9nqgyb4h